You release your screams when I break your bones
playing rat and mouse game with my clones
I silent all the voices by smashing your head until I see your skull
slowly, I'm making you a *******
I am carved with all these names
some that had left you for the fame
while others are the ones who died trying to get you out of the burning flames
some nights you’ll wake up charging me with a knife
by dawn demons would make you forget secretly taking your life
for every battle you lose, I’ll relieve you until your limbs snap
your addicted to the sounds I make to your body like “crack!”
I help you when your heart gets emotionally soft
more and more blood you have to wipe off
you started building me friends, asking which metal would hurt more?
less and less you became the child nobody longer adores

fraud Santa, no elves
I got use to it since I was twelve
families chanting bells
praying for each other to burn in hell
fake laughter as feasts are getting served
some are firm while others are shaking up in they’re nerves
kids making snow devils
disguised as snow angels
friends singing songs
while I sit in my dark room where I belong
in this huge house I was the forgotten unwanted child
standing there as siblings open presents with big smiles
bright lights
bleeding nights
people decorating trees
shiny black tea

You’re suffering is what I thirst
I hope disease reaches you until you’re lungs burst
I want to experiment on your child
make you lose you’re laughter for a longwhile
I wish to pour acid on you’re face
so you can feel your heart stopping at its pace
I want to bury you alive
you’re failures is what I strive
hang you upside down while you bleed
videotape you as I hear your pleads
strangle you in your sleep
give you an excruciating death for your nasty greed
you’re downfall would be so delicious
I’ve lost sense of forgiveness

She jumped. I catched her.

she got angry. she screamed.
she got hungry. she ate.
she got tired. she slept.
she had problems. she talked about it.
her eyes got red. she cried.
she got lonely. she went out with friends.

She jumped. I couldn’t catch her.
she flew. I watched in horror.

she got angry. she smiled.
she got hungry. she was eating less.
she got tired. she didn’t sleep.
she had problems. she bottled it in.
her eyes got red. she laughed.
she got lonely. she locked herself in her room.

remember when you told me you love me? remember when you said we were always meant to be? remember when you said i was gonna be your only one? when you said you were in it for the long run? when you said you would never break my heart? when you told me nothing could ever tear us apart? remember when you held me when i cried? when you were always right there by my side? remember when you would stab yourself in order to just keep me alive? remember when you said no matter what happens you'll always take me as your bride? remember when our love was always full of laughter ? remember when for our love you were always a fighter? remember when you came rescue me in the burning flames? remember when you came to me everytime i shouted your name? remember when you would always pick me up cause i was so small? remember when we would always do anything just to get across even if we have to crawl? remember when you got to me even if it took your last breath? when you said our love is eternal until both meet one's death? remember when you brought me to the light when i got lost in the dark? remember everytime after you licked me you would always leave a mark? remember when you always bandaged me when i was bleeding? remember when you said the way i tease you was so pleasing? remember when you would touch me all over my body ? remember when you would always randomly tackle me? remember when you called me your only baby? remember when we were that couple that everyone envied? remember when you said you would never trade me for money? remember when everytime your body was against mines there was always a huge smile on my face? you probably didn't know, but, every single thing you did made my heart f*cking race. remember those times when our cuddling got intense ? remember those times when you massage me gently i never did self-defense? remember when you kissed me through the pain? remember when we got through the rain? when you held my hand? when you weren't afraid too let everyone know you were my man? when you told me i was the only one who matters? when you told me we will always take this path together? remember when we kissed? remember when we hugged? remember when you said i was your beloved? remember when you said we will always go on? no matter what went wrong? remember when we planned our future? remember when you told me you would always give me an amazing adventure? do you remember? that you said we would always be forever? when you told me the day we will be apart is never? I remember. I do cause sometimes when i look in the sky I still see you. it all disappeared in just a flash it's sad that all of it burnt down into ash from now on your just a memory that I’ll just bury...

empty shells
noisy bells
depression in my own personal hell
devils collecting my kisses, but I wouldn’t dare kiss and tell
my friends eating my flesh so I can become a pretty red rose
my shame breezing into my heart making sure it stays froze
like a bird with a broken wing
I am scared to fly thinking of the cuts it can bring

I have sharpened blades hidden in my jours but I haven’t used them yet
I bought stacks of acid but none are used yet
there’s a rope tied to the ceiling but I haven’t hung myself yet

secrets that won’t let me live simply
can’t tell anyone even the ones I love dearly
my prayers that only get lost in letters
my cries that turns bloodier
this poison only gets worse day by day
as I wake up each morning telling everyone I’m okay

a slave to my own bitterness
laying in my bed everyday just lifeless
hanging my head over the rope
to get rid of all the choked tears in my throat
no smiles no family no light no hope
pass point of saving when I broke
no forgiving no letting go
body is numb as I just watch evil grow
feel and your fingers will get cut off
no screaming no going soft
run and your legs will be broken
no diamonds no pearls no tokens
bleed and you’ll bleed more
so hard, so horrific, so bad, to the core
cry and your eyes will be gauged out and you’ll go blind
this place is not kind
I see other people here as to no surprise
no happy ending no fairytale very few live and many dies
adults, children, teens, even newborns
hell continues as they blow the horn
hammers, blades, fires, you name it.
weak ones have already called quits.


demons say sit. I sit.
demons say rollover. I rollover.
demons say cut. I cut.
demons say starve. I starve.
demons say feed. I feed.

I’m a dog to they're order
like a pub to his master