She sat where I told her
And for that I was grateful
Granted it was her decision

I thought for a moment :
And then I began again
It seemed unbelievable

For a moment I could only hope
She would stay for good this time
All the cliques rebounding within a mind

I wonder if she'd ever rode the 40x
to Independence. An uncrowded excursion
in every way

I adrift in her every everlasting motion
A sway from to and fro...
Bus rides a seemingly unconscious time
Momentum the only thing on my side

Safe in that knowledge
I risk not a sound
Once again alone
In a wanderlust

All I feel right now
Is pain a physical
A slouching like an ER
An error

My mind decided
I cry for help
Listen to me !
I am hurt

Not like Reznor or Cash
Not like losing you
More like a toothache
Or an apendectomy

I find no comfort
I find no relief
Hopefully this young intern
Will write me a scrip

Of sweet oxycontin or
Vicodin
For I am tired of feeling pain
I am tired of being sick

Am I not supposed to see that !
I gaze upward upon your sightlines
Arranged just as God anticipated

An unruly exception to attraction
Bellowing in the halls of this dead letter office~ I arrange a place for my note to sit

Collecting data in the milliseconds of passing. Lying cleverly I sneak unabashed
from your grace. You ***** little *****

I see your eyes aboveground and star lit
I need a drink (gin) above a finger in you
I remind myself we are not alone MUse

A nightingale with a spell checker and Doc Marten 3 holes. Black
I hope its Chanel no 19 when I lay you down
And not another puddle **** with no hometown

Tu as ravagé mon coeur
Et moi j'ai bu ton sang

Purpose being what it is
A hallowed wall of mindfulness
The last cigarette smoked
A partition in a ****** mind

Grasping for breath your blood runs blue
I turned the key; Locked your door
I ran away

Are you safe Miss Grandeko
Because I'm still running today
From all the voices alive in here
My purpose supposed in willingness

I cannot compete competently
with your glass ****
You see loves bitter toil has no mercy
and yet I still breath

My brethren, your prayers and this head trauma focus my hopelessness
So I ride once again with lawlessness
With only Yeshwa at my side

I compete fondly with purpose of this I know only too well... E x i s t e n c e

Danger it flows
Around you and me
Unlike anothers ability

Surrounding, collapsing upon thee
An impatience host
It rides me like a parasite

I am ok with this but that's just me
You on the other hand
Well. Just a happenstance

I hold my hand up against the sun
My hand on your knee
Wrapped inside yours

I can pressure you no more
You & Me
Peas in a pod ; All that matters

You know not c o i n c i d e n c e
Something other than
Beautiful and pure

Thank you, I truly thank just you!

Walking round seems right
Wrong or wrongly rejected
You matter no more

Just a little sniff of hope (hopelessness)
Engulfs my senses
Invading the obvious

I too see the proper route
In case you should offer directions
Remembering your manners- Posted w/ tacks

All about (around) me
You flutter your delectable treat
I ponder this... For a moment

You see