Her Face
Oh so Beautiful
The kind of beautiful that makes you stare
The kind that makes you become a better person
She changes everything
Everything about this life is dull and pointless
But that face

Her giggles
So cute and youthful
Every little squeak is adorable
Her tiny voice
Oh so cute
When she crys mama mama
It melts my heart

Lillys the only thing in my life
That makes me feel needed
Simple as that
She needs me
And I need her
When I'm around her
There's hope light and love
My everything
Lilly

This has killed me
You and her
Why would you do this
Am I just a person unwanted?
Am I not good
Pretty
Skinny enough?

She's hideous
Compare me to her
Compare a rose and a rabbits ****
It won't happen

Being tired of me
is being tired of lite
Tired of joy and hope
I tried to make you happy
But you spit in my face
Again and again
How rude

This **** is getting so old
****

Wait, another girl
I'm not surprised
You don't care
Why should you
I only gave u everything
A roof
My virginity
A child

Good lord I hate you
So ******* much
You make me hate myself
You've ruined love for me

And now that I'm seeing light
I'm seeing someone who enjoys me
Loves my eyes my curves my laugh

I'm going to be happy
Cherished, adored, wanted
While your doing you
Being a *** ******* loser
*******

Legs quiver
Hands tremble
I'm waiting for you to deliver
I'm soaking

Pressing your head into my chest
Biting my stomach and thighs
Please don't judge I'm looking a mess

I'm begging now
Please
Don't stop
Harder faster deeper
I feel I'm about to pop

No stop!
Why would you do that
I hate being on top
Not a **** angle

But wait
It feels oh so good
I hear you
Your breathing
I can tell you like this steady grind

Roll me over
Finishing this night
Now were snug
I feel the safeness in your heartbeat

You don't know yet
That your my inspiration
You found your way thru life's debt
And I'm still in awe

Your light and Your hope
Maybe one day I can have the strength you do
To get over my past love
As easy as you have

Please understand I adore you
Your quirky laugh when your high
The way you squint your eyes

I've seen your eyes for everything they've seen
They're strong, beautiful and insightful
But those eyes have hurt
I've heard of your father and his temper
Oh what an ***

I've heard of your sisters
And how they need you as a protector
I admire you for that quality
I feel safe with you as well

You've helped me so much with forgetting Daniel
I can trust you with my deepest secrets
Your my hope for something better
My best friend

Stop it
Leave me alone
Can't you tell this hurts
When I'm forced to see you
I become Overwhelmed with emotion
You took my heart
And stabbed it repeatedly
But yet
I remember
Every kiss every touch every laugh
I don't want to miss you
Your a ******* ****
Your the meaning of bipolar whiplash

Love me
Or leave me

For good

Another one
You have to be kidding me
Another time
Hurts like every other one
This pattern is death
Nothing changing

What
Did you just say love
I'm not good enough for that word
This is getting so old
Games
And more games
I just want something
Awe inspiring and spectacular
Beyond this wall of doubt and hate

I hate you
For what you've done
These games
These petty little games
The girls
Those ugly girls you talk to
But you love me
I know it
And I hate you
Want to play a game?

I hear your happy
How can you be
You hurt girls
Its what you do
And your proud?
Disgust
Hate
Pain
Those are the words that remind me of you
Your a pathetic specimen


I'm relieved were broken up
That relationship was a broken one way street
I'm just sorry I wasted so many years
Being your secret
Shhh
Don't tell
So many secrets
I know them all

Surprise
I'm reveling you for who you are
What are your true colors?
Not red for blood and pain
Not black for death and grieving
Not green for hope
Not yellow for light and life
But blue
For sorrow and sadness
Because your are blue
You are sad
You are sorrow

This is you
Like a beautiful flower
You pulled me in
But beneath your beauty there was thorns and poison
You poked me and made me bleed
You made me sick with your poison
But whatever
Your a thing of my past
Whatever

Kissing my lips
Touching my face
You rubbed your hands
Up and down
My stomach
Goose bumps took over
Giving me a shiver
Your lips did wonders
Making me quiver
You make me soak
So ready and willing
I wanted more
Never stopping
Why did you make me stop