Brittani

Brittani Dec 2013

Bones

Was stripping me naked not enough?
Did you have to strip me past the clothing?
Did you get off on seeing my bare bones?
Did you enjoy all of my self-loathing?

Brittani Dec 2013

Captured

When we were younger
We made our parents
Shut the closet doors
Check under the bed
Tuck us in at night
In an attempt to ward away the monsters
Some of us weren't so lucky
We escaped them in the dark
But they captured us in our dreams

Now that we're older
The monsters are demons
They hide in the dusty corners of our brains
If we're lucky, and they're not bolder than we are, they stay hidden during the day
But at night they roam free
They torture us with
Regrets that we have
Mistakes we have made
And images of those that we miss
Sleep is our only escape
But some of us aren't so lucky
We escaped them in the dark
But they captured us in our dreams

Brittani Dec 2013

Depression

You said it.
You finally said it.
Depression.
Was that so hard?
It's just a three syllable word
This time, the word didn't fall off your tongue
Dripping with disdain
And your eyes weren't glassy
And your body wasn't rigid
Your eyes were wild
But it rolled right off your tongue
What did it taste like?
Like freedom?
Because that's what it felt like to me

Brittani Dec 2013

Goodbye, Ash

I'm not going to write you poems
Of longing and desires
Not of goodbyes
Not of "just for nows"
Because in doing so
I will end up breaking my own heart
Your is already broken
Mine is on it's way
I don't need to help it get there

Brittani Nov 2013

Empty

I want to unzip my skin and step out of it
At least then, I could look in the mirror and see
That I'm not as empty on the inside as I feel

Brittani Nov 2013

Trouble

Oh boy, I'm in trouble
And now you've left a mark
I'm sitting here, at 2AM
Fighting myself in the dark

I shouldn't have let it get that far
I should have turned to go
I was quickly losing all control
But couldn't tell you no

I went in strong willed
Thinking that you couldn't break me down
But it was harder to break away
When there was no one else around

Despite all my talk
If we're going to state the truth
I'm virginal, I'm easy
But you knew that, didn't you?

Brittani Nov 2013

Here to Stay

You know,
I really like you.

Not for fake,
Not for show,
Not for any real reason,
I just do.

That's really rare for me
It's not often that I find someone
Someone that just doesn't get old
Someone that gives me butterflies

You've worked your way in
Into my thoughts
Into my heart
Into my life

I'm only a little bit scared
But I won't push you away
I like you way too much
So I guess I'm here to stay