Were we ever in love or was I dreaming? Was I enchanted by the idea of love or controlled by the thought of having someone like you. Was our love a game just to make me feel shame, for having emotions? Do I not deserve to love and be loved or do i deserve to hate. Do I determine who I love and who I hate because I don't think I do I think I never had a choice I was destined to love you, and you were destined to disappoint me, one thing you never let me down on, one thing I could count on, was your disappointment; you used my love for your own personal pleasure and now you choose to hate me, you've made me cry you've broken my soul worst of all you've broken my heart I guess love doesn't live here my heart is vacant hate has arrived and my emotions are shaken how could I go on and pretend to be happy there's no happiness here not even any laughing.

I can feel the freezer burn on my heart I can feel my body growing numb I see no warmth I see no ending I possess no heat of passion not a sense of love not a warm bone in my body I'm a block of ice never to melt I'm like dry ice dangerous and mysterious only evil in my mist I'm ******* the outside to protect my liquid interior I'm weak and unstable and empty. Oh so empty. I've never felt so alone in this black place I call home.

Darkness surrounds my better judgement as I search for a light to brighten my emptiness I'm hollow I'm worse than empty I'm shallow not a deep emotion within me fill me up with passion but don't give me not a dash of love give me the sweet kiss of death but don't you dare revive me be kind to me for I am a sinner shower me with luck to make love to a winner let my offspring prosper and my demons be free let my soul be unshackled and my heart beat along with the sea.

After all I've put up with you you still pour acid on my wounds you still inflict pain on a suffering soul well call me a lost cause there's no turning back for me , I'm desperate for love, not even a heart in me.

Somebody sell me a dream! I'm fresh outta hope somebody save my life because I'm fresh out of dope thought I could survive and hide the demons in my eyes thought I could forgive the lies and fight the battle within my life how could I ever forget? The same way I can forgive how can I ever be free when I can't even escape from me how can I even begin to love when I possess no like.

If god truly does not exist at least I spent my life believing in something greater than the human race and something beyond this miserable thing we call life

The twinkle in your eyes when I profess my love for you the feel of your curves cascading down your long body and the shape of your honey lips how could I forget the pleasure of ever loving you of ever knowing such a delicate flower? My sweet angel my diamond in the rough of life my warrior and my hero a comrade in this war of love my goddess of Atlantis Athena the great my loving queen how could I have ever been so mean! Love of a lifetime in this soulless world my never ending dream my true beauty queen live long, love forever, miss me never, stay true, be you.