Help me understand

Why relationships are always birthed with complications ?

Why does blazing love blacken my dedication ?

How did love ignite me before my resignation ?

Our relationship was once a figment of my imagination

I grew accustomed to silent nights and isolation

I confessed to my lies and you gained new information

What's haunting me is that we've been here before ?

But I recall before , It was me who wanted more

My lies strangled your trust now our faith's on floor

Love's slipping through our fingers because we never moved forward

My trust is ****** up and your resentment stepped forward

The both of us are guarded but my walls seem lower

I say love you slower but my words are much colder

You say I love you too , but you wonder if I'm sure

You tell me all your secrets but I wonder if there's more

I love you for you but the world made you crazy

I can't stand to realize how the world hurt you baby

The world burned your soul and your spirit seems hazy

My minds out of whack and I've questioned God lately

I've been thinking like a man but reacting like a lady

what burned the most was when you said "I was hoping you can save me"

**** I wish you didn't hate me  

I do a good job of saying everything is gravy

I do a lot of thinking and my thoughts are driving me crazy

I've been thinking someone's there to replace me

To occupy your mind while I cause trouble on a daily

Weeks pass by

now it's over and you hate me

.....

To be continued

-Donkorfuad

My angel faces a tough decision everyday of her life

To be or not to be

For she chooses to be for the love of me

Although I do not help her choice to be

Just for me

My lies red's her eyes , causing me to be tongue tied

My words fight more fight and inflict more harm than any other fight in her life

For I have evolved from a perfect solution , to a painful problem  

For I have lied bringing mist into light of my life

My light will forever shine in your life

I am sorry light of my life

I've cut off your golden angel wings and left your love on a bike

I am sorry light of my life , for you are my heart though I've lost sight

I enjoy your laughter that numbs the outside world and builds passionate molecules within matter

Your all my world and "all that matters"

Without you ? "Nothing even matters"

My good luck charm , my four leaf clover

I'll do all it takes to win your trust all over

Though my fight is tarnished ?

The war is far from over

Thank you for choosing me and to be just for me

I love you

I'm a stranger in my homeland

life's a ***** but we never get to hold hands ?

My Aggravations only growing in this slow trance

And I'm infatuated with the devils slow dance

We built a chemistry on vanity and romance

My mind asks "Is he ready for the worlds plan?"

The Road to riches lacks funds for a road map

How do I climb pyramids of class from a mouse trap ?  

Who's gonna pull me out the quicksand when my souls trapped?

Where's the home I can dust my shoes off at the door mat ?

The world hands you **** if you ain't presented in some suit slacks

my shoulders carry chips for the monkeys on my back

To be continued .....

I've laid eyes upon a beautiful woman on my mind where my secrets lie.
I feel the rhythm to her dance the tighter I close my eyes
Beautiful black I love
Love can lead us blind ?
Though your black and beautiful
In the darkness ?
Your red shines
It's in the touch of your hips
The kiss on your lips,
The pride in your scars,
Here in my arms
Lies a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's you.

I begin to dream in a deep sleep
Where there's no violence
all love, all peace
And I see, a piece of me
From your face
To heels of your feet
Stepping closer while I speak
As I dream I begin to see
A beautiful body
Head to toe
I see
The wind in your hair
The flash of your teeth,
The warmth of your soul,
Loves within reach I see
A woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's you.

To Be Continued

Scared , bruised and battered from the people that matter

Holding onto your faith visualizing Gods strategical patterns

& afterwards, small events make us roll backwards

Danger in anger makes the minor things we have not even matter

Actions lead to a reaction , consequences & sentencing

Imagine a better life living the life of actresses in movie scenes

Allow your mind to ponder while you relax your feet in water

Let every moment simmer while skies grow dimmer , tempuratures rising while you begin to shiver

Ask yourself why am I  constantly in his picture

Never doubt the power behind your mind , your word, your scripture , your soul

Actually realize when you two fight?  guilt swallows him whole

Yearning for motherly love , love became his drug

Making him ill inside , all he needs is a hug

Care free living isn't wise , no emotion in eyes , when he cries
highly capable ,more than beautiful , soul better than soul food , he says those words are you

Tip toeing in the direction of you , but before he makes his mark he thanks our father for you

Thank You for the beauty within her soul he says , & Thank You for eye sight & the roof over my head

I thank you father but i ask you for one more thing ?
Don't let me lose the woman that sings the rhythm I bring

Ready to end his prayer he kisses the bible & says amen

Everything written now glistens, since spoken into existense ,allow your mind to listen & find the piece of the puzzle missing