and it was only yesterday. a moment that past. and now i cant forget it. and I guess we'll see. what tomorrow brings. these things come when you least expect it.

so for now we'll ride out the waves of reason. until that time comes again for dreaming. we'll shift into our natural motion. let our souls take over the subtle notion.

Here I sit again
drained out, washed up and fingers worn;
left to wonder where the time has gone.

This disillusion I have dreamt of before
and I remain unfulfilled
holding steady for another day
but I wait in discontent

Soft and steady spiral
shoot me up to the heavens
trigger pressed
i rifle towards the skyline

In search of the unknown
I fly around aimlessly
plucking the clouds from the sky
one by one

Shimmering twilight
another day has since come to pass.
Without a hault,
I am going nowhere fast.

Puppet of this upset dynasty,
I parade around a "united" soldier
fallen to shambles under
a shameless facade.

They have stolen the dignity
of our fathers without blinking.
Onward we must march
before this ship is done sinking.

Stumbling again through darkness.
It seems so easily we can reach the forbidden fruit.
Weathered and tarnished soul.
Will you wipe this filth off of my feet?
Tiny tragedies and a corrupt heart.
Fix me anew.
Bring me back to the person I once was.
Innocent.
Now wiser but weak and ill with unnecessary want.

uncertainty has gotten the best of us both
we sit in silence speaking a million words
Shadows dance across the floor
as our tongues fumble over the thoughts
were too afraid to speak

don't irrationalize the rational darling
when heart beats tick in reverse
we stumble over endings
while dreaming only to transverse

Follow me down the darkest hallway
we'll come out where the light has crossed
Only time can bring us answers now
as we flee from apparent insanity
and lie shameful in hope of something more

but we can't irrationalize the rational darling
when heart beats tick in reverse
we stumble over endings
while dreaming only to transverse

This counterclockwise love affair
has worn us far too thin
so turn the hand and speak out
because I'm ready to begin

Kiss of destiny,
a zodiac efficacy;
for you and me?

Our paradoxical universes collide tonight
and when the stars align, all is right.

We'll get lost in our dreams
and walk the path of eternity.
Can you see it?
The hills and valleys;
with shadows in between.

This clock has been ticking ever-so slowly
can you hear it unwind tonight?
Like the threads of time that for so long have been pulling us apart.

I hope you see it too.
Come get lost in my eyes,
read my mind,
and dive through the great divide.

And yet it was just another daydream that I all of the sudden awoke from.
The warmest day to have ever been felt in late September.
The leaves turning colors of rich autumn, and only the mildest of breeze against our translucent skin.
After the longest stumble through darkness, it was as if I again recognized the light.
The suns power to exude and perpetuate happiness amongst even the saddest of Earths prisoners.
Family and friends gather to celebrate new love, as thy neighbors watch in dismay.
It seemed as if us fortunate few were walking on the clouds of eternity;
even if it was just for a moment.
But even from the realist of dreams, we must awake and return to chaos.

When souls like ours meet;
There's no need to speak.
Locked lips.
Guns loaded.
The air is thick,
and the tension is growing.
Sweaty palms
and a nervous step;
time edges closer to our ascent.

Will you let me in?
Rampant heart; blood's grown thin.

Words pour out of me;
a flood of emotion.
As I grow weak to this notion;
held captive in the depths of your eyes.

Fingers rush to the trigger,
but I am gun-shy.
Spellbound and confound by the strings you are pulling.

Marionette nightmare.
In my sweetest dreams you set me free,
with the softest caress of your lips.

I dive into a galaxy
of magnetic chaos
and float along
radioactive, purple, clouded skies
absorbed into the atmosphere
I begin to come alive

I spiral atop a mountain of stars
let my fingers roll along the currents and ripple out
oceanic outer-space
i no longer have a doubt

My mind expands into a stormy sea
as worlds collide and turn to dust
a million years have come to pass
yet I haven't learned to trust...
zero gravity, or my proximity;
to what is real.
Staring straight ahead now,
face to face with...
this infinite turning wheel

I reach out and touch the fallen ash
of ever-changing times
a wounded winged angel
can finally start to fly

Splintered and sinister,
this cracked country
comes to wither.

Are we one,
or the forgotten?

******, we cower in the hate for
that of which was once so proud.

Severed souvenir civilians
can we come to root the Earth again?
Intertwine our truths,
that have torn at the fault lines
of  this rattled nation?

Stand tall now with the world
we shall soon sing in sweet harmony.
"Watch the things we gave our lives to broken;
and stoop and build us up with worn out tools"
Yet, forget not those who shall drown,
as they watch their castles crumble;
for they will too soon become enlightened.

Peaceful pirates set sail,
and ignite this tyranny
with quiet kerosene;
so we may unearth again
how the truth shall set you free.

Similar souls,
see the same.
Softly smiling,
at the sound of serenity.
Simply settling,
some of the things,
so many can't summarize.

Clinically insane
I feel you coursing through my veins.

I've grown chemically fixated.
You leave me inhabilitated.

Is my heart out of synch with time?
Or is this as real as I've dreamt it?
For what seems to be an eternity;
I have coward in your glow.

You're invigorating, and intoxicating.
but I am suffocating;
stuck in waiting;
for you to make your move.

Switchblade fantasies,
which direction do I run?

Keep me safe;
another head case.
Inking my tongue and
longing for your touch.

I am spontaneous disaster,
you a reckless abandon,
mysterious majesty
I evade your commandment.

Your eyes sift through my soul
and take control,
of my chaotic mind.
Please slow this rampant wall of time.

Am I delusional,
or is this the usual?
You...

Never know which way to move
just a harlequin heart
trying to get in tune.

Clear into the distance
The sun is going down
the gears shift as I make my way
driving out of town

the open lands
where the waves crash in
its time to depart
the open roads
ill call my home
hold true inside my heart

my dreams as big as the salty blue
and since you left I...
will start anew
my hopes locked away in a jar on the shelf
in an old wooden church I will find myself

and when the sun goes down
I will not wait
cause yesterdays gone
and I wont be late

In a rive on the opposite end of town
a bottle with three words pours out
but not what you'd dream
not so cliche
in old withered in "baby, please stay"

as the sun goes down I wait for dawn
the stars my fate, yesterday gone

the open land as vast as my heart
and the waves crash down
during our depart

life moves in circles
and we cant escape
my heart the weapon
your soul my aim
cause when there's nothing to lose
there's all to gain

Irrelevant are the revelries
that cast themselves upon me often.
Like beaten and weathered souls
we walk amongst the dead, whilst living.
Blackened hearts; unwilling, yet copacetic.
Life has come routine and bland.
The cold, and dampened sound
of another numbing day in and out;
only livened by the thought of you.
A pure and shimmering light
that echoes through the mundane.
Screaming out for me to be the change I dream.
How is it we hear each other; so far off shore?
Come drift into my widened pupils and remind me of who I once was.
Innocent and genuine.
Setting fire to my every fiber, this magnetic masquerade must end.
I feel I am made for something more when I am standing in your warmth.
So would you remind me of who I am, before the sunsets again?
And would you free me from the currents, that have long since been sweeping me out into darkness?

Transfixed in your abyss.
Can I hold true inside your warmth?

This flame you've ignited is slowly burning
pour me some kerosene
let's watch it catch like wildfire.

When will you make your move?
By your shape shifting I'm consumed.
Stuck in the gloom.
Waiting to be set free from this cage.
Baby, come on, don't be afraid.

Run with me we'll live life without looking back
You're as "subtle as a heart attack"

Black and white is a paradox for the colors only I can see.
Open your eyes, and follow me.
I'll show you the shades and shadows that lie in between (us).
Take a walk on thin ice, and you will see how I dance in a universe, so surreal.
Out of the box we call our world; holding captivate our human nature.

I dream in infinite parallels.
You call me gray; I call you shallow and blind.
Widen your eyes and nurture your depths.
Allow my neon hues to warm up your soul and radiate life into your shutdown veins.
For tomorrow you shall wake anew; and have forgotten what once seemed so luminous.

Silent creeper
Keeper of my soul
Do you want me whole?

See through skin.
See through eyes.
Devious smile.
Would you hold me a while?

Infatuated.
You enrapture me.
Frozen in time.
Can I call you mine?

And in this darkness
all I can see is the light in your eyes.
Will you be my demise?

On the verge of Spring.
Can we come to bloom?
Electrify my soul.
Please take control.

Your translucent and I want to get lost in your touch.
Could I ask so much?

There is something you're not saying?
but I can read your every move
this is more than just some theory
Chemistry is bottled up and tubed.

If it's true that atoms form a bond, can souls like ours collide?
When world's like ours meet, can they freeze both space and time?

Do you feel the "magnetic" pull, racing through your brain?
It's frightening the currents felt coursing through my veins.

I don't know what to do, so I run fast out the door.
You have your way with words, but your eyes say so much more.

Feel the air pressure drop, and the static come to life.
Our electric touch so strong, that we could dim these city lights.

As I go to leave, I look at you and I know what's on your mind.
But I turn and run; afraid to give our town so little time.

So where do we go from here; when silence can not remain?
And my will to fight has all but gone, but my heart beats just the same.

Sound the alarms and signal your brightest warning flare.
Dear citizens of Baltimore the time has come so please just be prepared.

We are dangerous, and it's obvious, we have carbon copy wires.
chemically conductive, and constructed, to attract, spark, and catch fire.
So oxidize me tonight, but be sure that we take cover.
Cause when we touch and the flames ignite, we mustn't  stand among the others.

Growing tired of being patient.
Blood grows thin as my heart continues to race;
from daylight to dusk.
And my head spins like a vessel rudder,
searching for new seas.
So when the tide casts us out
can we finally come to be?

Palms sweaty, my mouth is dry,
feverish and restless I reside.
Words my only escape,
until time follows suit.
I'm anxiously waiting,
for you to pursue.

I wander lost in my dreams,
still searching for you.
Climbed the highest of mountains;
searched oceans deep blue.

Held prisoner to time,
along with my thoughts.
Will my heart ever be strong enough,
to find what I've lost?

Words escape me when I need them most
and I slip into the back of my mind.
Float far away to a better place
Where reality is hard to find.

But in my world a place exists
of freedom and no war,
all souls at ease,
thy kingdom come,
living’s not a chore.

A light burns brightly at our core
Our hearts define our essence
But this is only in my dreams
Reality holds our presence.

Insomnia my distant friend
I see that you are back again.
Here to toy with my troubled mind
and leave me conflicted with-in time.

Sleepless shadows keep me up at night;
I toss and turn with no end in sight.
Am I dreaming, or is this real?
The line is blurred, yet still I feel;
you are to blame,
as the daze settles in.
Like the fog to my headlights;
I rest with disillusion.

A surreal nightmare,
where I grow weak and cumbersome
unsettled and unaware
I walk through the dreary reality where you come from.

The rain beats on my windshield as I drive down the seemingly endless road.
My days stuck in slow motion; rewind, repeat and go.
When will the sunshine again?
When will I feel alive?
Insomnia, my long lost friend.
It's in my mind you thrive.

Let down your arms
cause I know the truth
we fight fire with water
and love with our youth

I'm tied to a string
and wrapped around your finger
You move closer to the light
but in the shadows you still linger

Gentle soldier will you save me
from the darkest of nights?
Stand tall, tried and true
In the essence of our lives

Give me something more
than what I have right now.
If I reach out my hand to you
would you offer me the crown?

It happened when you knocked me off my feet
We can talk for hours about nothing and everything
As the morning sun rises we go to sleep
Fall into each other’s arms, lay a while, then dream


Something about you feels right
Won’t you come over tonight?
We don’t have to talk at all
Under your spell I fall


It happened when you reached out your hand
In that moment we took a chance on something new
And as the sun went down it melted into the ocean
My mind helplessly wandered to questions of devotion

Something about you feels right
Won’t you come over tonight?
We don’t have to talk at all
Under your spell I fall

Words pack no punch next to the explosion of two hearts
Your plane may be leaving, and we may soon part
But I’ll follow you across the land
And find you where the tide meets the sand

My mind rapid fires ideas so quickly from point A to Z, that I often forget the steps it took to get there. So when I go to explain my transparent and rational solution; I often sound insane. Good thing great minds are more times than none considered to be maddened.

My minds made up of static
I think you wired me wrong
Programmed to misconceive
And it’s now been far too long

Misdirection
my profession
words dance on the lips of lovers
your hips, my finger tips
keeping it under covers

To some degree
we’re low key
But I’m seeing it in black and white
For the first time tonight

Starry eyes and lullabies
Lost in electricity
And it’s hard to breathe when
You sparked a fire inside of me

Disappeared in the darkness
And I am tangled in your wires
Lost with no escape
To save me from this fire

Please come back
Whoa Whoa
Please come back
Whoa whoa
This fire burns for you
This fire burns for you
And without you I’m just static
And without you I’m just static

Pocketed hands and escape routes,
run as fast as you can.
Before the truth comes loose,
bury it in the sand.

**** me with a stare,
and break me beyond repair.
Speak up, or shout out.
I really do not care.

The move is yours to make,
make it or not I know the truth.
But with this slow, dull, ache,
I'll waste away my youth.

Weightless paper plane,
I float about the days,
severed from reality
hoping to lift this haze.

A fragile heart can only beat so long.
Without it's other half at hand.
Make your move before the tide comes in,
and I wash out with the sand.

You excrete the truth from my love locked veins,
and I find myself falling for you again.
Now I'm insane.

We walked a long dark path
and now we're struggling to get back.

Dear, can you hold me till it's over?
Won't you move a little closer, darlin?
So we can dance.

We smother our will,
and choke on our own words.
Baby, it's absurd.

We fumble over hope,
that someday we'll come clean.
Let's live out the dream
of just you and me.

We walked a long dark path
and now we're struggling to get back.

Dear, can you hold me till it's over?
Just move a little closer, darlin'.
So we can dance.

But, I will wake in the morning
and without a warning, or a sign,
there'll be no tracks of your goodbye,
and no alibis.

So I will wait, and I will wait, wait, wait, wait.
Cause that's all I know how to do.
When it comes to me and you.

As the sun met the moon tonight
they hung on opposite ends of the earth.
But you were nowhere to be found
despite the feelings inside that still lurk.

I looked deeply in the mirror,
as I tried to find myself.
Got lost in chameleon eyes,
with emotions on the shelf.

When darkness had set in the moon was full;
my soul was merely empty.
And as the stars danced across evening skies,
hope was nowhere with me.

The rain clouds finally passed, but the tears they fell again
How can you come and go, then call yourself my friend?

I can no longer take the distance
When we remain so close
Who knew that it could hurt this much?
To be dancing with your ghost

So I run from home, to a foreign land
Where I’ll meet with the earth
To sink my toes in the sand.
I’ll dare to find hope again
Forget what I had known
Find castles beside seashores
To build a new home

And maybe some day, I will return
With a fist full of gold and a lesson I’ve learned

Although pockets of treasure
Can’t amount to this love
The haunting of ghost
were not sent from above.

So while I’m away
Upon my request
If nothing more
dream nothing less.

Tomorrow could change everything.
Flick the switch,
and watch the world light up.
I'll come to life with you;
like your music box as we watch lovers dance and gears unwind.

Or play for me, and I'll be the muse.
Just let all of your tangled words; fall loose.
I will be there to catch them, collect them,
and hold them high, righteous, and true.

Can you see the truth behind a sinners eyes?
I felt something with you that extinguished the lies.
So why do we hide?
Leave words and expressions confined?
When I see it all clearly;
with just one glimpse at your soul.
There is something more to you and I.
2 parts that equal one whole.

Late February rain pours out it's heart to me.
"Come dance," it screams; so loud and steadily.
I burn to let off steam, but I am locked inside this box.
Stuck with my 9 to 5 routine, of kicking jagged rocks.

Apocolyptic nightmares stir my soul, even while awake.
When the sky comes crashing downward fast,
what will I have done for the human race?

I begin to learn the meaning of complaicent.
And the taste is bitter with despare.
I hope one day the words expunged,
or breaks beyond repair.

America the Beautiful,
America the "Free",
What is this lie you've bottled up and sold?
Can you put a price tag on our dreams?
And  is it worth its' weight in gold?

I guess I am just a day late,
or one too many dollars short.
So I'll keep climbing, up and up.
To pay off, all that you extort.

I'm sure it has been said before
and there is no doubt that some have won.
You hear the same bland story;
tried and true...
While staring down the barrell of a gun.

So wax on, wax off
I'm certain that it's growing old.
Cause no matter which you polish it,
Our hearts will never fold.

Have you ever wondered what it would be like?
and have you ever questioned what to do with your time?
'Cause one day it all seems just fine.
But then you come to realize here is gone.
and you're left asking yourself why.

So you try to retrace your steps
only to forget what lies ahead.

and we dance around in circles
slowly spinning
we spiral down.

Could you lift me up?
So I can breath.
Treading water.
I am sinking underneath.

I'm lost at sea.

Retrace my tracks
I try to get back.
But there's an ocean
in between.

and we dance around in circles
slowly spinning
we spiral down.
reaching out to find new ground.
we're all confound
searching for home.

Hooo~hooo hooo~ hoo
hoo~hoo hoo~hoo

and we dance around in circles
watch as we continue to
violently spin
this time
it's make or break.
will we sink or swim?

and we dance around in circles (x5)

I know we had something special
But those days are gone
I know we lost it all
Yet we must carry on

One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be

Why do I always fall back
You knock me down over and over again
I think Im sick
I think im sick on loving you
If I could just turn around
And walk away now
That’s what I would do

One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be

If I walked away
Would you even care at all?
If I was alone and restless
Would you help break the fall?
No?

One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be

I’m such a fool
And your too cruel
I'm such a fool
For loving you

Can you come over tonight and fill this void?
I’ve been waiting for so long to dance.
You taught me how to play the game
though I never stood a chance.

For now I’ll just **** the nights away
Looking for nothing but the bottom of a bottle.
With only myself to blame
I lay naked and cold for all to see.

Tongue tied again
My vocal chords have swelled
This empty canvas is colored black
My heart now beats to the stabbing pain in my back.
(A subtle reminder of how we left things)

but for now ill **** the nights away
(with him)
looking for noone and nothing
I walk around with a hollowed grin
Pretending I can still feel something

It’s not the same
No its not the same
But im tired of standing up just to fall down again
Sick of the so-called game we play
I surf the night on the harshest of winds

So for now Ill **** the nights away
Cause there is no turning back
I just want what was rightfully mine from the start
Surrender the other half of this beating heart.

Goodbyes never come easy
But yours was far too unexpected
I opened up and ran away
Left you lost and unprotected

I thought someday we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in heaven our future grows

I never dreamed of the day I’d have to say my goodbyes
While dressed up in sorrow as my only disguise
I always thought the future was on my side
But my false hopes are my weakest guide

I thought someday we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in the heavens our future grows

Lost in misery
A loss for words
I only wish there was a way
To ease this hurt
Family and friends will gather near
And in light of darkness
We’ll release our fears
Pray for the future and things to come
And never forget what can’t be undone.

I thought we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in the heavens our future grows

Swing sets and park benches
A kiss on the lips
At 6 years of age, does it get better than this?
You soared away
Disappeared for a while
But when you returned
I remembered your smile
The years flew by
And you didn’t change
At 21 years old
You came back the same.
Genuine and true
Giving and kind
A kiss on the mouth
And again you were mine
But I had to go
I was chasing big dreams
You understood,
We approached different things
And as I left
I swore we’d always be friends
The look in your eyes swore
We’d meet again
So I spread my wings
And had started to fly
But as I left
The angels fell from the sky
As they took you away, to a brighter place
I became lost, until I met with Grace
And as you rose to the heavens
Time here traveled sure
Although giving up seemed easy
It’s life we endure
And if I am certain of one thing now,
It’s this I learned from you:
(quote)“It’s not the year in our life, but the life in our years, that makes all the difference”
So until my time comes
I will chase these dreams
You will lift me up, so I can fly
Despite my broken wings.
And when the day comes
And it’s my time to depart
I’ll be with you again forever,
As you remain in my heart.

It’s hard to see past the uncertain grey skies that hover outside my window
I push forward, in search for the truths we all desire
Can love be born again?
Bittersweet are the sparkling shadowed clouds
A glimmer of sunlight trying to protrude a darkened forecast
I find hope in dancing among the tears of heaven
As if they’re fallen angels
A half smile stretches across my face
At the mere thought of what comes after the rain
An illumination of our universe, like the sun is a diamond
Where a rainbow can be born to carry my dreams to a better place
Where beauty can last
And our deepest desires come true
To be loved, and to love
A solid ground for hope to thrive on
A chance to live eternally in Paradise
And Ive thought once too many times about the end
I guess I just get lost sometimes inside my head
Surround myself with a world of make believe
But today it seems that I can finally breathe

I cant look back now
the time has passed
but i know we've still got something special
we pretend we dont care
and we go our seperate ways
but four letters always bring me back to you

for the way you look at me
I know that this is real
and as much as I try to turn my back on you
I cant hide how I feel

These days they have grown so cold
even though many seasons now have passed
and although we walk our separate ways
again we will meet the same path

for the way you look at me
I know that this is real
and as much as I try to turn my back on you
I cant hide how I feel

Now the time has come for me to shine
plenty knocking at my door
but I turn around and walk away
as I question what it's for

for the way you look at me
I know that this is real
and as much as I try to turn my back on you
I cant hide how I feel

So I hope you come to realize
this is the kind of word that just can't die
and you turn around and look at me
so were standing eye to eye
you kiss me softly on the lips
apologize for wasting time

and we dream again together
and we dream again together
one more night

Dear Boy I yet not know,
I am eager to earn your heart.
I look into your eyes
And I see your fears.
But hidden deep inside,
somewhere in the back corner of your heart,
you plead to escape the prison you have built yourself.
As I stair into your soul, the walls you are embodied by
show me how timid you are.
Scared that I may tear down, something that took so long to build.
But I revel not in angst, rather geniality.
They say fear is the heart of hate.
I see only hope for all things to come.
With you, me, and the questionable world that surrounds all of us in different ways,
there is a light at the end of this road we travel.
And though I fear your fears,
this hope is enough for me.
Because I know that with hope, all is possible.
And that anything that can be torn down, may be built back up.
Hope is the light I see hidden past your eyes.