If I do this I will never forgive myself if I'm wrong
you will break me,
emasculate me.
I will fall into the abyss
no one will miss.
So if I make this leap you won't regret it.
Don't make me regret it.

There's this hole I dug
It is not deep or shallow
You're not helping though.

Here I am
at the bottom of my hole
dug by drug
and as I throw dirt out
you stand there laughing
egging me on
when I can no longer see the sun
I freeze
dust off my pants
pull myself up
and walk away
leaving you with the hole
you never help me fill in.

You whisk on by
leaving behind
me to rewind.
You're no one.
You exist
as a pacifist.
But instead of not fighting
you continue slighting
those in need,
you mislead.
I freeze in my car
is that reprieve from afar
but no
my limbs go numb
my ears go thrumb
you leave me to die
you are no friend of mine.

Curse this verse,
**** this rhyme.
I don't need it to disincline,
I'll define.
It's an allegory of the defamatory.
I encompassed what some name prosperity
but he required me walking with circularity
apparently
what I'm supposed to see
that's because it's not meant to be?
I mean look what you took from me
both material and intangible
it's the imperceptible that are influential
instrumental to a healthy mentality
monumental to stealthy insanity.
Have I lost my mind?
Is only trust declined?
Plant C4 inside my heart to implode my emotions!
You control my conscious
it's overbearing.
My walls rupture.
They said heartbreak would corrupt her
and this black misery consumes me,
annihilation save the tears.
Here lies the epitome of all her fears
stuck in a hole you dug
******* drug
******* love.

Curse this verse,
**** this rhyme.
I don't need it to disincline,
I'll define.
It's an allegory of the defamatory.
I encompassed what some name prosperity
but he required me walking with circularity
apparently
what I'm supposed to see
that's because it's not meant to be?
I mean look what you took from me
both material and intangible
it's the imperceptible that are influential
instrumental to a healthy mentality
monumental to stealthy insanity.
Have I lost my mind?
Is only trust declined?
Plant C4 inside my heart to implode my emotions!
You control my conscious
it's overbearing.
My walls rupture.
They said heartbreak would corrupt her
and this black misery consumes me,
annihilation save the tears.
Here lies the epitome of all her fears
stuck in a hole you dug
******* drug
******* love.

This beaming black diamond,
Frightened,
Drifts unbroken.
This fantasy fractured,
In this ally astray.
Microscopic symmetry,
Seen by scores,
Distinguished by competent lenses.
Desired by many,
Longed for by most.
Beside a fear of envy,
She walks with an encompassing allure,
Sullen shadows stabbing,
Somber self-reproach.
Seize it,
But not without conviction.
Cherish it,
Before its consumed.