I don't think I deserve you
But you deem my words untrue
I think that you are different
But, I'm kind of different too

We can be different together
We would make a lovely pair
I will be stubborn in the morning
But, when night falls, I will be fair

I am going to be difficult
Things are going to be hard
I'm not sure that I can promise you
We'll both emerge unscarred

What I'm saying is:
I think it will be worth it
I'm willing to give it a try
I don't think I deserve you
But, I long to call you mine.

Hours away from sleep
Minutes away from waking
The night seems to drag on
When your mind is racing

I go through my daily routine
But the minute I lay down to rest
My brain tells my body-
"Tonight, still, you will sleep less."

"Hi, how are you doing?"
You say as you pass by
This question is just a courtesy
I feel obligated to lie

I'm spinning out of control
I don't know what to do
My mind is everywhere
But "I'm fine, how are you?"

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for leaving me
Thank you for finding me
Thank you for teaching me

It wasn't very long
Before you were gone
I was young, I was blind
I can't say that you were wrong

Thank you for the joy
Thank you for the pain
From you, I learned how to love
From you, there is so much that I gained.

Miss me yet?
You will.

I'm leaving soon
It won't be long
I'm breaking free
I'm moving on

Miss me today?
You should.

I'm not coming back
I'm running away
I'm saving myself
For better days

Miss me now?
You might.

I'm out on my own
I'm living the dream
I haven't forgotten you yet
Have you forgotten me?

Recieving mixed messages-
And returning them.
This is my defense mechanism.

You are here one moment
Gone the next

I am responsive today
Uninterested tomorrow

Circuitous jargon
Perpetual confusion.

Why can't things go my way for once?

Does the question make me selfish?
Do I sound insecure?
Is it just a hopeless wish?
Will I never be yours?