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And in those moments, he grew-
Not because of any material success
But the extistential fear of failure,
The fear inoculum, the fear cage
Pinpoint anxiety paralyzes the mind and body hangs in suspension
The quiet four walls are sliding closer
The momentum of ages he built
Sand castles in the hurricane's roar
Functioning sinkhole, it was only time
Black holes keep pulling me into the darkest corner of stars
Micro (the space in between )
Macro (the space that remains)

A drop of rain in a hat
A pebble dropped into a hurried stream
A muted ripple echoes,
Reverberation into the balmy seas
Where jaged nightmares turn to    
  the nicest of pleasantries

Let my warmest hopes
  and even warmer daydreams by
Saturate my soul with
  Nature's calming heart beat
May well-wishes & surreal worlds
  pull me up against the currents deep

Surreal, the new breath of wings,
  as they steady, as they wander,
  where ever they may flow-
  new music begins, inside of each  
  other
Every emotion feels brand new;
life just started to crackle with
electric for a solitary few-
like a brand new box of paint colours

Sweetest love poured out like cool water
  against a heat wave
Poetry read to me as unspoken Wisdom
Words flow like a mysterious birthing    
  of a goddess by twilight-
Gather my helium thoughts floating
  up above all this negative apathy,  
  o glowing euphoria! my soul, new
  sight!

Imbibe. Intoxicate.
Burn it all down again
Like another pyromaniac

Another empty promise
Another spell is broken
Strong willed but oh the compromise

Forevermore to be candle lit-
A lantern to those stuck in the Dark
Weight of the World but still I lift it!

Immortality lies just ahead
The golden war among the gods...
Better in the Land of Living, than living in my head

Another detour, another crash
Craving sugar delight-a drop so sweet!
Oh the wicked battle-I can never outlast

Reality shock, time runs out (tik tok) on the clock
Just another day, another stroke until midnight
Eyes still betray, the smirks always mock

Smoke in the lungs, fire in the blood
Veins go black, fist in the pocket
Dilated irises- take me down into the flood

Like David & Goliath-behead the heathen
Separate the wicked from the elite
Will you be at home with the Angels?
Or down below with all the Demons?

The driving rain, the driving rain
The bone drenching kind-
The wound licking sting still feels the same
Heart quivers slow as rain fills the still lungs
The moon hangs low in the distance
The resistant rivers rise in reverence


Torrents of aqueous onslaught persists
Vertigo-inducing car lights pierce the sight
Wipers on windshields hum a discordant sound
The symphony of thunder endures above
Silhouettes of shadows slink in the corners, hear their ghoulish moans- lo!
As the ultraviolet lightning strikes the underground, such a luminescent glow

Woodland creatures emerge to the edge of the forests clearing
Summit's glory, ascension of such a panoramic wandering
Potions of mushrooms array, white sage absolution, musky phantoms abide by air
Cleansing by fire, embers i breathe, i imbibe, i inhale treasonous poisoning
Earth rumbling delight, warring gods continue as narcisstic skies burn
Honor bestowed for Natures hallowed urn

Isolation
Oscillation
Facilitating Oblivion
Quiet melancholy tears
Fascination with electricity
Frozen rivers chill to the edge of bone
Caught inside the darkened current
Drenched in the technicolor reality
Constructs of psychics & gravity tested
Reeling from the pandemonium
Disguised amusement, digital guillotine
Caught inside the wild enclosure
Solitary are these barred eyes
(Ravenous are the wicked, vile wolves)
Evolutionary path of an apex predator
Facsimile of a copy, no god founded in science
The piercing grind of gears incessantly announce volumes produced
Flashing lights & colours contrast against the internal gears
Neon entanglement of escaping wires
A psychological riddle in the realm of the astrophysical
(Human trials open for all participants)
Electrocution risk- volatile voltage
******* of the remorseful
The senses betray to the beyond
Electric pulsation of pyromania
Reactor arc sequence commenced
Clock strikes midnight dead
Doomsday

Fog chokes the oxygen out of the room
Insomnia screams in my ear canal
Disruptions at the bewitching hour
The veil is low as divination climbs in
Spiritual carnage, invisible warfare
As angels & demons coerce the human landscape
Early mornings portraits of you
The rise and fall of the chest
Irises dilated inside the nesting cocoon
Animal faces echo at morning break
I hear as a fly's solitary wings pulse
Mimicking a heartbeat, reverberate
Open embrace of the celestial void
Fear is a door in the heart

the heartbeat's burgeoning call
the disillusionment of purpose
brings the accursed to their bruised knee
crestfallen angels bend with a baffled gaze
backwards, faces stare into the depths
of cherubim daze
a golden labyrinth of dread breathes,
watch the mischievous smiles fade as they dissipate
jokers jest, their wide open grins are
a source of uncomfortable curiousity
harlequin & porcelaine dolls pine for their maledaption of independence
one thousand gems of sand falling thru the hourglass brings magick & life
a class of budding pantomime,
a life led just too epic and tragically broken
a true tragedy of runes cast
Nauthiz, the lot has been dealt