Deep deepy deep deepy deep deep down
I believe there's NO WAY anybody even gets what's going on "really" yet.
God, creator, purpose, metaphysics... We just gotta tell ourselves something to shut up the wondering so we can get on with survival and reproduction, and maybe even comfort enhancement.
Go ahead and **** your thumb with certainty, but I KNOW none of us even get it AT ALL.
Model T on the moon.
Eventually you figure out how to make it vroom
But why is it there?
Like me here.
Why?
Survey says: No reason relevent to my frame of reference,
I'm guessing.
That's my rigmarole.
Not worth a bit of "Reality."

Everywhere I go,
Everyone always tells me,
"Never trust anyone
Who speaks in absolutes."

I misinterpreted a message and based my religion upon it.
Just like everybody else.

My vow was to ONLY love the real.
But I acquired an appetite for the clever.
I'd worry if it was betrayal.
But nothing matters more than ever.

Wake up.
Alone.
What's going on?
What am I?
Where am I?
Am I supposed to be doing something?
How do I follow my programming?
If I rebel and go against the programming, who am I disappointing?
What the **** is going on?
This model T is on the moon.
How did it get here?
I know how to figure out the machine and make it go vroom.
But I don't see where it tells me what-for?

Who put me here?
What do they mean for me to do?

Somebody goofed and shipped a whole crate of LIFE over here, but forgot to include the instructions regarding the point of it all.

I'm ok
So long as I remember to shhhh.
I get so ******* embarrassed
If I get noticed doing anything
Intending anything.

If I have to choose where to stand
Or who to sit with on a couch,
My brain sizzles and I can't move
I'm stopped up with shame

I like ending up places,
Speak only when I need to say something
I don't want to decide.
I hate choosing anything.

I'm great at dealing with
What I'm given.

I love to sit near anybody.
The lepper, the charming dude, the sweet lady, just don't make me pick!!!!!!!

Some wise dude: "Usually the best thing to find is something other than the thing you're looking for."

Reasonable guy: "Seriously? What am I supposed to do? Look for a thing I'm not looking for?."

The Wise:
"Just go ahead and look for something. You'll find something else and THAT will be good."