there was nothing

substantial in you

you were quite there

but never quite, too

like shadows at day

when someone passes by

you solidify

you were there

and you weren’t

at the same time.

there were times

when i thought

i could hold you

when i thought

i already had you

but thoughts

aren’t always real

and what is real

aren’t really

thought of.

you asked for a lifesaver
but nobody came
now you’re drowning in a river
of someone else’s pain