I am alive, for now
I've lost count of how many days have gone by
all I know for certain is this,
I will not survive the next 24 hours
I can't explain it, I just know
It's quite liberating actually
knowing when you're going to die
the worst thing to do is panic, to try and alter the future
what you should do I relax
and have a look back
a look back at your life
the good memories
the bad ones
and everything in between
its worth something to you
your very first memory
the first time you walked
the first day of school
riding a bike
your first day at high school
your first girlfriend
the proposal
the wedding
your first child
raising them as your own
and letting them live their life
everything is worth something
so hold it tight
and don't let go

I've been hearing a lot of people talking smack about the officers.
They say were a bunch of stuck up, privileged, *******.
That ain't far from the truth for the officers of other factions.
Not for us though.
Because in the Army,
ranks are earned,
not given.
They are earned through empty casings and spent mags,
through broken bones and shattered hopes.
Through the finished ammo belts and used grenades.
When you're promoted,
its not a ceremony,
its a declaration.
A declaration that you fought through the carnage,
the bodies and the mayhem.
You, of all the soldiers in your unit,
are a badass.
Even if you maybe aren't right in the head.
The chevron on your shoulder is a reminder.
Whether its a good one, or a bad one,
that's your choice

You ever stop and think that this place use to be beautiful
the plants,animals and landscape
I heard from my buddies that this was the place to visit
although i didn't plan on visiting in a uniform holding a rifle
I've seen the postcards of this place and man,
it was gorgeous
it was before the colonization
the expansion
the industrialization
the pollution
conflict
invasion
war.
I wanted to come here to glide over the mountains
not doing CAP in an BlackHawk
I wanted to relax by the ocean
not doing swimming drills at 5AM
I wanted to go on safaris
Not patrols.
Mmmhmm
Well, you know what they say,
You don't get everything you wan