we all wanna be thin
diet of nicotine
and cigarette smoke;
let me see those bones.
delicate fragile curves
like a swan's neck
vulnerable
and carved out of
stone
statuesque
and perfection
a greek chiseled chest
with a collar bone
deep
as the trenches
at the bottom
of the sea
because skinny arms
skinny legs
can't hold veins
long enough to live

the curve of coffee
mug handles
forms familiarity
with the figures
of my grasping fingers
hoping to clutch at something warm
like the soup of your heart-
the dish of the day
i know you give it to me over
and over
but i never tire
of the taste

you got high once;
when i was out of town.
i forgive you love.

i know you're sorry,
it's a struggle
of course.
i forgive you love.

dry your eyes
and remember i don't have it in me
to leave your side
i forgive you love.

mistakes are a part of life
you're the sweetest boy
that holds me when i cry
i forgive you love.

shadow heart
shadow skin
i flit between this life
and that.
invisibility finds it's way to me
to kidnap my confidence
what was that?
oh,
only my voice
lost
to the wind.

i call this the golden hour:
i only notice when my
heart is content-
and right now, its swimming
in a sweet heady fragrance;
the leaves on the trees drip yellow honey
the windows radiate;
kitchen walls glowing warmly
and all our skin stained
with the color of laughter.
and  i know the light is
rejuvenating
and i know that right now
i'm golden too

the light drips through my window
a solemn moment wrapped
snuggly about me.
alone
as a desert cactus
cradled in the losses of failed efforts.
i do try, you know
but alas here i am
alone

peeled me like
a citrus fruit
waiting to ooze
and digest
inside of you