I will get thinner
I will be skinny
I
will
do
this

everyone has someone to love
but some just haven't found that person yet

what if all of this is
just a dream?

I just want to be
*pretty

you wouldn't touch me
because you wanted it to work out

you didn't want it to crumble
the moment your fingers
caressed my gentle skin

you didn't want your
callused hands to tear away
my being

it would have worked out
but your chapped lips
dried out my soul

you rarely looked at me
because maybe your eyes
would betray you

but maybe this was what we needed
to be together

I can't believe
I just let you play me
I let you convince me to reveal myself
oh god forgive me

i. I'm too much to handle
ii. I always worry about things I can't control
iii. I argue about everything
iv. I don't love myself
v. I'm numb
vi. I never want to do anything
vii. I get upset easy
viii. I cry all the time
ix. I can be the biggest *****
x. I feel numb and nothing

all I hope for anymore
to be confident
to be sweet
to be honest
to be concrete

why are you
so perfect
just being you

people say they are ready for zombies
to invade and take over
but have you ever walked
into a high school and looked
at all the zombies there?