The sound of my heartbeat in my ears
It reminds me of your footsteps as you walked away

Right now I focus on that beat
It's easier than remembering how
long I've been doing it
When I'm done I'll probably be somewhere else
Either in school or with friends
Right now however this beat suits me
It let's me rest
This beds comfortable and that wall is easy on the eyes

I look at the image of your face on my phone
more often then I should
I wonder why you leave with the swiftest ease
You were/are broken pretty bad

I can't help noticing how selfish I am
sometimes
I wonder when you think of me
I wonder when/if you'll care

I drink in excess
I'm broken myself
My brake makes me a coward
I hope you will forgive me

If/When you leave I'll cry
I'll curse myself, I'll die
in forty years
Because when the time comes I'll
replay every time you told me how you
felt, And I won't stop your leaving
or even try, until you've left and it's too late
And I'll be a huge cliché, just as you told me I was

But until then, I'll piece you together
next to the memories in my head

A precariously warm night
I held my breath in your room with all my might
It grew later and our bodies more tired
We laid side by side
You in my arms and I in yours
Your arms were all I felt
You were breathing ever so lightly
compared to my nervous breath and beat
These were the only sounds I could hear
My face was nestled in your hair
It's sweet essence was all I could smell
I tasted my breath getting sour with sleep
Your eyes were closed and so were mine
Mine were closed for different reasons
Your eyes were closed for sleep
Mine were closed for the memory to keep