having someone like you for you
is so heavenly

everyone has someone to love
but some just haven't found that person yet

find someone who
makes you smile
laughs at all your jokes
calls out of the blue just to say hello
watches disney movies with you
brings you your favorite coffee

find someone who
holds you when you cry
tickles your back
makes you soup when you're sick
listens to sad music with you

find someone who
lets you be you

it's so hard
seeing someone you love
*shrink

silence
staring down your opponent
waiting for the other
to initiate battle
screams start ringing in your ears
you run forward
waiting for the first punch
you're hit
you feel the blood
rushing from your body
you stay up
until one fatal hit
graces your body

help me
find myself

my love,
hold me close
my love,
kiss my cheek
my love,
tickle my back
my love,
make me fall in love

kiss my neck
tell me "you're mine"

"Is it possible to fall in love with someone you have only met once?"

I've only seen those beautiful blue eyes
once
they lit up my world
I've only heard your beautiful laugh
once
it was the most beautiful song
I've only touched your beautiful body
once
butterflies went crazy

"Is it possible to fall in love with someone you have only met once?"

you sit there
with your dark brown eyes
and unshaven face
I sit here
wondering
is it worth it?

I love how you never treated me right
but now you say you still like me

i. I'm too much to handle
ii. I always worry about things I can't control
iii. I argue about everything
iv. I don't love myself
v. I'm numb
vi. I never want to do anything
vii. I get upset easy
viii. I cry all the time
ix. I can be the biggest *****
x. I feel numb and nothing

sitting in a bar by yourself
he walks up to you
"is anyone sitting here?"
you tell him no and he sits down
he makes small talk
"this weather is terrible"
you laugh at his jokes
hoping he will leave you alone
"let me buy you a drink"
sure, just cause it's free
he gets closer to you
you're too uncomfortable to move
his hand moves to your leg
"let's go dance"
you tell him you aren't the type
and he smiles and reassures you
you go for one dance
then go back to the bar
"let's get out of here"

you push, shove
bashing my head
on the cold concrete wall
just enough times
to make me fall in love

what I like most about you is
you won't let me give up

you will never understand my love for you
because it's deeper than the ocean blue
and it will always be there
unlike your old teddy bear
you see, why wouldn't I?
when you keep asking why?
just remember to never let your emotions
control your everyday actions

I hope you remember me
when you're making love to her

super star
                 terrific
awesome
                a for effort
I'm special
                  all stickers I could choose from
but I chose the blank sticker
because this sticker describes me

the lump in your throat
stingy in your eyes
and maybe your nose
your vision gets blurry
but soon you can't choke
back the tears
they fall with no regret
your chest heaves
breathing in between weeps
your mouth trying to stay closed
but it can only muffle so much
before your crying floods

"why are you so jumpy?"
because I've always been a part of the guy crowd
the one that physically fights instead of mentally
I have grown up in fear of being hit
because I have always done something wrong
I have never felt safe around you
because I know you would take it out on me
but I am not a punching bag
*I'm your daughter

your slender figure
the way I always taste you
long after you're gone
your scent is always faintly
floating around me
your breath
so effortless
the way you taste on my lips
is like nothing I've had before
and I always wonder
if this is the beginning
of a addiction

say something, I'm giving up on you

we argue about the slightest things
we always voice our opinions
but you say you would rather argue with me
than be with someone else

I'm learning to love

your eyes shine like I have never seen
and your touch is different than those before you
but I feel like my love will destroy you
inside and out

and I will swallow my pride

my corrupt soul is what is going to send you running
and my unexpected nights of crying
and wanting to end my streak of being clean
but you still hold on and refuse to let that scare you

and anywhere, I would follow you*

you seem to know best for everyone
but do you know what's best for me?

you cry but no one hears you
you help others with their problems
but they never return the favor
no one calls you to check up on you
no one notices the sadness in your eyes
or your broken heart shattered
in front of them
but I do because I know how it feels
to be **alone

you say that I'm your
inspiration
to be healthy
you're my
inspiration
to stay alive

I never appreciated sleep
until I was up all hours of the night
thinking about you

I wonder if you are trying to ease
your way into my life
it's not gonna work
because I've gotten over you
I've pushed you out of my life
and I hope it stays
I don't need my life to be ruined
again by your evil ways

you wouldn't touch me
because you wanted it to work out

you didn't want it to crumble
the moment your fingers
caressed my gentle skin

you didn't want your
callused hands to tear away
my being

it would have worked out
but your chapped lips
dried out my soul

you rarely looked at me
because maybe your eyes
would betray you

but maybe this was what we needed
to be together

people say they are ready for zombies
to invade and take over
but have you ever walked
into a high school and looked
at all the zombies there?

medicine
it's got me all over
I feel like the bed is moving
with nothing underneath
people trading on beds but
I can't seem to move
the ships leave now
but with everyone
so who is holding my hand--
I look up and see-- you
you kept your promise to stay
oh Ethan

second chances
are for the lucky
they don't come very often
so I am going to make sure
I don't mess this up again