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Bharathi Devi Jun 2015
Half awake, half asleep,
I was into my second cup of tea,
immersed in my newspaper in front.

Suddenly I sense something on my side
Panicking, I pulled myself out of sleep,
only to witness a small spider bungee jumping.

My brain was still booting from the sleep,
The operating system hadn't loaded yet.
So, grabbed a paper and sent it flying elsewhere!

** ** **...it laughed as it vanished,
No clue when I will see it again, Hopefully,
Next time I meet, I will be fully awake!

©Bharathi Devi
Bharathi Devi May 2015
That moment just froze and suddenly my heart was stolen.
I only remember your eyes again and again,
And, that confident voice apologizing for the crash.
Just a second before, I was sensible and logical,
And since then I am pursuing the impossible.

I don’t know why it happened,
But I had fallen steep down the precipice of love.
I don’t know how to realize this unreachable dream,
Nor do I know how to get out of this sticky depth.

I miss you terribly if I don’t see you a day,
Parting in the evenings is really hard,
Just like the setting sun when the day bids farewell;
I wait eagerly for the morning to arrive.

We never have spoken since then; not even a smile.
You look up, or sideways, or anywhere except me when we meet;
I freeze in your presence and words just melt away.
But, I know you must have heard the music of my heart.

© Bharathi Devi
Bharathi Devi May 2015
The cool breeze tickles my face,
The sun plays hide and seek.
There is peace in the air,
A quietness that precedes the sunset.

Most of the young baseball teams
Have already left or, are winding up.
The young basket ball players are still busy
Running around the hoop and throwing the ball.

Walkers and runners, people with strollers
Are all there going around that mile long track,
Surrounded by the tall Eucalyptus trees and
Curious squirrels and the dogs that chase them.

The usual Latino picnickers are less in number.
Some are still barbecuing and eating on the benches.
But there is one group under some tents,
Singing with an all female mariachi band.

The same dog walkers that I see every weekend,
With dogs on strollers, in their backpacks, and walking on their sides,
Are having an impromptu meeting with a bunch of their tribe,
With their dogs eagerly expressing their opinions.

There is a Dance 1 show from Redondo,
With the young kids showing off their just acquired talent,
Dancing asynchronously, but trying their best though,
Sometimes, stopping and watching others.

Batting cage is still active, the clunk clunk sound
Adding background music to the park.
People are still sitting around the pond,
Ducks walking eagerly around them asking for food.

There is a group of people busy eating,
Perhaps members of the "Bigger than the Big” club.
I watched curiously about their transition
From standing to the sitting position.

Shadows get longer, sun is bidding farewell,
Dance team dismantles its stage,
Young dancers with wild hopes,
All start walking towards their cars.

©Bharathi Devi
Bharathi Devi May 2015
I lie down, drowsy and dreamy.
At last, I can sleep today, I think.
My I/O system is about to shut down,
I am about to drift into the dreamland.

Suddenly, a thought surfaces and takes control.
"Remember, you have a leg pain,
that kept you awake until after 12AM?
That was yesterday and days before that"

My brain wakes up and tries to feel my leg.
"No, it is not there! Good! Let me go back!
Or, is it really true? Let me check again.
No, it is not there! Yet! Still! Or, is it?
Oh, now I have! Let me be sure!"

I start turning left and turning right and
lying flat! Now, all the thoughts are up!
The things that I did and should not have done!
Things that I did not do and should have done!

Lost dreams, thrown hopes, hurt feelings,
changed paths, twisted fate, my life until now!
All of them surface at once,
and dance before my eyes!

©Bharathi Devi
Bharathi Devi Apr 2015
I surrender. See there, my white flag,
Flying high? Yes, enough! You win!
I cannot interpret the mute language anymore.
When you shift your glance every time I see you,
Are you telling me you have moved on, or
Is it that I have done something wrong?

So, tell me, what is that you want to say,
Or what is that I need to know?
I am realizing more and more that
The signal processor in my brain is faulty.
It is introducing a lot of noise, so much so that
Fourier Transform gives jumbled frequencies!

Communication either in English or
my mother tongue Kannada, or even
the math symbols or Venn diagrams,
-bits and bytes also would do if not hexadecimal-
may perhaps tune my dud brain
to the right frequency to receive the right signal!

For, I may be causing more damage to us both,
And I certainly do not wish to hurt anybody,
Least of all, you, who I like very much;
I will do anything to set the things right!
So, tell me, what is that you want to say,
Or what is that I need to know?

©Bharathi Devi
Bharathi Devi Apr 2015
The day my heart hijacked my brain,
I fell very deeply under your spell.
Since then, till the day you parted,
My heart was busy freezing the moments.

Paths crossing and the paths parting,
Strangers to each other before and after,
The only moments recorded with time stamps.
In between, they are just snapshots, or short videos.

They keep erupting incessantly,
Reminding me of the days when
My brain was yelling at my insanity, and
The heart kept on ignoring that loud noise.

Now, it is the heart that has been defeated;
It is still not ready to be ruled by the brain,
As every moment it is reminded by these snapshots.
Nonetheless, the brain is trying to help it heal.

©Bharathi Devi

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