There's no happiness in your fate
And time doesn't suppress pain
Your dreadful smile wouldn't understand that though
You're losing everything slowly but surely
Simply why somethings just don't ever change
Sometimes we hurt people that love us, and love people that hurt us
But some grow darker from ones they love
So they begin initiating love from their entire world
And begin dissolving their own trust
I always put you first
But have learned to not chase what won't let me catch it
Even though it felt right, it wasn't good at all
I'm not pessimistic, but I usually shy away from good times
Because they all come with darkness in the end

In every forever there's an over
Being in love it can go from just that as well
Because nothing lasts forever
Time has repelled your love down into the core of the earth
Lower than death you watched it go
At least you don't get trapped in the cycle
Trying to find someone and share interests
Show related attractions
And open up to each other but retreat once you begin to feel reminded
Reminded of your past, which got you in this predicament
Now you're looking for love once again
And you always look back to see that it was all real
Those scars still remain
And the pain grows deeper as you go on

When you feel love coming on, you cut everyone off
So what do you do when you end up lonely in the end?
It seems like changing for the better always comes too late
And real happiness only exists when you're unaware to it all
Permanent decisions seem to be based on temporary feelings
I get confused with if it's meant to be, it'll be
And if you want it, go get it
Missed opportunities don't stand a chance against real love
But fear is sometimes mistaken for being guilty
So I don't understand why it is harder to accept a lie than to tell the truth
It's always like you get the right feeling for the wrong people
And real love ends over temporary problems
Old memories often bring new feelings
And old relationships opens up eyes to new standards and wants
Just knowing we would never be together again definitely brings darkness and some pain
Although you can’t be ashamed of what you caused
It all severs my heart, now I’m waiting until I recover
Maybe this all is just a lesson to learn
To treat the ones who love me accordingly
So that I would honestly realize that this is all reality, and not just a bad dream

I’ve once heard that the worst thing to do is to become the person who hurt you
You equip an isolated demeanor to your lifestyle and it takes its toll on the people you love
Your aggression becomes normal to you and you stay in defense against everyone
Your bridges of trust begin to fall and a barricade builds itself around your heart
No one dares to attempt entry into this lost world of hatred
A look into your eyes, all you see is pain, misery and sought for revenge
But a deeper more visual look into your mind, you see cries of hurt and wonder
Wonder of why
Why did you hurt me like this
You've changed me into someone I’d never wish to be
You've turned me into the reason I am this way
You've turned me into you

This here feels different
Time has withdrawn my feelings deeper within than ever before
A swim through my lust could show you who I once was
And your fractional connection always brings suspense about
Though it's overwhelming once ours is replenished
This here isn't physical
But maybe us with silence could revoke something of a new horizon
Just a peak into your nature
Exploring your soul through its sleekest valley
And taking a few breaths inside of your vaporous fumes
Fondness couldn't hide from itself
But if you hold your breath long enough, you'll find the new me
Oh so tenuous, too dangerous to ever speak of
My love used to be the feeling of inhaling glass
With a little ammonia to clean up any residue
That was until I began to love myself more than I should have
So now I hold my breath
To visualize love at a different level with more emotions
Ones that coincide to being happy with another person
But my vision can't seem to apprehend
So I'll allow my imagination to prosper on anyway
Back into you sleekest valley, the glass and ammonia returns
This here feels different
There is no feeling of pain anymore
And you are still holding your breath
Something new inside is emerging but can't remember it's feeling
Now my body will prosper this new feeling along
New love is born and the physicality awakens a new horizon inside you

Thursday at lunch was the last time I seen her
Questioning my absent-mindedness from the world
Heart beat slowing with each breath I take
My response was a simple request for lonesome
As company angered me to a boiling point
Relocation was followed by echoes of my name, fading with each step
Then momentarily disturbed as I am approached for questioning once again
What's wrong? Why are you being like this? Talk to me!
But silence was all that could've been provided
My intentions would only hurt me
Though you wouldn't seem to care
What's your purpose?
Your questioning doesn't seem to serve a reason
You only care when things reflect negatively on you
And this looked as your fault
Had people wondering where my mind had gone
You ripped my heart from my chest, with no hesitation
Leaving me as your slave
And destroying me with bare hands
So I don't see why you care
What do I mean to you?
You made me feel like less than a human being
I didn't want to be here anymore
I felt like there was nothing else here for me
Smiling dissolved from my everyday life
Appalling tendencies all pointed to me
Even with hope in grasp, effort was something I didn't feel the need to give
I wanted this to end
Emotions covered me as if they were my own skin
Agony, I'd call it
The dynamics of pain could be expressed to in a lifetime
But was dealt to me in less than 4 years of my young life
Perpetual emotions wouldn't leave me to myself
As memories haunted me throughout my depressed days
As my nights grew longer and colder
Loneliness became my only option