In the winter scene, we shivered quite a lot
And although your kindness kept me warm enough
These insecurities have left me feeling distraught.
So I’m sorry, but for me this is rough.

The lines too good to be true pass by
I'm scared I'll fall a little too deep
and I know you're not one to lie
But mama always said talk is cheap

You, a rare somebody
Are defiantly pleasant to be around
Just your voice is good company
Such a comforting sound

I’m a little unsure of this that is true
I'm just not used to this scenario we're in
But just a single thought of you
Leaves me with such a grin

With you there's just something I feel
And I know for you it's the same
This isn't a proposition or some sort of deal
But if you can't agree, it'd be a shame

I can't get your eyes
Out of my view
they're stuck in my head
Like super glue
and no matter what I try
I can't forget your face
it was just so amazing
Is it possible to replace?
Such an amazing smile
and beautiful eyes
and those lovely
lips that spat out lies
That made my heart spin,
Forcing my blood
to go different directions
and my eyes  to flood
with memories of you
in that tiny room
Where we shared our thoughts
and what we assumed
Is the best way to live.
And that's where we began to part
that's when you left me
with a broken heart

Darkness consumes me during the day
Leaves me empty without say
Asking it kindly with a whisper at night,
Make my pupil small,
Remove my cornea light.

Mentation pushing me 'round
In a mess is where I wound
The mental screen
Refuses to reveal itself
To the iris of this very teen

Full sockets begging to be closed
Understanding is disclosed.
Held open in custody,
Hauntingly alert
I wish for somebody.

To create a path so clear
For the darkness I do not fear
In promise of a reverie
In waiting of Nox
Slip me into lethargy

Was it always supposed to be?
Was it decided by him above?
That it was always meant for me,
To encounter and fall in love.

Was it supposed to afflict
My beating heart and soul?
Was it supposed to make
These eyes
Vacuous with no control?

Force me into recollecting
The feelings
And the thoughts
I had compressed,
Of all those meetings

Inform my simple mind
All that is unfair,
How I Was destined to fall,
As a single, never a pair,
Into Heartbreak and despair..

I guess you're disappearing again, but that's okay
I'll just wait to see you another day
And hope and pray you don't find someone new
While my insecurities eat me through
Till I feel I've lost all possible heart
Till I tear myself part by part
Wondering if you'll show up to put me back in place?
Thinking, Will I ever see that smiling face?

Twirl me around
To this beautiful sound
Let’s just take a chance
After all it’s just a dance
But you’re scared to fall
Cause you’ve been through it all
But we can go at a slow pace
For this is not a race
Let us just have fun
There’s no need to run
We’re just swaying forth and back
Don’t focus on what you lack
Just twirl, sing and laugh
And I’ll do the other half
For tonight we will enjoy
Just as us, a girl and a boy
Searching for a good time
In this musical rhyme

Replaying the motion in my mind
your lips so softly kind
In the moment, I didn’t know
Just how much I would grow

To like you even more
but it just makes my heart sore
for you leave me with confusion
doubting, thinking this is all an illusion

but I can’t deny my heart
for it wants to play this part
Though my mind is diffident
what I’ll show is different

I’ll kiss you to show
What I want you to know
I’ll punch you in the arm
If you bring me harm

My speech just isn’t dependable
It’s almost unbearable
But you’re different, Nothing I’ve seen before
Can I really be the one to open the door?

I love having no strings on
Don't mind old songs that prove me wrong
Loving the burning sensation down my tube of consumption
Leaving Thoughts through lips with no assumptions  

Halting nothing, not even the toxin
Welcoming each one that is approaching
The drowning is just so vacuously dry
In a switch between myself and I

In my possession there is no shell
Just drinking, falling and feeling swell
The confidence in my hand, my new companion
Expressing things, While still standing

Crying, begging for more of the fuel
Not feeling the numb that is so kindly cruel
In searching for it, My bringer of exposed teeth
Sipping, gulping for the underneath