you think you know me
because youve seen the paleness of my skin
the lines against my thighs
youve seen the fabric being taken off
youve heard the belt buckles
the shoes
the clasps
youve heard my breath shake
my whimpers
your name being shouted into oblivion
you think you know me
because youve seen me, heard me, felt me

but you dont know a **** thing.

******* and that stupid smile.
******* and that angelic laugh.
******* and those perfect hands.
******* for keeping me in love with you
you dont even want me.

maybe ill find a place to reside
a home per say
maybe ill find my safe place
maybe itll fall right into place
maybe..

ive always believed i wasnt hard to love
because you made me feel that way

im sorry you stopped feeling that way, but now i know everyone feels the same way about me

how am i supposed to move on when my soul is bound to yours?
how am i supposed to find someone else when youre the one?
how am i supposed to do that
how do i love again, if its not you

im the main antagonist in my own story.
i never give myself a break
i never allow myself to love
to feel
never.

im a creep.
im a ******.
what the hell am i doing here?
i dont belong here.

i am nothing but a pile of clothes on my bathroom floor.
i am nothing but a red solo on the counter at a party.
i am nothing but the piece of gum on the sidewalk.
useless, unknown,
and forgotten.

i think of you
but i know ill never be good enough for you to think of me

you put our song
in a playlist
you made for her.

this is just a bump in the road,
but i promise im trying

youre the one that i love, and im saying goodbye

oh, to be the only gleam in your eyes

Take my lungs, take them and run
Take my tongue, go have some fun
And take the ears, take them and disappear
Take my joints, take them for points
Take my teeth, tear through my cheeks

I am an artist, please god forgive me
I am an artist, please don't revere me
I am an artist, please don't respect me
I am an artist, you're free to correct me

I must be psychotic
I must be demented
To think that I'm worthy
Of all this attention

youre the one that hurts me more then anything.
yet i love you more then anything.

ill always love you, even if you dont

no matter where you are ill be there
i wont let you fall
i wont let you go

just like cyanide ill breath your wicked lies

im giving up.
this fight is to much for me.
im to weak
i cant do it anymore

im a lonely star,
is there anybody out there?

Love songs are fleeting
But the melodies stick with you

i wanted happy ever after
but ever isnt happy without you

so just leave me here like this
without a lovers goodbye kiss

i was never your single star,
but she.. god she was your whole galaxy.

go ahead walk away
but i want you to know
i always hated you

what do you do when the one you love the most,
causes you the most pain

this beating in my chest wont start back up
it just stalls
       and stalls
              and stalls
                    and stalls
                     please come back.

save yourself from a life full of lies
and a heart full of pain and sorrow.
save yourself from the choices i make,
cause nothing but failure follows me

you said you loved me for me.
i didnt know the only thing i was to you was my body

i cannot stop this sickeness taking over
it seeks control and drags me into no where
i need your help i cant fight this forever
i know youre watching i can feel you out there

sometimes my head is to much for me.
slowly covering my eyes making it hard to see
burning my lungs making it hard to breath
it wants to break me.
but ill be okay.

im buried in burdens.
covered in thorns.
wrapped in oblivion.
i am nothing.
i am no one.

im tired of breathing in artifical air.
filling my lungs with oh so sweet posion.
im tired of wasting my money away in light blue sticks of my joy.
im paying for the air i need to breath. and im sick of it.
but i cant stop

you think you know me because youve seen every piece of me.
youve seen the blood stains on my t-shirts,
the cuts that run down my thighs.
youve seen my body,
every broken piece of it.
youve seen me naked,
my aching body laid out in front of you.
just because youve seen me, doesnt mean you know my story.

im stuck.
in this bottomless pit.
its so dark here in this world.
where everthing is monochrome and no matter how hard i search im stuck.

no matter how lonely i am,
these voices will always keep me company

im tired of walking on eggshells.
regretting every word that exits my poisonous tongue,
hating myself more then the last few words.
im tired of stepping on your eggshells, but its just so fun

yet i would still spend my days trapped under bottomless bottles of jack to get the taste of your lips off my tongue.
i would scream into thunder storms to get your air out of my lungs.
i would through hell to burn your touch off my skin.
although, i would do all this to get rid of you,
i would give my whole life to keep you.