Just two words is all we'll allow.
Goodnight, goodbye.
These tears are on the prowl.
We shook the bed, your hands gripped my waist.
I tried to fight the feeling while I was dying for a taste.
My head was pounding bricks as I realized our smokey sin.

But..
I love you.
Dont leave me.
Never let me leave.
I need you.
I breathe you.
Im begging on my knees.

I know, I'm the one running.
God, we are so sick.
We're running from the feeling but the space it never sticks.

Our passion was never deeper, breathing through the covers.
Your face never more perfect, as my fingers slowly trace
Every inch of all I've known, what is now not called my own.
I loved you the most when we said goodbye.

Memories flash before me.
How you whispered "I'm always here"
Never till then did i believe, a love like this exist.
But still I'll run, cause nothing ever feels the same.
Nothing was more painful, then a tattoo on my heart. Simply just your name.
You ripped down walls and heard my calls and silently i slept.
As my heart you did protect.
My tongue is weary from all my lies. I did not know.
My eyes they cry.
Im fighting death as it's knocking on my door.
Come out & play, you filthy *****.
No. Not again. Dont leave me all alone.
The demons wisp in and take me for a spin.
Infiltrate my mind.
I dont see them, i won't give in
I promise i could have loved you right before the storm.
I sold my soul to the devil.. That was my selfish sin.

No longer will I wait, no longer will I hide.
Too long I've been trapped in this social suicide.
They glance by wondering, never knowing how it feels.
To run like a child from this god forsaken deal.
I made it with the devil, I swore he was a saint.
He held me close, said this is love and I silently I sank.

Into the dark, into his arms. Where only I belonged.
And like a child, I played his game, not knowing I was the pawn.
He took care, with every little word.
To make it feel, as real as real can be.
I reveled in whispered lies, just to smell his sweet perfume.
I saw the sin deep in his eyes, but battled for the good.
I heard the lies in his voice, I knew what I should do.
I should run, I should flee, but what about him?
I could save his soul, I could set him free. And it happened, in just a whim.
It was enough, it set him off, he needed me no more from me.
He crossed his heart, I hoped to die if I wasn't his.
And like a genie in a bottle, he granted  me that wish.
I'm gone now, my soul has withered thin.
I'm hanging on to this last sentiment.
My heart is gone, I wish it weren't true.
But if I know one thing, the devil lives in you.

When it all slips away and nothing is the same. When your heart is simply broken by the one you thought would never leave and there’s nothing you can do and there’s nothing you can say. It’s like you’re driving down the road and someone slams onto their brakes. You’re walking from the storm, but where is there to go? Cause where it used to be, there is no place called home. When you’re not who you used to be, you hate who you’ve become. When you know you should stay but all you do is run. You keep saying you’re okay, everything is better now. But if you told the truth you’d say you were run to the ground. You don’t know where to start but you know where to be, he’s calling for you “please just see.” . He never left your side, he misses you so bad. He was there before you knew you’d ever be, he loves every flaw you think you can see. Why is it so hard to simply believe? Why can’t you run to his arms? You know he wont hurt . You know hes the only one with help. Please, oh please just see! Did I mention the “you” I speak of is me?…

God, if you only knew the things these eyes have seen. I feel as if I’m the only one to have felt this heaviness in my soul. It breaks me down. I’m scavenging for survival. For hope, for humanity. I wait patiently in the dark hoping to watch as the light breaks through this darkness I live in. Will the sun rise? Will the moon give in to its brutal blows? Or will I be left again, left wondering where I’m meant to travel to next. I watched my family torn from the places once called sacred. The treasures they held once before meant nothing, their lives were the only treasure they had left. The only treasure I had left. Some tore their way out of that hell. The mental affliction that caused them to drown in their own murderous screams. They moved on with their quest for a purpose, ripping away the flaws and scars left by the pain experienced. Becoming something new, remade. Still beautiful, they didn’t break. They persevered. I watched as others tied the fear and pain to their ankles, always dragging it with them. Others would notice the chains they pulled, but never say a word. Never reach out a hand to search for the key to these aches. Just watching them survive, I watch them survive. I survive. But the worst of all to watch was The Interpreter. The ones who fell for the lies that got them with me in this black hole. The ones who never coped, never wanted a purpose, they wanted revenge. Revenge on the ones who tore their soul apart, piece by piece. The ones who took every bit of sanity they had and laughed as it fell unreachable by any man. I watched as something once so beautiful, miraculous, pure and true turn into something that made me want to cringe. So hungry. Always remembering the starvation they suffered from and using it as a crutch and weapon to fill the hole that cannot be filled by things as such. I try to help but they snarl in defense, forgetting that once I was their friend. Only thinking of the world as an enemy, and everyone in it an enemy as well. I try to stop them, plead for them to stay, just to here a few words. Just to know that they aren’t alone, I’m here in the darkness too.

Somebody torn down the signs. I look around there are no lines drawn. I play it off like nothings wrong, when really all you are is a pawn. A misinterpretation of a piece of me. I'm sorry but nothing is what it seems.

A look in the mirror, all I see is broken dreams.
A look in the mirror, and a double take cause that can't be me...
A look in the mirror, how everything has changed..
This life and heart have gone deranged,

Too much I care for the wayward soul.

Whose life is lost, with no control.

The drugs, the fears & drunken calls.

Their  lives are drenched in alcohol.

I can't stop now, I must go back.

I fear the love they seem to lack.

I'll save you boy, just trust me now.

I can't just sit & watch you drown.

You fell so deep in empathy, living life worthy of sympathy.

I see through it all, I know you too well.

I know you're hurt, your heart isn't well.

You'll hurt me, fine that's ok. But always your heart, I'll long to save.

Intentions pure but your actions a shame.

Do you see it now? You're living a game.

You're two strikes out, one left to go.

Come back now, you're all but close.

Your friends you say? They're merely pawns.

If they cared at all, they'd point out the cons.

Of your up all nights & drunken slur.

With your heart now, you must concur.

Darling, if you never chase your dreams, you'll never catch them.

Never live them.

Never feel them.

Never know the potential you had.

Im taken out, I'm on the ground.
You can't push me no farther.
I've lost my sight, im going blind.
Your lies they never cease.
You've broke me down! A predator on the prowl.
Infiltrating me. Can you see me down here?
I'm so lost in my own tears.. It's gone too far. It's been too long.
So many years just wasted. I'm done pretending, I can't handle this no more.
Murderous smiles and broken souls. I'll never not love you, but you've lost control.