Bruise

Bruise Oct 2013

Can you feel it?
The rush.
The height
the wind
it's making you flush.
You are going to die.
die.
All you can do is sigh
Every movement filled with pain.
pain.
It's all you know
but this isn't your first go.
fourteen, fifteen, sixteen and still
At seventeen you have no will
to live
breathe
you're impatient
dependent
on things that ****.
****
stop
take a breath
is this really the way?
Mom I'm alone
alone
you're constantly surrounded by
people who love you
but mom you don't understand
I'm hanging on by a single strand
not simple, not simple
not simple at all
We all eventually fall
*fall

Bruise Aug 2013

And you hate me.

I’m annoying and you hate me.
I’m clingy and you hate me.
My hair is frizzy and you hate me.
I’m kind of ditsy and you hate me.
I’m bad at cooking and you hate me.
My clothes don’t match and you hate me.
I don’t wear makeup and you hate me.
My voice is high pitched and you hate me.
I laugh too hard at your jokes and you hate me.
I’m bad at spelling and you hate me.
I type slowly and you hate me.
I’m really weak and you hate me.
I walk too fast and you hate me.
I think too much and you hate me.

I wish I could do something right
So you wouldn’t hate me.
But I can’t
because you make my head all crazy

I can’t think right when you’re sitting next to me.

It may be that your smile is too bright when you’re sitting next to me.
Or maybe I hear nothing but your voice when you’re sitting next to me.
I see nothing but your face when you’re sitting next to me.
I smell nothing but your shampoo when you’re sitting next to me.
I can barely breathe when you’re sitting next to me.
My heart hurts when you sit next to me.

It really ***** when you sit next to me

Because I just want to blurt
“I love you you idiot.”
But sadly, so very sadly,

you hate me.

Bruise Feb 2013

Mutuality.

Feelings.
Mutual no more.
You walked out of my life,
You closed the door.
Alone tonight,
Forever more.

Bruise Feb 2013

Religion.

Smile pretty darling,
For the day has just begun.
You are not my God,
And I am not your son.
You frown down upon me,
For everything I do.
Forget the fact that I am losing you,
Focus on how I am losing myself too.

Bruise Feb 2013

Waves.

Speechless.
Nothing more to say.
Let these waves take me away.
You smile as I kiss your lips,
I smile as you hold my hips.
A kiss,
A touch,
Nothing more.
Your lips on mine,
They make me soar.
Lets be adventurers,
I'm Finn,
You're Jake.
My love for you will never break.
As the sky's slowly darken,
And the light fades away,
There is one more thing I've got to say.
Goodbye, farewell,
They sound so wrong.
They just don't fit this song.
So goodnight, my love.
I will see you again,
In the morning,
when the waves come in.

Bruise Oct 2012

Pretend.

I pretend it’s true,
me and you.
You hold me close,
nussel my nose.
You kiss my cheek,
oh so sweet.
You pull me in,
that’s when I grin.
The only thing that’s on my mind,
is the one thing that’s hardest to find.
I’m here with you now,
something no one can change.
You’re mine for the moment.
My heart? Yes you stole it.
Who’s to blame
if you don’t feel the same?
It’s not your fault.
Nor is it mine.
Just remember,
It’s fun to pretend sometimes.

— The End —