You were disappointed

I said I believed in “God”

there may have been air quotes

I don’t know what it means

I can’t die into blackness

my carbon has science

I think it does

I might melt into the earth

she is cozy, warm in the center

I will save myself 

and only look to you for comfort

I tried to show you my confusion 

you had no response

the pain of silence reeks

your judgment is unforgiving

let’s not speak of this again