all I hope for anymore
to be confident
to be sweet
to be honest
to be concrete

I wish my heart wouldn't spark
for people I don't need
like tim foil in the microwave

are you going to let him destroy you?
use you?
he has manipulated you
he is the poison you've been drinking
its time for rehab

your words of hatred
make me crumble
like a sand castle

is it alright
if I let you go?
maybe then I'll find myself
or realize that I need you
for me to be myself

every day I see you
my mind races

9 months of my high school career
dedicated to you
it revolved around you

so close and convinced we were
"in love"
like we would be high school sweethearts
that grow old together

every day
all the memories of you
us
go through my head
every kiss, every hug, every laugh, every cry
stuck in my head

I try to forget you
I try to remember you have moved on
found another girl to fall in love with
your deep brown eyes
and freckles that make a map of your soul

I try to tell myself that we have both moved on
some days are harder than others
the only thing I truly know is
even if I had a second chance at your love
I wouldn't take the risk of falling again