people what to say time chained feelings
pouring out love dipped strawberries
idle hands are like the idle hearts
warming the night storm in the morning
breaking ice sheets like small talk and conversation
and yeah you sensed the hesitation
plan b fallowed by plan e or f
we can talk about the sky
if its really raining then we can stay in
as long as eyes don't start leaking
from the floorboard breaking
either way we will be drowning
letting scary monsters from the basement
see straight to the attic
cobweb covered dreams above us
long forgotten when we jumped pin picks
or pin holes
i forget what you call them
no you can't smoke my lucky

No ****
There I was...
Still drunk from the night before
swaying and floating to the bathroom

the anticipation
the feeling of fire rising from my stomach
then
Sweet release
and again
Fire
Relief

The repetition
three or four days in a row now
seems so masochistic

but

its where I hide
Its where I am safe
Safe from feeling how I did with you

I figure if my head is pounding harder than my heart
I can drive you out
Cast you out
Keep you out

Water
Coffee
some eggs
aspirin  
on with the day

If it worked the first time
I don't think I would keep pouring fire into me

but as the day is fading
I need to be set ablaze

I will
keep you out
push you out
cast you out