I thought there was more to feel
than the feeling of emptiness
whenever I’m not holding your hand
and whenever you’re holding hers;

You filled every void of my wounded soul,
and in the end I just needed you there.

I needed you to stay—
wherever the gaps lie.
Even if you belong
with her.

You left a mark on my lips
with the kiss I would forever keep;

you left traces of your fingers
around my waist and down my spine;

and you also left a few scars
along the fine lines of my heart.

You will no longer
be forgotten.

We were talking so sweet
Under the warm, cozy sheet;
We were alone, and we had to go
somewhere far away.

We laid there as he
held my hand carelessly,
Tick, tock,
"I have to go home."

And he kissed me,
and begged for me to stay,
and I did; never have I
wanted to stay
in my life.

I stared at him,
his sweet smell
allover the room;
never have I
adored someone
else’s eyes.

For so long, we laid,
He twirled my hair with
his fingers; kissed me hard,
and wrapped his arms
around my waist.
Tick, tock,
"I have to go home."

And I kissed him back,
eyes closed;
my whole body
quivering before his;
"Do you love me?"
"I do."
"You can’t."
"I know, I know."

This love throws me into a deep sea of confusion;
We just go in circles -- you fall out, I will try,
and when I go, again, you reel me in;
just to cut my strings once more.
such a shame, the state we are in.
And no one’s left to blame but me.

Darling, I will try
not to love you
anymore.

I could write all things I know

from the scar beside your lips,
to the dimple on your left cheek;
how you don’t like going to places,
and would rather stay at home.

I could think of all our secrets

and set them all on fire,
by merely writing them down;
revealing us to the world,
for everyone to see
how broken we truly are.

I could write all things that made me fall for you,

how I loved our short hugs,
and our conversations;
and how I missed you
when I shouldn't.

But in the end,
I would like you to know
everything there is
my heart has been dying
to show.

We are the loveliest thing ever unspoken;
And I loved you so much,
how I wish you felt it, too.

You have been my sweetest
and my hardest fall-
And it’s tragic how something
could be both.

Darling, please remain as broken
and as lovely as you are now.

Take care.

He counts all my scars,
And ignores all my fears;
Holds me ever so tightly,
enough for me to bleed.

He throws his favorite questions,
the ones I always misread;
He drowns me out like water,
enough for me to plead.

But darling, we are not in love.
And we never will be.

But everything, everything-
everything you say,
everything you do,
that would make my heart
skip numerous beats;
everything I wished for,
and everything you would
soon regret.

everything, everything,
would tower out
like pillars in my heart;

I swear you and I
in my memory;
you and I, we’ll be
unbreakable.

When will I love again, the way I used to love you?
Darling, I used to be so sweet, so bright, so new;
When I fell for your eyes, and you fell for me, too-
When will I love again, the way I used to love you?

I used to walk in circles, and you used to be a stranger
You caught my eye, and I should have known better
Than to be blinded by the right words you uttered
But still, I stood before you in complete surrender.

I always thought love was enough to mend all things
So I gave love, tried, in the midst of my heavy breathing;
As I saw remnants of my pride; there, I slowly caved in
And in that moment, love just felt like any other feeling.

I gave up and slowly built my shattered pride
Like walls around my chest, great enough for me to hide;
Strong enough for the strongest tide;
After countless times of loving and giving, I died.