The rain keeps pounding
against the window
Like my heart against my chest
I miss you today
Through the stillness of my apartment
It's you I yearn for
The touch of your skin on mine.
How how the rain makes me remember you
All of you.
I miss you through the rain storm...

Mistakes
Are made
Everyday
And I am starting to believe
My mind
Is right about you.

I love you–
I want to trace

the outline of your body

With my lips

And finger tips

I want to hold you close

Never let go

All this love

I need to show

How much time

Do we have left?

How many secrets have we kept?

I love you.

So is this what happens?
When I am left alone with my thoughts?
I sink down
Down
Deep into the depths of my memories?
I feel trapped and isolated.
Haunted and infected.
I want to escape.
I keep relapsing
Back here.
I am afraid
Can I
Or will I
Ever find serenity?
Some sort of inner peace?
Break free of this demon
This demon that is me?

Night.
It's when magic and inner demons
Come out to play.
We lay back to back
naked
And silent
Love between the sheets.
Dear lover
You fill me up
And yet I am empty
still hungry.
I love you
Through the night
Write about you in daylight
Cloud my mind with words.
Engulfed in the sweet tones
Of this love.
But for now....
Good night

I hide behind these words,
Sometimes not so pretty metaphors
No one seems to hear me when I speak
So these are my words to keep.
Someday, someone will understand
Why there was always a pen in my hand.
Welcome to my life

(April 16, 2011)