You were the little bird
That taught me how to fly.
That taught me how to love,
And taught me how to cry.

You fixed my broken wings
And I slaved over crafting yours
I thought that with a love like ours,
We'd soar, and soar, and soar.

Until you felt the seasons change,
And flew south to get warm,
I guess I never got the memo,
So I was left in the storm.

Then you came back,
And kissed my lips with a passion I've never known.
And I was pulled right back in,
As if you never left me alone.

Your wing was broken,
And so I helped you mend,
Because I've always been there to take your hits,
Until you're ready to fly again.

You want me to spread my wings
Into your delusional sunset.
But when I chose a different path
You became upset.

My little bird, I live for you
And you have always had my heart,
But you can't stay for very long,
And you leave me torn apart.

So maybe its time to say goodbye,
And we know its never easy,
But how can I make you stay,
If you always end up leaving me?  

So take some of my feathers,
And never let them fall apart,
Pull them out and think of the moments
That it took you to win my heart.

I wish it never had to be this way,
I wish I never had to cry,
But I will keep spreading my wings,
Because I refuse to not fly.

You were the little bird
That taught me how to fly.
That taught me how to love,
And taught me how to cry.

You fixed my broken wings
And I slaved over crafting yours
I thought that with a love like ours,
We'd soar, and soar, and soar.

Until you felt the seasons change,
And flew south to get warm,
I guess I never got the memo,
So I was left in the storm.

Then you came back,
And kissed my lips with a passion I've never known.
And I was pulled right back in,
As if you never left me alone.

Your wing was broken,
And so I helped you mend,
Because I've always been there to take your hits,
Until you're ready to fly again.

You want me to spread my wings
Into your delusional sunset.
But when I chose a different path
You became upset.

My little bird, I live for you
And you have always had my heart,
But you can't stay for very long,
And you leave me torn apart.

So maybe its time to say goodbye,
And we know its never easy,
But how can I make you stay,
If you always end up leaving me?  

So take some of my feathers,
And never let them fall apart,
Pull them out and think of the moments
That it took you to win my heart.

I wish it never had to be this way,
I wish I never had to cry,
But I will keep spreading my wings,
Because I refuse to not fly.

Tell me, my friend.
Have you ever looked at a caged bird?
They're quite like us,
Even though it sounds rather absurd.

The small bird is restricted,
Behind cold metel bars,
The same way that our ribs and skin,
Cage away our heart.

Maybe if you ponder the this theory
For a little bit longer,
The points of similarity
Begin to grow stronger.

Maybe you never take a chance,
Because you're terrified to fall,
If that is the case, My Dear,
Then fear would cage us all.

Maybe you're lover didn't love you back,
Or they could have cheated and lied.
You can act as tough as you want,
But you're heart is dying inside.

It's easier to hide in fear,
And pretend like things don't matter.
Because then you don't have to risk
Your heart getting shattered.

And even the most beautiful,
Or the ones with brilliant minds,
Don't always see what they are,
Because of the caged little bird **inside.

Thank God we’re done,
It’s about time I’m free.
You always seemed to hold me back,
Now I can be me.

You changed everything about who you were,
And pretend like you didn’t want me,
But then I shrugged and laughed,
Because you’re so annoying.

I’m sorry,
I know I hurt you,
But that’s okay,
Because you hurt me too.

It doesn’t matter,
I can move on,
With a world of pretty people,
It doesn’t matter that you’re gone.

This one knows his movies,
This one is quite smart,
This one makes me laugh,
This one can make art,

You taught me not to be serious,
You taught me to have fun,
So why on earth does this mean,
That I should be limited to one?

But then I see you
                                with her,
And it’s nothing like I thought it would be.
I wanted to scoff and walk away,
But I remembered when it was me.

Why did I lie? Just know that I’m so sorry.
I know I hurt you, I hate myself for hurting you.
Now that we’re done I’m not sorry,
Because you hurt me too.

When did you get so old?
Why did your stares turn cold?
How many times have you cried?
Why are you so unsatisfied?

I see the guilt in your eyes,
I see the smoke around you start to rise,
I see the pain etched across your face,
I see the anger taking the fear away.

I haven't seen you for a while,
Since you lost that smile,
I reach out to you, maybe I can help,
But I feel cold glass where I see myself.

The mirror can't disguise,
When you're not hiding behind lies.
Who knew that a pretty face
Would cause so much disgrace?

I see the scars on your skin,
I see you've found the razor again.
I see the tears stream down your face,
I see how your heart begins to race.

The glass turns gray, and you look to the right,
You see your boy and his girl dance in the moonlight.
You see your father's last breath taken away,
And the girl you don't want who wants you to stay.

I see the ghost of a girl that I used to know well,
Last year before it all turned to hell.
I see the girl get on her knees,
And say, "Somebody **** me, please."

I see the warrior under it all,
Even though she seems quite small,
She'll fight, because she knows what's right,
She'll never be done, not exactly, not quite.

I see the smoke exhale from my lips,
I see the scars on my hips,
Imagine me having no fear,
If I never looked into the mirror.

It’s Christmas time, Santa Claus is here,
I guess it’s just that time of year
That fills everyone with glee,
Everyone but me.


I immediately regretted climbing out of bed
When I feel the chill creeping up my neck.
I just want to go back to sleep,
Then some sanity I can keep.

I slowly make my way toward the fireplace.
But that’s when I see your face
Because you always kept me warm.
And sheltered from those winter storms.

Everyone is asking me to make a list,
If I could have anything that I wish,
What would it be?
I close my eyes and I see.

Hawaii or Europe could be nice,
At least they aren’t covered in this ice.
Or maybe a new sweater,
To hide myself from this weather.

Avery wants a Barbie and Kayden wants it all,
Ian wants legos, but I fear that they’re so small,
He will probably lose them, so I guess that’s a waste,
I just want to kiss away these unpleasant holidays.

I could say I want a new car covered in ribbons and bows
But if you want the truth, then here it goes.
I want to go back this time last year where everything was right.
Where I had the boy, I had the Dad, but a Mother? Well…not quite.

Maybe that could be my other wish,
A bonus on my gift list.
I would do anything you need me to,
Because Christmas isn’t the same without you.

You didn’t have to be my father,
Because I was another man’s daughter,
But you pulled me in, and gave me your name,
And when it came to your children, you treated me the same.

Maybe I didn’t know my dad,
But there was one special man that I had,
And as I look out over this blasted snow,
I realize that I can’t let you go.

Mom part 2 might seem alright,
But you should see how she is at night,
Because the love of her life was taken away,
A month ago from last Sunday.

Daddy’s little girl, isn’t little anymore,
And daddy isn’t here to kiss her little sores.
Her heart is breaking because you’re gone.
But life is supposed to go on.

They asked me what I wanted
And all I know is that this is true,
**That Christmas time, isn’t Christmas time,
If Christmas is missing you.

I think you're wonderful in every way,
And I wish these things were simple to say.
I come to you when you're in a bad place,
And decide to give you space.

I really want you, and I just wish that you knew,
And trying to like someone else doesn't work. Because they aren't you.
Confused at sixteen, with everything about me,
Who I want to be, and my sexuality.

If you want me to wait,
Then I'll wait.
If you want me to stay,
Then I'll stay.

I don't know what you want from me,
You say that you feel safe being lonely.
I try to come in, and change your mind,
Because I'm a fighter for the one-of-a-kind.

God, Am, I close my eyes,
And see yours staring into mine.
Your presence hangs over me like a personal cloud,
I push people out of the way when I spot you in the crowd.

You think you looked "decent" today,
And if I could say what I want to say,
I'd tell you that I saw you and I caught my breath.
You looked flawless in that perfect dress.

Green-brown under blue lies,
It's my special secret to see your eyes.
Lips curving deliciously over imperfect teeth,
Only make you more attractive to me.

Your name means love, and trust me I know why.
Because when the moon hits the sky, like a big pizza pie,
I think of you, and everything you do.
Do you wonder too?

What we could be, if we gave it a chance!
I'd take your hand, and we'd dance, and dance, and dance.
Forever, like in the Labyrinth.
Because David Bowie is your favorite.

Maybe I'm not like Sam, because I don't have that part
But, I have all I can give, if I can give you my heart.
I want to hold your hand and touch your skin.
I'm scared of rejection, but I'll try for you, then I'll try again.

**And one day I will tell you.