You listened to Frank Ocean and Johnny Rain
I listened to Nirvana and Coldplay
I was never the one to stand out in a crowd and didn't have much friends but that was alright
But you, everybody knew you and girls wanted to be with you.
When you turned around in your seat to look at me, my hands shaked like an earthquake and I started feeling so many things whenever I saw you.
When you said to me,"I love you and still think your beautiful, even with your scars,"
I knew that I was inlove with you and I couldn't stand the thought of you leaving me.
You made me feel loved and wanted for once; you gave my life purpose.
You found me in the dark when I had already given up on myself and wanted to end my life.
My nightmares soon became dreams;
endless dreaming of your kiss so soft against my lips and how your eyes gazed into mine before you leaned in.
We didn't have much but we were so in love.
One day you texted me and said,"I'm in love with two people at the same time."
hurt
heartbroken
You never saw the tears I cried that day.
You told me that you were going to try to forget her, for us and I believed you, like the fool I'm.
But we made it past that relentless ocean and saved our relationship.
But another hurricane was coming our way soon.
"I'm sorry.That you are feeling this way.It wasn't really my intention."
******* ******* *******
And just like everybody else who entered my life, you left when you promised you wouldn't.
You lead me on, and messed with my head.
And now I'm hopeless and lost without you.
oh god
i
am
so
alone
We don't talk much anymore, but you still cross my mind time after time.
All I have now is my pain to hold on to and my tears are
f a l l i n g
like rain down my cheeks
"Somebody in the future will make you just as happy as I made you."
But can't you see that you were my future, that you ******* meant everything to me!
hate
depressed
A lesson learned.
A chapter never finished.
A happy never after.
When I need you the most, you leave.
Now what I'm supposed to do?
Because of you, I have new red smiles on my wrists and I have lost weight.
Nights of just thinking what and when I went wrong and having to cry myself to sleep.
I'm slowly killing myself,starving,losing sleep over you
when you don't
even care
I wish you the best of luck and find what you are searching for.
Because I was never enough for you.
I would try to get you back, but I lost you a long time ago.
You showed me love and I thank you for that.
Nothing gold can stay.
(m.p.)