He hit me again today,
he tells me
he's sorry-
it will never happen again.
I laugh
because I know
it's less painful
than crying.
Who am I kidding?
I deserved it.
No.
That is wrong.
But if it was wrong
why did it feel so easy?
If it was wrong
why
am I still here
when I know
full well
it will happen again...
I know
when it does
he will lie to me once more
and swear to me
it will never
happen again.
The radio blares
is this love
that I'm feeling?
They will never
understand
that he only hits me
because
he loves me.