I picture my veins carrying ****** slush
The ice from my heart breaks away
and gets caught in the current
it is always forming a new layer;
it is always replacing what is lost
Maybe this is why my body always feels so cold
maybe this is why I do not feel
because I am always numb from the frozen shreds
flowing through my veins.

I took notice of how time had been dulling the blue in my eyes,
stealing the glow of my skin,
forcing my lips into a permanent straight line.
Time had punched me and left purple valleys under my eyes
and made my hair fall limp.
Time had knocked me down and held me to the ground with one stiletto to the chest.
I was losing myself to a faceless enemy,
and I had no control.
This old friend had done the impossible
and dug the biggest knife into my back.

Clouds of sadness and pain shadow your eyes
A little uneasy frown occupies your lips
Your step falters again and again
I see how hard it is to keep up this charade
The final straw is broken
Your gone
Promising to come back new
I miss you greatly
My selfishness rears it's ugly head as I wish to have you back
I must wait
I will wait for you

My dearest Ariah, I love you. I miss you like no other. I can't wait to have my best friend back.

Maybe it was for the simple fact that I couldn't have you
Maybe it was because you felt different

You weren't everyone else
To me

But I was everyone else
To you

There was no chance
To begin with

There was no point
There was no point

I am me

And that stops everything

I have nothing to give
I have nothing to make me different

You have everything to give
You are different

There was no point
There was no point

I was nothing then
I am nothing now
I will forever be

NOTHING

I am not a pretty face
For to be a pretty face you must have a pretty face

I am not a model
For to be a model you must be skinny

I am not special
For to be special something has to make you special

I'm not a people person
For to be a people person you must have friends

I was nothing then
I am nothing now
I will forever be

**NOTHING

If I deny any longer
I will go mad

We will be nothing
The word 'we' has no meaning between us

There will never be an us
this love is a one way ray

My heart may shatter
My mind may refuse to accept

My lung might deny me what I need
My eyes may betray me in search

My brain may overcapacitate
I may be rendered unconscious

For loving one with my all
Takes my all

This ray shines one way
For I am alone

And shall remain alone
Until there is an us

A break up
The first of many

Abuse from your mom
Just one incident

A word
One meant to hurt you mentally
But hurts you both mentally and physically

Another break up
The worse yet

A comment that should have stayed in their head
Now to haunt you

Your life
It's hell
I know baby, I know

You go through so much
And your arms and thighs show it

But you like it
The thought of them
What they represent

Battle Scars