Sometimes when I lay in bed and think , often at night when pitch black and only the stars blink.  In this life of thirty six years I have found many things that some would hold dear.  But in this journey for the thing that I seek it is very difficult to find and at times may make life seem bleak.

Yet I go on and I continue to look although this information can't be found in a book , it might be written or  even sometimes spoke but if it makes its way inside you ......believe me it's no joke.

It will make you think things that you have never thought and do things that you were never taught .  Because the reason you do this how it makes you feel , like you are aboard a spaceship and you are at the wheel.  Flying so high so hot so fast which in any moment you know you might crash.

But in taking this risk you will quickly see that to find this feeling doesn't come easily , for this feeling is almost like a drug ......but no drugs at all for what I speak of is Love.