What's the point of having a mind
if I don't use it
All of this time
I've been ******* losing it
I'm not sane
Nothing's been the same
I'm tired of this town
and every street I walk on
is like walking down memory lane

**I'm in need of change...

I hold on to the past
because it's all I got
old memories in my head
I can't make them stop
we were all friends
we all got along
now no one talks to each other
and we're all falling apart
I miss a few people
and how things used to be
if I could I would
relive those moments for eternity
I hold on to the past
because they forget
The friendships we had
and the heart to hearts

You know you're unwanted
when you walk into a room
and you see it on the persons face
they think your a disgrace
but what they don't know is
those are mistakes
you can't erase
they follow you everyday
like a dark cloud over your head
that won't go away
and it digs into your soul
it feels like the pain
is here to stay
that's how you feel on the inside
then people look at your face
they see a fake smile
taking the pains place

I cry
you don't know how hard
I try
but all you do to me
is lie
and when I ask all you do
is deny
I try to get close but you
push me aside
all I want to do is go off
and get high
drink a few beers
maybe some lines
by the end of the night
I'll be able to fly
but what goes up
must come down
I die
and you ask why?
because you walked
and ruined my life

I'm so upset
I can't explain in words
how I feel
your ignorance
my confidence
is so unreal
the things you said
spin in my head
these wounds will never heal
I'm not ashamed to admit
Sometimes I cry

My friend told me I built a wall
and that it's ten feet tall
asked me why I don't express my feelings
and to be honest
I don't know at all

I was on the couch
watching TV
then he came downstairs
and sat next to me
my parents were outside
fixing a car
my brothers upstairs
probably doing drugs
he looked harmless
blue eyes and blond hair
I was a child
I really didn't care
but at the moment
I felt the tension in the air
I looked at him
and got caught
in his crazy eyed stare
he moved closer
I got scared
he wrapped his arms around me
and started groping me everywhere
I said please stop
he said shut up little *****
"you know you like it"
closed my eyes
and wished i wasn't there
started crying then he got scared
He got up, looked, and walked away
I didn't know what to say
after that day
I never saw him again
didn't tell anyone
kept it all within
I just wonder if he
ever thought of me again
and how much he
****** up my life
in the end

Please don't hurt me
its happened so many times before
I'm falling hard for you
I want to stop
before I hit the floor
I wish I could grow wings and soar
far away from heartache
because I can't take this no more

Love*
I'm starting to think you're not real
because you are something I do not feel
people say you're everywhere
but I can't find you
then I try to let you come to me
but you take to long to

Here I am all alone
the ocean stole my soul
here I am going insane
losing all myself control
didn't think twice
it's my fault to blame
for where I am now
giving up
I'm so ashamed
I don't know what to do
right now..
Losing myself with every breathe I take
can't figure this place out
watching the waves eat me alive
please someone
save me, save me
HELP ME OUT!
I've gone OVERBOARD!