To say goodbye ain’t easy,

when you’ve done all that you can..

to convince yourself subconsciously that there’s more to a man..



Then what you see in photographs and read in magazines,

those flawless shining faces on your flashing TV screens.


Accepting to abandon sorrow,

can be a feat fit for a warrior

I was never one to dwell for long, but I’ve always been a worrier.



I’ll let you go, I’ll do it now.


You go your way, I’ll go mine.



And I’ll try to forget those summer days,

where we were tranquilly intertwined.


All those nights I whispered thanks to you,

cause I was scared as hell,

of where’d I’d be perpetually after that final bid farewell



I had a feeling from the start!



I had my doubts and in my heart


I knew, I knew



You were too good to be true.

******* Dog,

You do not

think about the future


Only what's directly in your view


******* Dog,

I really envy your free spirit


And I wish I could

think that way too


Cause lately I've had so much ****

holdin' me down


And though I sometimes hear you whine

You never frown


I've got so many worries now

they're all around


Livin' in this wicked devil town


But

******* dog,

you don't worry at all


******* dog,

you'd rather chase a ball


******* dog,

you make me smile


Big friendly dog,

you aren't hostile


******* dog,

You don't condescend


******* dog,

You're my best friend


******* dog,

You run so fast


******* dog,

You never feel harassed


******* dog,

You never fail


******* dog,

You always wag your tail


******* dog,

So happy and free


******* dog,

******' on a tree


******* dog,

Don't run away


******* dog,

let's have a field day


******* dog,

I'll throw a stick


You can bring it back

It's how you get your kicks



The ******* dog



My ******* dog

Can

we

talk

is a crooked question



Just

say it clear

without suppression



We've had at it now



We gave it all we got



And though I enjoyed our time around

I've thought it through and I have found



You are not

at all

what I initially thought



Babe you can say the same for me

but if you'd look closer, you would see



I did the best I could, I tried to treat you good



They say all good things must someday end

So now it's you and my supposed friends

I guess it all really depends



on whose the shiniest

and the most valuable

at the time

To be home again

To at last return


To end this wretched and wicked burn


To be safe again

To satisfy my soul


To cover this growing and gaping hole


To feel the warmth

To have peace of mind


To no longer feel utterly undefined


To begin again


To

make

it

right


To shatter the darkness

To bask in the light



To be home again


It can never be done


When my very home

was the one to run

You creep around

this gloomy town


I see you everywhere


Invading all our homes and lives

The cause of every tear


You pollute our minds

You put fear in our hearts

Never showing a bit of remorse


Ravaging

Raging

You don't hold back

You take the world by force


But beside the harm you do to us all

There's something I can't get passed

While some see your face every now and again

Others

You cruelly harass


What did my mom ever do to deserve

Your ugly abrasive embrace


You plague her steps

I can see your scars

I can see you on her face


The fastest man can't outrun you

You beast

The strongest can't fight you off

You infest the sick with your repulsive presence

In their beds

In every cough


You're ruthless

You're reckless

And your reach is worldwide

There's not a soul

That can hide


From the moment we're born

Till the moment we're gone

In the shadows

You surly reside


But even if I again feel your grasp

A hundred times worse then ever before

I won't let you manipulate a moment of mine

I won't live in this fear anymore


They can take my breath away slowly

Within you will find no strife

I'll just look you dead in those cold grim eyes

and say

"You never commanded my life"

If I am you

     and you

are me



Why can't

you see all the things that

     I see?



For surely if we were one

like you claim us to be



then my vision must too

    be the vision of you



So then what of this

clear miscommunication



Was the meaning simply lost

due to artless translation



It seems whatever the case

Now I know what is true



Darling, I am me

and lover you

           are you

You never let me down softly


You never disappoint

When it comes to that

Which you cannot

begin to understand

leaves me in a state

so very far from grand


And all I wanted was to take your hand

And all you wanted was some a guy in a rock and roll band


And all I got is the blues


A harp and a

bottle of *****

My ship is sinking

My ship is sinking

And I’ve been thinking

About giving in



Yeh, I’ve been stronger

But that’s not true any longer

Not since my love left me for western waters



She never said goodbye

Hardly gave me a glance, but with a sigh

she said “I think you know what I’m about to do”



And my heart, it then sank low

and the pull from the undertow

brought it deeper and deeper below


Further and farther

into the deep blue



My ship is sinking

My ship is sinking

And I’ve just been drinking


Missing you



What a cruel and crooked god

To toss around the waves


And send the desperate fisherman

to a salty grave



I haven’t seen the sun in weeks

And the storm still rages on


I wonder if the waters will calm

When I’m sunk and gone

When I sleep


Everything is just the same


You are still my darlin' dear

And I'm still the boy that's on your brain


When I sleep


Everything still feels alright


You're still smilin' back at me

in my dreams, throughout the night


When I sleep


I can talk to you again


I can ask you how your day was

I can ask you how you've been


When I sleep


I don't question why you left


I don't question where you went

And I don't question your great theft


But when I wake

All the pain

returns

times three


That's why I sleep

And sleep

While I'm asleep,

from this anguish

I am free


When I wake

I see that lonely space

and cry


The place I felt your sweet embrace

in my bed,

where you used to lie

Throw me out

once you are finished


When your interest

has diminished
  

Nothing lasts

and surely love

eventually fades


Throw me out

once you are done


When you're no longer havin' fun

When the day feels like a rerun


Throw

me

out



Cause all I've ever know

is temporary passion


Feelings change


Quicker then

the newest fashion


Throw me out

at first hint

of something better


Throw me out

Like you threw out

those old love letters

All your blessings
they torment me


I hate this
twisted thing
called fate


All this desire
for creation

without the power
to create


If I could have been a singer
If I only had the voice

I'd find my sense of worth
in a melody

If I only had the choice

When I walk
through halls
of painted beauty

There's a thing I cannot stand

I would add to those
glorious galleries

If I had a crafty hand


But what's free will

without
ability


It feels much more like a lie


How do I fulfill
the yearning inside of me

A flightless bird
dreamin' to fly

Lately, things have been hard

Lately, things have been tough


Lately, we haven't talked

Lately, you've had enough


Lately, I stand alone


Lately, I do not care


Lately, you've been away


But baby,

Once you were there


We met in July

You were gone by October


Haven't seen you in as many

months it's been since I was sober



So I'll take another ****


Get lost

in the smoke


I'll take another sip


Till I don't
walk

I
just
t  r  i p


Cause
Lately, things don't seem right

Lately, it's so hard to sleep at night

You were a mess

He was too

Two kids in lust
with nothing better to do

Kissing and touching
on the cold tile floor

You say your not drunk

Yeh, you say you need more


All of the stress
It's drivin' you mad

Thinkin' of good times that you had


But memories fade with friendships
Now the good times are gone

So we can just black out

Drink on
Drink on

When others

so effortlessly lift you up,

with ease

they too

bring you down



I guess

that's why

in these recent days

in my pocket I carry a frown



Today

I don't feel like gettin' up

to face my faults

and deficiencies



My mind is tired

and my heart is tired

I've known no darker days then these



How many times

must you renew and refine

before

you finally retreat



I've tried my hand

so please understand

now I am rapidly approaching defeat



Every day

it looks like rain

When there's a storm swellin'

in your brain



But the fault

don't go

to the weatherman

lord knows who's the one to blame

You do not exist


You were never there


So I guess all that I’ve been

is a conversationist



To


thin

air



To


empty

space



To a


distant

dream


To the


human

race



They fooled you too,

you spend your days


On your knees or

just thinking through

All the things that your heart desires to do



And I’d rather burn,

then spend my life tryin’ to learn

how to fight every urge,

hopin’ a savior returns.



Yeh, I will dance in lakes of fire

if that’s the way it's meant to be


But till then I’ll live my life


Without limits,

without fear



Totally Free

It's hard to hang up

without a proper goodbye



I was talkin' to a tone

without a chance of reply



Well our love just sprang up

so I guess it's no surprise



but I still can't forget those deep blue lies



I was a fool for your gaze

lord it burned so **** bright



There was no where I could go to hide from the light



And it warmed my chest, as it raised me up

So against my better judgment

I drank up that poison cup



God, that venom filled my blood

No, it didn't take long



Where I was weak

Girl, you made me feel strong



Then as quick as you came

Baby, you fled from me



As swift as the wind as it blows through the trees



I was a fool to fall for your dishonest eyes

when I think of them now

my spirit shrivels and dies



I'm sure that all your intentions were good

but if I could go back



I think that I would



take

it

all

back



take

my

love

back



cause I know


all I lack


and this ain't an attack:



I know this sounds absurd,

but darling you were my bird

I don't want to be a bother,

but will you tell me when I get old?