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183 · Nov 2019
I just do
Lily Nov 2019
That one person
I miss that one person
How can u miss someone you never met?
I don't know
But I just do
181 · Jan 2019
How Do You Manage?
Lily Jan 2019
Over the course up 2 days and 2 nights you managed to tear me down to nothing

But then I go home, to my real home where she manages to glue me back together piece by piece by piece

But then it comes to Friday

And I dread Friday

Because I have to see you I have to spend time with you

Sometimes I just want to scream at you but I know I'll just make everything worse

how do you manage to always tear me down to nothing?

And how does she manage putting me back together piece by piece by piece every single week?

You're selfish

You're inconsiderate

And you break everyone's heart

But then you ask us why we resent you

And all I want to do is make you feel the same pain you put us through but we know we can't because we're not like you.
This is 100% true. He has hurt a lot of us.
162 · Jun 2018
Them three
Lily Jun 2018
Them three over there
Them three laughing at other people’s expense
Them three tarring, hurting, destroying everyone in site
Them three breaking me peace by peace
Them three destroying them selves
148 · Jun 2018
Is she my savior?
Lily Jun 2018
Is she my savior or is she the last thing to push me over the edge

Is she my angel or the devil looking over my shoulder each and everyday

Is she my friend or my worst enemie looking for any opportunity to break me

I can't tell
146 · Aug 2018
I Thought
Lily Aug 2018
I thought you loved me but you just called me a insecure *****

I thought you cared but you left me in the middle of nowhere

I thought you liked me but you took you gun and shot me

I hate you and I miss you all at the same time
144 · Jun 2018
What he did
Lily Jun 2018
I can’t look at him after what he did
I can’t be near him after the words he spewed at her
I can’t keep pretending to love this person that is now a stranger
I can’t live with him any more
I just can’t
139 · Jan 2019
The Dark
Lily Jan 2019
I'm not afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what's lurking in the dark
What's waiting in the dark
What's sitting there and waiting in the dark

I'm not afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what I think is in the dark
What I make up and believe

I'm not afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of what's watching me in the dark
134 · Jun 2018
It's Hard
Lily Jun 2018
It's hard to be myself

It’s hard to keep pretending

It’s hard to care about someone you hate

It’s hard to love someone who hurt and left you

It’s hard to care about something when you care about nothing
131 · Jun 2018
Outside in
Lily Jun 2018
I see myself from the outside in

I see the ugliness and  repulsiveness
Of my body instead of the sweet warmth
Of my big heart

I see my big face and huge legs
Before my beautiful spirit

I have become blind to my own image  

I have a big heart, beautiful spirit
So why can’t I love myself?
130 · Jul 2018
Rise
Lily Jul 2018
The sun rises only to set
The stars come out only to disappear
She gets out of bed only to come back to to it
We are born to die

So why rise that day?
Why can’t you just not come out?
why not stay in bed?
Every second we are living we are also dieing

But that’s just how I see the world
don't read this if your looking for a happy poem
129 · Jun 2018
I have a friend
Lily Jun 2018
I have a friend thats smart ,funny and beautiful
But she thinks she is dumb ,boring and ugly

I think she's strong
But in her head the voice is saying
Your weak
no one likes you
They say things behind your back
You will never be happy

This girl is my friend but she’s not just one person
127 · Nov 2019
Heart beat
Lily Nov 2019
I take my heart beat for granted
1,2 1,2 1,2

I take love for granted
I take my friends,family and support for granted

I take my life for granted
127 · Jun 2018
My feelings don’t matter
Lily Jun 2018
I feel hurt because of what you said
I feel betrayed because of what you did
I feel alone because of what you didn't do
I feel fat because of what you yelled
I feel depressed because of you
But my feeling don’t matter
At least not to you
121 · Jun 2018
I'm sorry
Lily Jun 2018
I'm sorry that I was not born a boy
I'm sorry that I have never been perfect
I'm sorry that I make mistakes
I'm sorry that I break everything I touch  
I'm sorry that I have feelings
I'm sorry that you don't love me
But it's not all my fault
118 · Jun 2018
Underestimated
Lily Jun 2018
I am underestimated

People think I'm
quiet ,sweet, smart, and overall
perfect

But the truth is
I'm loud , Rude , dumb
and overall ****** up

I'm hard working but
in their eyes I’m just a girl
that would much rather
go gossip and do my nails

My parents are
divorced  But that divorced
Didn't Break me it made me

Mybie if my parents were
Together I would have been
Different. Mybie my dad
Wouldn't be the ***** up with
The three daughters

I'm tired of crying
over the fact that I'm not who
people think I am

But I don't even know who I
am
114 · Dec 2019
Break
Lily Dec 2019
I break everything I touch
I break things I don't touch
I break love, positions, and people
I break everything

It is always my fault
113 · Jan 2019
You Never
Lily Jan 2019
You said you loved me,
But you never did.

You said we were soulmates,
But you didn't mean it.

You said we would always be friends,
But you lied.

I loved you and I still do. It's you that shut me out, and it was you that try to make my life a living hell.

We were best friends and I miss that.
112 · Nov 2019
Untitled
Lily Nov 2019
I wishing and dream for someone
Someone to hold me
To hug me
To love me

I miss something I never really had
Support, laughter,fun

And that's why I wish and dream
105 · Oct 2019
not like that
Lily Oct 2019
at that one dance you asked if i wanted to be your girlfriend
But i didn't like you like that
not like that
not like that

at school you told people we were in a relationship
but i didn't like you like that
not like that
not like that
years later you came out gay but you weren't sure
81 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Lily Oct 2019
Where do I belong?
I walk theses halls full of strangers feeling empty
I see people I once talked to every day and now we don't even make eye contact.

I feel out of place

I feel abandoned
I once had a ray of hope in my day untill you left and that hope turned to loneliness
I told you my struggles and sadness so in return you pushed me off a cliff into a black, cold abyss and that broke me

You broke me
I don't want you back
I don't trust you
You were my ray of hope and now you are nothing to me
I gave you my everything and I still wasn't good enough
You said you wanted a " break" when I needed you the most
You never loved me
You deleted me
So I guess that means goodbye

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