Blake

Blake Nov 2018

Hate

I hate myself

Eveything about me

I'm told that I'm pretty

That I'm enough

But that's for me to decide

And I will never tell myself that I'm enough

Or Pretty

Or that I'm not fat

Because I'm not

I'm not enough

I'm not pretty

I'm not skinny

I hate myself

That will never change

Blake Aug 2018

Yellow

yellow is a color of happiness.

yellow is when she tells you she loves you

it's when you ask her to marry you

it's when she tells you she's expecting

it's holding your little girl for the first time.

yellow is when your little girl brings her first friend over

when she goes to her first school dance

when she gets her first A on a test

When she gets first chair in band

When she walks across that stage to get the piece of paper that helps decide her fate in life

When she gets accepted into her dream college

Yellow is the color of happiness

Sometimes its brighter than others

But its still there

Still yellow

Still happy

Blake Jun 2018

You

Would you care if I was gone?

Would you weep for me?

Does it scare you knowing that I feel this way?

Does the thought of me killing myself make you cry?

Or do you not care?

Does it not bother you at all?

Can you go a week without thinking that I'll **** myself?

'Cause I can't

I think about it almost everyday.

Blake Jun 2018

Itch

My arms and thigh itch at the thought

The thought of running that razor across my skin

The thought of leaving my sadness behind

I want it to end

The pain..the sadness..the void in my chest

I want to give into the itch

I want to take the leap into the chasm

I want to see what's on the other side

I want to leave everything behind

I want to scratch this itch

Blake Jun 2018

Future

we have a future

both of us do

whether we're together or apart

we have a future

nothing is certain

nothing is written in stone

but the future is inevitable

sure, we can hang onto the past

but that will never stop the future from coming

so live in the moment with me

let's live and love together

and maybe

our future will be together

for the rest our lives

living in harmony

in our future

Blake Jun 2018

Die

I wanna die

I'm not going to **** myself

But if I were to get hit by a truck, I wouldn't care

I would be so okay with that

I don't wanna live on this earth anymore

But I'm not making suicide plans anytime soon

I don't want to be alive

I just don't know what to do

Blake May 2018

Leave

You want to leave me?

Go ahead...everyone does

You don't like the **** I do?

Good luck stopping me

So go ahead and leave

Drop everything we've been through

Talk **** behind my back

Go ahead

I'm not stopping you anymore

Because if I were you,

I would leave me too