I find myself yawning again and again,
But I can't sleep, which is a real pain.
I lie on my left side, then on my right,
But, for me, there is no sleep in sight.

Next, I turn and lie flat on my back,
But, of any sleep, there is still a lack.
I lie there, looking up at the ceiling:
Pretty drained, is how I am feeling.

I wish my system would just slow down,
But, through my mind, thoughts race round.
Feeling restless, I begin to huff and puff:
I know that, in the morning, I'll feel rough.

As a poet, my mind is still really busy rhyming,
But, when I'm trying to sleep, isn't great timing.
To try and get some sleep, I really endeavour,
But the night seems to go on forever and ever.

I am really willing my mind to take a rest,
But, night time is when my mind thinks best.
Over my sleeping patterns, I have no control:
On me, tomorrow, lack of sleep will take its toll.

As I snuggle myself down, under the covers,
My body wants one thing; my mind, another.
When lying in bed, I just want some peace:
I want all of this rhyming, for once, to cease.

-Loulou

Remember what you must do
If they hurt you
When they think
Your softness
Is your weakness
When they treat your kindness
Like it is there advantage

You awake
Every dragon
Every monster
Every demon
That sleeps inside you
And you remind them
What Hell looks like
When it wears
The skin
Of a gentle innocent
Teenage girl.

-Loulou

Let me breakdown
the breakdown

The mind is consumed
You start seeing black and white
your body loses balance
your eyes are filled with tears
your nose is blocked
your throat feels tight
you ask yourself
"Why can't I fight?"

You feel pathetic as you fall to the ground
but have no will to get back up
You scream you shake
hoping to be saved
You either want to stay in the dark
or pray to see a spark

Time has passed
and you lay there
Like shattered glass

Not really sure what to do next
you realize that nothing has changed
So you get up
and go back to your daily parade

Slowly you tell yourself
"I don't want to go through that again."
And hope to sleep before past ten

The breakdown does not end there
This is what I'll share:

The rest is up to you and me
Hold my hand,
and together we'll break free

-Loulou

smiles are easy to fake people do not seam to see my pain hiding with in show what they want and they wont look further into you so that you can have friends and they wont run away

You are the sun that shines brightly throughout my day.
You are the gravity that holds me down in every way.
You are the moon that shimmers throughout my night.
You are the stars that glimmer oh so bright.
You are the oxygen that keeps me alive.
You are my heart that beats inside.
You are the blood that flows through me.
You are the only guy I can see.
You have the voice of when a mockingbird sings.
You are my everything.
You are my one and only.
You stop me from being so lonely.
We plan our future as if we have a clue.
I never want to lose you.
I want to be with you for the rest of my life.

I used to dream of someone like you,
To hold me tight and see me through,
To love my eyes and love my smile,
And when I’m scared, stay with me a while,
But now I’ve got you I don’t know what to do,
It’s amazing this feeling I have for you,
When I look at you my heart melts to the floor,
Every day I love you more and more,
When life gets me down your always there,
A good heart like yours is very rare,
You’re my world you’re my universe my star,
I would never change a thing that you are,
All my worries and problems disappear,
When you hold me in your arms I have no fear,
The only fear I have that’s true,
Is living my life without someone like you.

To live with you is what I want all my life.
The sweet taste of your tender lips
I would never want to miss.
I feel so safe when you hug me tight,
Everything seems to be perfectly alright.
I feel lucky in life that I have you.

Life feels worth living with you around,
You make me laugh even without a sound.
You make me smile when my eyes are filled with tears,
You love me like no other and help me overcome all my fears.
Every day I spend with you, teaches me something new,
How you manage to be so perfect, I really have no clue.
Thank you so much for entering my life,
I will love you forever and hold you tight.

-Loulou

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn’t help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I’ve fallen in love with you
and I’ll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don’t know what I’ll say
But I’ll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You and always will


-Loulou

Looking for love is a haunted maze where their is no start or end I cry huddled up in a corner woundering how I got here getting lead by my heart which I should know is a bad idea since every corner depression is always standing their.
-G.O.M-

If you sit down at set of sun
And count the acts that you have done,
And, counting, find
One self-denying deed, one word
That eased the heart of him who heard,
One glance most kind
That fell like sunshine where it went --
Then you may count that day well spent.

But if, through all the livelong day,
You've cheered no heart, by yea or nay --
If, through it all
You've nothing done that you can trace
That brought the sunshine to one face--
No act most small
That helped some soul and nothing cost --
Then count that day as worse than lost.

-Loulou

faded scars do bare pain although its not physical its still the same you may not see me cry but in my eyes my wrists show lies

Meet me at midnight
in the forest of my dreams
we'll make a fire and count the stars
that shimmer above the trees
the woods are lovely
dark and deep
but I have promises to keep
and miles to go before I sleep.

-Loulou

life always comes to an end however your lies stay with the living growing vast and wide unknowingly hurting others

My soul is ******, darkness i only see, hearing the laughter of something waiting for me, i am ****** but that is okay i wouldn't chose no other way if i did not have to be gay.

Clouds are always above my head. wetting my hair with the tears they shed, weighing me down making me look like a clown. Because when i look up all i see is clear eyes filled blue skys. So i look down at my feet avoiding contact with anbody around me because im afraid that my darkened
sky will trickle down on somebody.