I loved you when the time was right and it makes it so much harder
To admit to not just my doubts inside that this love will **** each other

She always gets herself ready with her back turned toward the mirror
That way as she’s getting dressed she doesn’t have to see it any clearer
Her reflection staring back at her screaming “you’ll never be enough”
“And that all those who call you pretty only do it to say some useless fluff”
“So no thank you” is what she whispers at 3 am in just her body
A reply to the demons in the shadows that tell her that no one could truly love thee
And she’ll nod her head for all the compliments and give a laugh with every smile
But when she’s all alone they’re merely insults to defile

I can feel my organs failing as I stare up at the trees
I’ll decompose amongst the wood as I bury myself in leaves
And I always made a promise that I’d get away from my home town
But I’ve gone into hibernation so I don’t think that’ll happen now
Because I’m too many lived years restless and just counting down the minutes
‘Til I smear the mud across my eyes and join the earth bound insects
So don’t wake me unless the moon is full and the crows fly north once more
For I shall cast aside my humanity as I sleep upon the forest floor

I welcome the rain with arms open wide
With my face turned upwards towards the sky
And as the drops fall upon my cheeks
I can finally let myself cry for the first time in weeks
Because as the water mingles with the salt on my skin
I can pretend that I’m not weeping from the melancholy within
I will smile with the thunder and add my choked laughter to the wind
Reach my hands up towards the lightning to tempt death whom is my friend
Because with this raging storm around I can claim that it’s not me
But the leaking clouds up high above that cause the teardrops that you see

A bullet fired from your smoking gun
A mouth full of soap and now you’re done
Fowl words leak from your lips
And my mind is spinning like an acid trip

Never before in my life have I wanted love so badly
To have such emotions is to be weak but I can’t help now losing my bit of sanity
The sight of you is enough to leave me breathless and elated
And the thought of your lips upon my own causes my pupils to be dilated