Alone
That's how I feel very often
Sitting here on my own 
Til the day I'm in my coffin 
Double crossers run they mouth more than water in a faucet
And these ratchet *** hoes only want what's in my pocket 
Foreal 
All these fake *** ****** claiming they yo friend
But in the end everybody know its just pretend 
Unlike the demons that I see in every empty room
And the reasons why the world is stressed from work and shrooms
Every season 50 people on Milwaukee news
Dying cuz they tryna find a way to get around the rules
And it's funny
Well it's really kinda stunning
Cuz they tryna make that money
To see they kids make it out of school
Now ig they'll never see that day. 
Why ?
Cuz they died tryna get paid. 
Wow. 
They lived for the same thing they died for. 
Blood drips and now they the one that millions cry for. 
But last week he was knocking on every single door
Asking for donations for his child and nothing more
But they snickered and lied on they doorstand 
And now they sniffle and cry for this poor man
The three types of people that I mentioned before
Are the same people behind all those knocked doors 
The double crossers were friends that wanted new friends
The ratchet *** was his unsupportive girlfriend
The fake guy
Was every person that cried
When they found out that he died 
But mocked him while he was alive
I don't want those kind of people around me
That's why I claim my loneliness so proudly 
That's why I'm lonely in this world with no poise
Yes I'm alone. But loneliness is my choice.

Tommorrow's just a day away
That's what we tell ourselves to push through another 24 
But does tomorrow ever come ?
I mean today becomes yesterday
And in a way we gain a new today 
But tomorrow constantly becomes a prize that noone has ever won
It's only today's screening
I wanna see the day
When tommorow's so easy to obtain
That these temporary forevers, that we call "todays", somehow explain meaning
Meaning meaning the reason that we're here
I mean I know your scared
Aye I'm scared too
But we can't stay parked in this place when it's time to shift into gear
Cuz a temporary forever is just that
And when it starts to fade, everything just seems black 
Until you see that light
That's all white for some reason
And you've left yourself behind 
And you know there's no turning back
Your forever has ended 
How you end it is your business
I just pray that you didn't blend in
Because then your forever turns into one like another million 
But a million forevers becomes infinity
So your forever like the rest
And this forever is permanent 
Because a stopping infinity doesn't exist
So now your forever was wasted because tomorrow was never reached for
And its sad because you still think 
That the only thing between you was that last 24

***** ****** with gold triggers
Gold chains and no figures
Broke as a joke what the hell am I gone do with ya ?
Idk. These new ******
Not black people them ew ******
Have priorities so messed up they put rent behind new shoes *****
Ch ch boom, that mac go
Bodies on the floor getting stacked tho
Rappers getting snacked on
Came in the game through the back door 
But now I'm at the gate guarding it
Y'all really just here to be gardening
I'll finish it cuz I started it
I'm new but I'm a huge part in this
So pardon the interruption like ESPN on late nights
I used to travel on ground but now all I do is make flights 
And please don't get me wrong cuz I swear that I lived a good life
Real good right ?
Then how I get so violent like its hood life ?
I'll never know I'll never know
Them big parties I gotta go
Yo girl ******* they gotta show
Yo girl with me she gotta blow
Don't pass the blunt cuz I never smoke
Just pass the bottle I'll drain it slow
You make it rain, I make it snow
Wait no I don't
Cuz my cash flow
Is for me myself and I and I just had to talk with me see
Cuz myself kinda crazy like the lohans' father's seeds be
So me be running up to I like the letter after g be
Cuz Me see the evil man that myself will be in three weeks
But plant a bomb and blow myself up like my career by the month of June 
You swear you on my level, I'm singing you using auto tune
I snapped up on this rap, is there anything else I need to do
This is open vent 6 and I promise you that I'm still not through
I know I'm bouta ball like I'm kobe, d wade, or uncle drew 
It's me, it's drake, it's Kendrick, all these rappers but really who are you ?
I know I'll be the best just give me time and some orange juice 
And swear to you I'll be the first trillionaire to hit the booth
I'm super cool I'm laid back
I never leave where I was raised at
That 414 that mil town
The best city never made whack 
This open vent is through with
That new kid with the swag with em
What the hell is they gone do with em
He changing music a new system 
His stupid bars and imagination
He's rapping hard, no hesitation
Next vent I'll sing amazing
Then see how much I'm really making
Cuz right I don't know
But on the real I gotta go
Next vent'll go down for ******>So stay tuned for the next show

Never lived in the hood, I been good
Grew up in Glendale cuz pops did everything he could 
To keep this big roof that covers everywhere I stood
And keep bills paid so the house work like it should
But, that don't mean that I ain't live with no problems
I grew up liking girls and all I tried to do was holla
From 05 to 09 I used to always pop my collar
And walked up to see what a chic would do for a dollar
But come 2010 I learned a dollar doesn't get far
Start asking pops for money, he said what you need these bills for
I said just to have cash so I can buy stuff myself 
He said how is it yo self when it's coming from my wealth 
And in the end he was right so I ain't ask for no more help
Got a job, got paid, getting green, sea kelp
And well, I guess it all turned out great
From 210 to 2 now I been working for the cake
More hours, more pay
Is what I always say
Just to go and motivate
So I can get through everyday
Man I do this for thrill, I don't really need this money
And stop mugging me down, I ain't tryna take yo hunny
But please don't get mad if she like me cuz I'm stunning
And you dressing kinda bummy
Man yo breds ain't even gummy
My high tops get their own box
And my boxes reach high tops
My collection's a high top
You can't even make gumby
You funny
You mad at me for what ? Yup, nothing 
But haters gone hate so ill let you do what you does see
Cuz time don't ever stop, matter fact it's running from me
And I'm tryna catch up cuz less time means less money
So you go do you, and I'm gone do me til I'm done g
Cuz I ain't wasting sand in my glass if you don't love me
And don't be fake now, I don't want you tryna hug me
Cuz you know germs is germs and haters be on that *****
Yeah im nerdy, I'm smart
I'm a walking piece of art 
And I write these rhymes for fun
But it all comes from the heart 
I keep hundreds, yes hundreds of poems inside the dark
And more hundreds, maybe thousands get lost before they start
You know how you at the store putting stuff in yo food cart
Then get home and wonder what you bought all of this food for ?
Yeah these poems fill hunger that resides deep inside me
They are not just fun, they have now become a pride for me
And maybe it'll be more, maybe this pride can make it shine for me
Maybe all these girls around the world will build shrines of me
But now I gotta go, cuz you know how time can leak
Plus I don't want y'all think that y'all know what defines B. 
But I can't stop there, it's unfair to the public
And I know that y'all like it but I dare y'all to love it
Cuz if you love it then I'll keep going
Till it start snowing
And you knowing
Even though it's snowing
It ain't never boring 
Cuz these bars wasn't meant for snoring 
Meant for adoring fans
That'll still love me when I'm old and I'm done touring
I could do this for the rest of my life
I just love it, it takes pain away and dries every eye 
With out poems, I don't know man I just might die
This is real, when I write I just cannot lie
So, you can catch me in my notepad writing 
I'm tryna make this gold, y'all tryna start fighting
And to me that's motivation, I ain't saying that I'm liking it
I'm just saying if it's there I might as well get insight from it
And it's crazy, I just noticed that I can't lose
When it's bad I'm still good, when it's good I cruise
I'm sorry that it all happens at the expenses of you
But you can't stop my grind, imma do what I do
100
I'm tryna make it from the mil to the summit
I heard it's all lonely but the top is my abundance
So I'll bring who I want I don't care what the rules say
Chillin above the competition straight playing 2k
That dream will never fade in
That's why I always stay in
Cuz I wanna see the day where I can say that I made it
And they love me
I see the finish line so I'm running
Got a talent and a dream and you can't take that from me
No obstacles can stun me
I don't care about who judge me
I got my mind set so just tell the top I'm coming
Cause I am

The devil wears prada 
Yet his daughter drives Bugatti 
Cruising down the fast lane
Seducing everybody 
Reducing human bodies
Recruiting for illuminati
Promising *** and fame and giving all the souls to papi
And I ain't too proud to say that this demon almost got me
Her good looks and mystery were just enough to rock me wild
Everything about her had me profound
Long hair, perfect smile 
Wayne and jays, perfect style
Boats and planes, she gets around
In every way you thinking bout
Her ***** lips are open doors
Everybody's in and out
She got a phone full of young men
And they all want her
Meanwhile she in her whip telling them to swerve
Up until they feel desperate enough to give that girl the world
And she takes it
And ruins it
And makes their life congruent with
The hell that they will soon know when Seducila is through with them
But when they find out its too late 
Through the legs of Seducila they meet the Devil's gates to stay

They say love's a big word, but I think I know better
Cuz it's only 4 letters
I don't see what the buzz be bout
Love is drug and this drug have you tripping out
Straight hallucinating, seeing things that ain't been around
They claim love is blind, well that's partially true
Because you're blind to the crap that they do towards you
Like cheating, deceiving, misleading for no reason
And they still have you believing 
That you don't wanna be leaving
But retreating is your best option
Or at least a start
Cuz if you stay then they'll find a way to shatter your heart
Cuz your guard's down and your head's all the way in the stars
But they're still on earth, looking for the one with better cars
Jewelry, clothing, anything worth cash
This love thing is crazy, if you still call it that 
Cuz I ain't seen real love but I heard of it tho
And the story on hand began a long time ago
You know girl meets boy
Boy likes girl
Boy wants to give that one girl the whole world 
And the girl loves boy cuz the boy had hell to pay
Gave up his time and money just so he can make her day
And because of boy's actions the girl is so happy to say
"I love you boy", and the boy replies right away
"I love you too
Yes my love is true
Will you agree to be my wife"
And girl says "I do"
And they live their lives
Then their hair turns gray
Then she dies his wife
And he dies unswayed
By any other woman that crossed his way
It's sad to say that this love is nonexistent today 
Because boy meets girl
And girl is a bop
And the girl wants his heart
But the boy wants the top
So she gives it to him praying that she can see the day
That they're married with kids in the house across the way
But boy ain't thinking that far
He only want the pink
And then he get that late text later on in the week
She said "bae I ain't bleeding down there"
He said "what you mean?"
She said "I think I'm pregnant"
He said "I gotta leave"
And girl starts to cry cuz she thought their love was everlasting 
Now she's a single mom and all her dreams are in a casket
And boy chilling looking for his next target
This isn't love, it's a drug in an unstable market.

I'm too through
**** it
**** all of the *******
That piles on my back and y'all just seem to be so cool with
The world taking shots 
Just because I'm not
An aggressive *** ***** id still grab the chrome and pop 
***** I'm all about them bodies *****. I **** with no limits
And yeah I'm from the burbs but know y'all can still get it
I don't care bout how you living ***** you deserve to die
So it's time I get that Mac and get to ending lives
Cuz this *******
I swear tho 
But I don't even care yo
I'm on that **** the world. It's twisted underneath this hair bro
Plus I don't have a heart, I guess im friends with that scarecrow
From oz, no wiz needed cuz he can't bring back the dead so
I roam a ******* zombie
Who gone stop me who gone stop me ?
And I ain't ducking ****
Who gone pop me who gone pop me ?
I ain't got **** to do but rap and do hobbies
So I'll take over the world by next year probably. 
*****.

Alone
Out of my zone in my own home
I gave my lover my heart
They dropped it and now it's broke
Man
Who woulda guessed
The one who took away stress
Would return it after a while for style
Caused my tears and my smiles
Then ran away
Why ?
Don't wanna feel the pain I got
Thought they would stay
Wow
Supposed to heal this pain I got
Now I just stare
Out the window panes a lot
And tho it's sunny
I realize that it rains lot
I'm feelin gray
Depression is here to stay
Cuz you wanted to play games
That happened in my brain
Mind games
Mind tricks
My heart is not your gift any more
Give it back before it can't be fixed anymore
Irresponsible lover that's who you are
Oh you disagree ? Do you not see these scars
Not on my arms dummy look at my heart
Right above your name, I used to see that **** as art
Now to me it's just a tattoo i regret so much
What happened to us baby ? We were oh so clutch
And my heart was in your clutches
Then squeezed, then crushed it
And yes I feel the pain but in the end ill learn to love it
Get lost
Get gone
I have healing to do
And my feelings for you
Have been sealed by the truth
Of the fact that my heart is not your toy
So gone in the world so you can break some more 
Cuz I'm through

I swear I need the pulpit
Cuz life is kinda through with
And the ones that I'm not cool with
Is the ****** I went to school with
Yet I'm clueless
How is it that the ****** I grew up with
Is the ****** that stay tryna be up on that **** **** ?
But trust this
**** ****** can't never fit inside my crew
Cuz squares don't fit in circles, I learned that around the age of 2
And also that you never play around the ones who playing you
So play at school is something that I never found the time to do
A conscious dude, I am one
Life on earth, it ain't fun 
I often contemplate of ending it with grandad's hand gun
But god's son, I am him
And suicide just hands in
My soul to the devils home so I just roam until my life ends
But til then, I'm chilling, stacking millions to the perfect height. 
With all these shots of liquor, I black out to all these perfect nights. 
I can't remember nothing but this Bombay got me feeling right
And thanks to this ciroc I feel great up on some higher life
My sorrows of tomorrow disappear through this bottle 
But once I wake up from passing out its full throttle
Cuz life ain't slowing down cuz I got a couple problems 
But problems cant stop the kid, nah they never stop em
Plus stopping ain't a option when you living life with no regrets 
No fears of dying cuz I'm patiently awaiting death
So these risks I take our nothing, their just needed for this epic quest
That I'm taking right now to show the world that I'm the very best.

I try and try again 
But **** still stay the same tho
I'm closing off my brain doors
No thoughts about insane hoes
No more
**** the hugs and the *** you give
To me you're so irrelevant 
You think it's so cute to be negligent 
Well yo cute *** can hit the door and and never turn back
A guy like me ? You earn that 
Yo attitude be too whack
You lack what it takes
And I just don't have the time 
This is a message to yo *******
It just so happens to rhyme.

I love life, I love life, I love her
She stays omnipresent even when the love hurts
And sure I could end her but that would hurt me most
Cause I'll end her for me and myself alone
So even if I wanted I couldn't cause her pain 
Even though she ***** me over to the point I feel insane
Turns out she's bipolar and she's always bound to change
And I never understood, that's why it always had me saying
I hate life, I hate life, I hate you
I hate the world where we reside, and the things it tends to do
Seems like life and planet earth was a duo we all knew
And they worked to assure that joy and smiles were all through
By 13
All I knew was hurting
But I kept a smile worn so the people kept from learning
Of my depression, but the demons kept on lurking
But the days stayed the same, it seemed liked I was surfing
On a sea of my emotions
**** the sea, I made an ocean
Of tears and everything beneath my surface moistured by lotion
And potions didn't work
You know those things I was too young for
Like alcohol and pills that I stole from out the drug drawer
So i just roamed the city where the drugs dealt and guns drawn
Milwaukee was hella crazy but I said **** it, I was so torn
Plus i got friends that got me incase some **** blew
But when them shots started racing, hell my friends did too
And I was in a situation that really seemed hella new
Cuz I was from the burbs and violence is what I always knew
But I never saw it alone, I was always chillin with the crew
So ****, I was running for the life I thought I hated
And I was crying, cuz I thought that we wasn't gone make it
But I looked back, and stopped cuz to my amazement 
We wasn't the targets, and I sat on the block steady saying
I love life, I love life, I love her
Cuz she teach me all the things that need to be learned 
When your city is the farthest thing from balanced
Plus she has much in store when you have dreams and a talent

2 million thoughts on my mind at one time
I try to think of 1 and another seems to find
A way
Into my brain
And it changed 
Me from sane
To insane
On this really dark grey
Kind of day
I sit back and pray on it 
But he never answers
I've come to think that god has set himself some higher standards
And I'm depressed
Cuz my distress call won't get replies
And I can't help but think that everything I learned was lies
And at the same time 
I'm thinking how time could fly
If I was one of those non thinking stupid guys
Because no matter what they do in their entire life
A thought never goes by about being sly
For them it's do or die
Or do and die
A million things can happen while your shooting for the sky
Man you never know
What if while lift off, your rocket engines just go ahead and ******* blow ?
Up, there go again !
Thinking bout some random ****
After a while, man you know I'll start demanding ****
And the crowd'll make it seem like I'm the man and ****
Then I'll have to act like I ******* planned this ****
Knowing well I'm just over thinking 
With my note pad, I capture it and start believing
That this curse is a blessing and Im finally seeing
The Over-thinker's just a poet, and the poet's me

A change of the hair is a change of the mind
Every single style brings you closer to find
The you that you like most or like most of the time 
Plus it's fun to switch it up and imagination shines
But I hate that were judged on the style that we choose
And what's created is a hate over what they think is you
But they really don't know man I swear they'll never know
What goes on under the fro they think they know but they don't know the truth
They see you happy and they label you bad and uncouth
All because of the styling that you put on your roof 
They say that he's a murderer, a hoodlum, he takes women's fruit
And I reply "do you have proof?"
John Wilkins booth had great hair
He still killed our leader
But you judge me with a blank stare
I swear this life is unfair
Society is so jacked 
Accusations so whack
I wonder if as people have we gotten our freedom back
Cuz it's looking real dark for that bit of grace
Please don't make me start on what I think about this place
But I digress, just know that I'm aware
Of the problems and abuse that happens over hair

The ignorance and arrogance that goes around daily
Tends to get under my skin more than a pregnant lady's baby
And maybe it's just me but I can't stand it
How can we as a people be this stupid with all the knowledge that we're handed ?
I may digress but maybe not
Tryna impress is a ***** plot
Tryna please the one you're not equal to even in the eyes of god
Putting on facades and making lies
Going low to see the highs
That you will never reach because the leader in you died
So if your leader jumped off the bridge, I'm pretty sure you would too
Just so you can gain the social status of really being cool
But you won't reach that status
The cool kids at home laughing
At yo ******* racing real fast to the wrong goal with a passion
Be you and never change
Stay yourself and in exchange
You will one day earn your status with out heartache, lies, or strain.
So lower your masks down
Stomp your lies on the ground
And open your eyes wide, the time to awake is now !

Over protective like this
My mind is reckless and quick
Just racing, never slow pacing, I'm facing anxious illness
Or whatever the term is
Anxiety's my *****
And she's running my dome home, she's taking over and ****
If I could stop it I would, but she's been taking over long
I know that I should, but she's forever to strong
Stronger with every attempt
To get her presence exempt
And the more I try to rid
Of her, the more she exists 
So yeah I'll stop trying cuz i know she's here to stay
Maybe the brain she has now will return to me some day
But til then, this anxious illness remains to be in my way
Of ever having a life where care-free is in play.

I used to love it when it rained
Inspiration sang to me
Cloudy days were brain movies
Now I hate to see the days when
Nothing's going right 
And everybody on spite
And I turn to ***** sprite
Because its been a tough night
And I would go and smoke
But I never been the one to spark lights
The fight within me has me slain 
These whack decisions have me shamed
Truth be told I feel insane
I swear I stay outside the box 
But my emotions have me framed 
The games the same 
My people changed 
The ones I trusted most are now the ones that I push away
But, I really wanted you to stay 
I wish you'd come back just to say
That "I'm sorry man I've been so stupid"
And id accept you cuz I'm going through it
Say your opinions have changed
And our friendship is saved
Cuz I can't live another day
In these heartbreak chains 
That I wear here today 
Cuz these poems I make
No longer heal the pain now
And I don't think they ever did
It was just a way out
A way to go and vent
And a way to bring my doubts, and regrets
And upsets
And my frets
And the pains within my chest
On to paper to suppress 
All the reasons I'm depressed
And I would hide them in those sheets of paper 
Until I wrote what happened next
But I'm running out of notepads
And depressions turned to stress
My broken heart is now a crest
That I wear not so proudly 
It's like a scarlet letter
That won't move without me
Removal is impossible
The more that I embrace it
The more my tears turn to rocket fuel

Seeking peace while in pieces
More than them pizzas
From pizzeria down the street
Cut in squares, some you can't see cuz
There all in my heart
But my heart's in a black hole
And I'm tryna bring it out
But it's taken one too many blows
From the stuff that happens daily
Life's downscaling 
And just maybe 
The fact that I get paid gs
Don't really phase me
Well that's a lie 
But still I can't deny
The stressing and great depressions going on in my life in this life time 
Is a pure sign that I'm still not happy
And money don't change that
So I write out my problems 
Who knew that I would change rap
Hell I don't know it I just think I do
I'm still 16 in the mil working hard in school
But give me sometime and garuntee that I'll be living proof
Of a dedicated artist with a talent and a dream that's couth
And everytime I hit the booth
The lyrics that go past my tooth
Comes from my insane membrane I have inside my roof
But don't get confused, no ceilings will be set upon me
I have water from the clouds all over my feet
Can't you see
That I'm an upcoming mc
Tryna take the top spot cuz that's the spot meant for me 
Lyrically I'm the best
I can feel it in my chest
Remember these three letters, L.E.X
That spells Lex
And whoever gets upset
I'm sorry that you're not impressed
I guess you tried to sleep on me but I flipped you out your bed
And what's next ?
I don't know
It's all in the lords hands
But until we get there, I'm not taking any chance 
Anybody that wanna rap can do it
But I'm tryna help the game, do my best to improve it 
So let's do it

If the world was all blue, would it still be racist ?
Would they separate the light from the dark blue faces
Would traces of true hate emerge from what is basic
Or would we live free in a world that doesn't hate ****
A Russian and a Haitian, standing side by side
They look exactly the same, but would they still collide ?
I don't know 
The world today is so broken
That if I try to imagine better, the gate of thought won't open
It's crazy
We're brainwashed to think that we can't do well
We go through hell cuz we're unable to take help
We sell out or out sell who helped us excel
And when we fail we go to god explaining ourselves 
But how do you explain a mindset that isn't you?
How do you live a life that just isn't true ?
Millions of people have died because of drug abuse
Tryna escape the world that was given to them
Little did they know, they'd tell the world toodles
Because they overdosed until their brain turned neutral 
But the man gave it to him just to slay a true dude
Now his fam by the caskets seeing what'll suit him

I love my bestfriend, yeah I love my bestfriend
I love her more than she'll ever know, from now until the very end
But what if she was to know ?
What if she knew my true emotions 
That swayed me back forth just like the waves of the ocean ?
Would she freak out ?
Pass out ?
Sneak to get a laugh out ?
Would I get her whole heart or would I only get a half out ?
Or would she miss me like the last shot ?
Cut me cuz my heart stops
When ever she comes near me cuz I'm nervous just to ask out
The only girl I ever loved
This sentiment has got me bugged
The more I try to stop the more my heart beats for her drum
But I know that this can't be cause
To me she's so perfect but
To her I'm just bestfriend with a big heart and some groupie love.

Emotionless as ****.
Every motion out of love
Has been terminated. Drowned by all these shots I’m pouring up.
I’m so vibrant in my zone,
But in reality I’m stuck.
And I’m getting throwed alone;
In my totality I ****.
But I can’t stand to live straight,
So this bottle is my crutch.
So I just keep tossing shots until I feel I’ve had enough.
But enough never comes so the turn up is so infinite
That even when I black out the liquor moves to my ligaments.
And even when I’m numb, my body is still feeling it.
And even when I’m done, my will just gets to giving in,
And drains another bottle.
And through this hollow bottle
I see the me I once was and the me that’s now a problem.
And there’s no solution to this problem and this problem is now solemn.
I thought I could control him but now I just don’t got him.
And I asked the Lord for answers but no matter how I holler
His response never made shore.
And this relationship I paid for
With faith and good religion is now distant from my brain core.
So now my faith’s endangered,
And the one I called my savior
Hasn’t saved me in a while, so me and God become strangers.

This is life in the jungle
Where bullets are the muscle
And the one behind the gun is a coward undercover
That cowers under covers
Everytime he sees another
Coward with a glock 40 looking for reasons to tussle 
But rumbles never take place
You just see bullets fly
And it's encouraged until yo best friend is the one who dies
Then you the one thats crying and sighing wondering why
They had to take your guys soul and put in the sky 
But trust you're not the only one
I also lost a friend
From people wilding with violence tryna get caged in
I miss that friend to this very minute 
That's why I pray for hoods when that's not what I lived in
No I didn't 

I really didn't know how I would make it
Losing all the ones I loved most
But I had to keep my head up high
That's when I saw my visions in the sky
Of a better day
Doing things the better way 
Living in a better day