Coldness covers her hibrinating soul
unwilling to allow the discomfort of life
and reality
to inhibit her personality
she unconsciously fights
puts up a guard
stops the bad from entering
blindly turns away the good
Shadows of a life
she doesn't even remember
follow her dragging feet
slowing her and pushing her at the same time

He's transparent
yet my vision is still blurred
My struggles leave my mind
and the past fills my heart
My sky is above the blue
yet I still stare down
Reaching
Tiring to the point of defeat
Waiting uncomfortably
with irrational ideas
Barely escaping each time
only to end up
back at him

What do I do now?
My shackles are unlocked
left to live what they call life
confused and alone
No bars except those I impose on myself
Knowing what it means to struggle
an expert on aches and pains
that infect mind body and soul
I'm told that it is my turn
to take hold of the leash
that has led my life thus far
No hints to help me find my way
or explanations of right and wrong
just me
and the intimidating world
Am I expected to survive?

For now, I'll let it be
lay dormant for the days to come
Awaken when all else is lost
to the deceiving lure
Admire the silence that was
prepare for the whispers ahead
Make them not want to understand
Escape tangled explanations
relay emotions not felt by others
without sacrificing its beauty
Impossible
Inevitable
It's no longer mine
The secrets are gone

Temptation hinders her perception
blinded by beauty
found in locked eyes
Nothing is there
except the hunger
a craving so strong that the atmosphere loses meaning
dissolves into the background
All is lost to admiration that lacks
courage and voice
Full of almosts and should'ves
the relationship sits still
no progression
yet they both know whats there
Afraid to admit it
inescapably aware

Anticipation floods my veins
like an ocean wave crashing along a rocky shore
When I close my eyes, I can see it all
yet I have no reference to what the darkness
consuming my mind is revealing
Stuck in a state of mind
where opposites accompany one another
in order to cope with the fierceness
of reality
Where a tear laved with disappointment
rests comfortably on the edge
of a smile that translates
an undeniable sense of satisfaction
Imprisoned by a wall
where every stone is the exact same
yet every one counts for something
different
Dreams disintegrate into nightmares
Nightmares regurgitate what open eyes display
Assumed truth