you think and you think
and you hope and wonder
and finally someday you get your answer
that calling
the truth

what happens when the truth is goodbye
the truth is hardwork and poverty
the truth is friendship and overdose
the truth is faith and love
the truth is that if you keep up all that thinking you're only going to realize it's pointless.

and there's nothing more devastating than not having meaning.

my heart hurts for you like something real
not like all the fake ******* we went through
and i'm sorry i wasn't there
it's not that i couldn't be
i just wasn't
and i won't forgive myself
and i want you back
i miss you all of the time
i think of you always
you are my muse
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
when i'm sitting alone in my room in the middle of the night
when i see something beautiful
when my heart beats faster
when i listen to music
when i do something bad
when i need confidence
when i walk alone
how can i face the world without you baby girl
how can i take in any beauty without you here
you brightened the world
and it's bogues
rest in paradise they say
i miss you when ever i'm happy
and sad
and ****** the *******

i sat here until the trees on the horizon
swallowed the sun
and a new day started for millions of people
i did not know