let it sink in
deepen
pull you down
to the very core
of the earth

I taste it now
bitter somehow
and within the air it rings
underground
we dont hear these things

grapes to wine
wine to tongue
and still I feel it
the dirt filling my lungs

plate tectonics
have nothing on us
they shake the earth
but you destroy my world

I am dreaming
of licks of the flame kissing my ear
and my soul is reaching for you, my love
take my hand, feel my heart, dont stop the dance
your absence takes the warmth from the room
and I am smoldering after your fire
I hunger for you, my love
let me experience your river
sail inside my memory
stay close to my heart
oh my beautiful love
my body breathes for you
I am singing for you
put your hands back on me
take the enclosure of this night
and set me free in your firelight

I'm sorry if this comes out too quiet
its just I could really use some water
I've been running my tongue across these words
                simply tasting what alone will feel like
will you hear me when I say
        this time I'm not afraid
you were a promise not meant for me
      a dream I was not to remember
and I've been fooling myself
                                       for so long
                           I just wanted to feel like more than I am
                     just needed to believe I had a reason to breathe
               but you crept in and took it all
        maybe I deserve this fall
but can you say that you dont?

what is this but words
tiny letters placed together
to make sense of chemical reactions
driving human nature
to mistakes or glory
simple little sentences
meant to keep your spirit alive
to build you as if you were unbreakable
to crush you as only heartache could
yes you are my secret story
for which I weave letters
to form words
to depict feelings
you alone inspire
for the envy of many eyes
who drink in my writing
as if it could replace water
to keep their hearts alive
so here are tiny scratches
meant to make sense
of excited little pulses
firing from my mind
straight down to my finger tips
where I write for you
my most sacred wishes
so what is this
but tiny letters
scribbled before you
I simply adore you

I just find it a little strange
The way you came
I was only half awake
It was a saturday
You arrived with keys
Intending to put me on my knees

Navigate lips and eyes
One spills kisses but both hide lies
And here I am just tapping fingers
While what's left of you silently lingers
Step back little girl
The fuels about to ignite
Fire fight

Now I've got a couple questions for you
Don't move your lips unless your answers are true
When you had that look in your eyes
Did you really expect me to survive?
And when you came with your beautiful lies
Why couldn't you have hinted your goodbyes?

Navigate lips and eyes
One spills kisses but both hide lies
And here I am just tapping fingers
While what's left of you silently lingers
Step back little girl
The fuels about to ignite
Fire fight

It is a saturday
And you're still fake
You put your mark on each girl
And then you go
YOU JUST GO
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I was walking alone
a stupid thing to do I know
was that the breeze in the trees?
or the patter of creeping shoes?

well I never imagined I'd be lost in my own thoughts
completely unaware before I was caught
it was midnight and it was me evil sought
and he came for me as a man whose soul had already been bought

so I closed my eyes, ready to lose myself to the abyss
but something in me cried to stop this
and suddenly I was so angry I couldnt breathe
as I gasped I pushed and brought up my knee
he was caught off guard, my blows rained hard
but he hit me back, and thats this scar

on the ground I struggled for my purse
fingers outstretched for the ticket to his hearse
how I did it I'll never understand
I was only a girl, he was a full grown man
but finally I enclosed the razor in my fist
and looked in his eyes as I delivered the straight edge kiss

what I did I dont regret
but what I did I cant forget
I could have laid back and let him take me
I could have bit my lip and let him **** me
but I was not put on this world for his taking
and I am not responsible for the mistake he was making
he fell victim to his own vice
and that night he traded me for his life

the next time you break down
make **** sure its not me you flag down
you take more than you give
baby you die more than you live

I played the role of your shadow, ever so faithful
there to kiss your lonely shoulder, though you were never grateful
cherish this second, call me beautiful
because when I walk away its going to be painful

you fool, you fool, you fool
but what can you do?
some were born to build
you were born to ruin
to consume
to leave everything drifting in plumes

so I tell myself not to forget
to remember to count the steps
each its own victory
each rewrites our history
when you come stumbling after me
you can find me in your dreams