you wouldn't touch me
because you wanted it to work out

you didn't want it to crumble
the moment your fingers
caressed my gentle skin

you didn't want your
callused hands to tear away
my being

it would have worked out
but your chapped lips
dried out my soul

you rarely looked at me
because maybe your eyes
would betray you

but maybe this was what we needed
to be together

say something, I'm giving up on you

we argue about the slightest things
we always voice our opinions
but you say you would rather argue with me
than be with someone else

I'm learning to love

your eyes shine like I have never seen
and your touch is different than those before you
but I feel like my love will destroy you
inside and out

and I will swallow my pride

my corrupt soul is what is going to send you running
and my unexpected nights of crying
and wanting to end my streak of being clean
but you still hold on and refuse to let that scare you

and anywhere, I would follow you*

you seem to know best for everyone
but do you know what's best for me?

I wanna keep time
with the freckles on your back

one, two, three
you walk past like nothing
everyday we say hello
I ask you about your activities
because I just love hearing your voice
one, two, three
will love ever choose me?

you will never understand my love for you
because it's deeper than the ocean blue
and it will always be there
unlike your old teddy bear
you see, why wouldn't I?
when you keep asking why?
just remember to never let your emotions
control your everyday actions

super star
                 terrific
awesome
                a for effort
I'm special
                  all stickers I could choose from
but I chose the blank sticker
because this sticker describes me

I like you
          you like her

I trusted you
but
you proved me otherwise

tears stream down my face
"do you know how beautiful you are?"
why compliment me
when you have me pinned on the crowd?
you finish and you hold me
kissing my forehead so delicately
you kissed me goodnight when you dropped me off but it was so gentle
and sweet
yet I wonder why I can't get over you

I have gotten to a point
where I don't think I even deserve
*love

I can't believe
I just let you play me
I let you convince me to reveal myself
oh god forgive me

your slender figure
the way I always taste you
long after you're gone
your scent is always faintly
floating around me
your breath
so effortless
the way you taste on my lips
is like nothing I've had before
and I always wonder
if this is the beginning
of a addiction

what I like most about you is
you won't let me give up

the lump in your throat
stingy in your eyes
and maybe your nose
your vision gets blurry
but soon you can't choke
back the tears
they fall with no regret
your chest heaves
breathing in between weeps
your mouth trying to stay closed
but it can only muffle so much
before your crying floods

I wish your mixed signals
were more
obvious and easier to understand

are you going to let him destroy you?
use you?
he has manipulated you
he is the poison you've been drinking
its time for rehab

you little thing
so frail and innocent
what I'm about to tell you
will hit you
like a ton of bricks
and I'm sorry
but please don't cry for me

every day I see you
my mind races

9 months of my high school career
dedicated to you
it revolved around you

so close and convinced we were
"in love"
like we would be high school sweethearts
that grow old together

every day
all the memories of you
us
go through my head
every kiss, every hug, every laugh, every cry
stuck in my head

I try to forget you
I try to remember you have moved on
found another girl to fall in love with
your deep brown eyes
and freckles that make a map of your soul

I try to tell myself that we have both moved on
some days are harder than others
the only thing I truly know is
even if I had a second chance at your love
I wouldn't take the risk of falling again

all I hope for anymore
to be confident
to be sweet
to be honest
to be concrete

please understand
that I'm not what you think
I'm full of surprises
sometimes the mask comes off
please understand
sometimes it's not you
sometimes it's me

being the worlds worst friend
is so true
but I want you to know I'm trying
I'm trying so hard
to become a better friend

I wonder if you are trying to ease
your way into my life
it's not gonna work
because I've gotten over you
I've pushed you out of my life
and I hope it stays
I don't need my life to be ruined
again by your evil ways

you cry but no one hears you
you help others with their problems
but they never return the favor
no one calls you to check up on you
no one notices the sadness in your eyes
or your broken heart shattered
in front of them
but I do because I know how it feels
to be **alone

I hope you remember me
when you're making love to her

the only thing that gets me through
the night is
picturing you there beside me

is it alright
if I let you go?
maybe then I'll find myself
or realize that I need you
for me to be myself

it's hard to look at myself in the mirror
seeing every place you left
your mark

I already let myself down
and didn't keep up to
my resolution

my love,
hold me close
my love,
kiss my cheek
my love,
tickle my back
my love,
make me fall in love