I write in thieves argot
I'm far gone......too deep to resurface
not worth it, go further
into my mind, i'm blind to the time
Life is fleeting, and i am bleeding
needing    to        get        by
  while i get high......
Passing the day,
in a way, that keeps me dragging too slow
with no where to go
stuck in the muck, without any luck
pain struck while i **** myself
into the ground,
with no sound       to    wake    me
I ramble on, gambling on
unlucky eyes
send in spies to cut ties
with my past, the memories last
carve my name in your heart
we fell apart.............

here        gone              forgotten

I left
You cried
I returned
We died

We tried
I lied
Cut ties
We died

You climed
We shined
You shyed
We died

I left
We died.....

I've gotten used to being introduced
alone
How's the job? How's your day?
Great weather outside, I must say.

But wait, what's this?
Comfort? Bliss?
Could it be? Are you the one?
Here I am, biting my tongue

But how do I know? Can I be sure?
If I was sick, would you be my cure?
This is the moment,
Let's take a walk.
Forever
                 begins with
                              a little
                                      small talk......................

we're trying to    simplify    the   difficult
and     pacify     the   temperamental....

indulging in   forbidden   filth
the farther you go        the smaller you get
but staying put     makes it worse

radium skies    ****** eyes

make it til' tomorrow

Aeroplane,
          watch me drift up in the same lame stupor
i've been in     i'm in it     i'm winning      not grinning
i'm smiling because i've found the sunshine again

Not touchin' the ground   i don't know how
         got lost for a minute   i'm back   let's kick it
grown tired of the monotany   it's gotten to me
in my brain    creepin' up      fillin' cups
so i can push it back down    onto the ground
          drownin' in alcohol   ask for more      knowin' what's comin'
but i'm like                    **** it       i don't feel nothin'

Right now i'm back up    but i don't think it's luck
          that got me here       ******       it *****
it was my lack of fear that steered me here
be responsible     not possible   the night is young
where's the fun?

Here in my bed        oh ****    my head
           it was all a dream?             come clean
What happened?

i thought you and i had it...magic
i thought wrong.
you can't change my opinion with the way you sing your song
green eyes, take me down
drowning in blue skies...
he didn't tell me it was going to feel like that
stole my heart, never gave it back.
the weary drum comes
through the floor
my eyes are focused on this door
cold lights, city nights
i don't want to think of you. what do i do?
you speak of the world
all these boys and girls
the paths they chase, decisions they make
be the one to prove me wrong
come back again and
sing your song

i break down my words
again and again
until they are so small
they don't make sense anymore...
5 letters, 4 letters, 3 letters, 2
apparently the numbers don't add up for me and you.

bones sinking like stones, one of us is hurt
guess who?
moans from the dreams and the schemes
from past lives in the night
while i am awake
suffering
from intake, as i lie next to you
it must be true
just because i am losing
doesn't mean i've lost

You're a badfish?
Here's the hook.............

We ain't eye to eye, you see
You're the one that's missin' me
And we can't seem to get this one quite right

But you tell yourself it'll be just fine
You just need a drink, couple glasses of wine
Or whatever it is that helps you sleep at night

So somethin' or another's gonna have to give
Before you just snap and I blow my lid
And this whole thing ends up as one big mess

Somethin's gotta change and it's gotta happen soon
We're stuck right here inside this room
Fifty Fifty, no more, no less

Can't win
Stuck in between nothing and space
Floating aimlessly
Trapped here with all the other wingless flies
Death is the final freedom
When will I be set free?

All the world is quiet
But there's a stranger at my door
Should I go, this beckoning call
We'll see just what's in store

Take me back 'round yonder
With a big smile on your face
Keep me still with steady breath
Don't forget your place

**** your intuition
Hang it on your wall
All I want's a little taste
You're a stranger after all

I'll meet you in the valley
Where strangers go to roam
We'll swim in toxic waters
We'll call this box a home

You'll know me like no other
Get into my head
You'll be my bread and butter
The stranger in my bed

One day will come a parting
And a meeting of the two
When strangers disappear from here
There's only me and you

Years and years of messin'
Around in your bedroom
Have got me contemplatin'
'Bout seein' you real soon

****'s so complicated
Rendered me a fool
But that's the price you pay
When you've broken all the rules

Struttin' down the sidewalk
Grinnin' ear to ear
Singin' about makin' love
The comin' of the year

The spark between us set this place on fire
Make our escape through the back door screen
By the time they count us missing
Long gone, never to be seen

Makin' eyes through your dark sunglasses
Speed down the lane with the windows down
As far out west as the roads will take us
Keep goin' til there ain't no ground

Ride away off into the moonlight
No where to go, with plenty of time
All or nothin baby take it or leave
The only way I knew, to make you mine

You never really were the one for me
There's no goin back to how we used to be
We faked everything we are
I can't believe we let it go this far

Stayed up all night when we first met
Now it seems that there ain't no words left
The days are hot and the nights are long
Dreamin' about where we went wrong

There ain't no sense, in tryin' to fix
Something that never fit together in the first place
Knew from the start we were destined to fail
I'm looking at a stranger when I see your face

I feel like **** and you do to
I say the words, but I can't get through
And I don't know why, we still try
How much more, til you say goodbye?

You cut my heart, time heals all wounds
But time doesn't touch the melody of your tunes
Ever present to remind me of the times we had
Please don't be mad
But I don't wanna hear it no more
Let's settle the score, I was never a *****
Just lonely, looking for someone to touch me the way you did
Half-grin, spin me around on this pedestal you put me on
So long, gone, into the night, where there is no light
To shed the truth on your motives, I voted
It's over. You can't fix that which isn't broken
Face it, you're too late. You ****** fate.
Skipped that date, showed up late, but cleared your plate.
How does it feel now, wondering how
You got where you are, as I drive your car
You don't see the sky, only pitch black dye
You never cry, You're a robot
Who forgot how to feel, just stop the clock
Time's up