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Feb 2013 · 405
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Bella Feb 2013
The pain is everlasting when stuck in a whirlpool of nothingness
I'm screaming your name out in this deafening silence
Push me shove me leave me
I don't deserve your help
Fading, falling, feeling smaller...
Death is calling me
Feb 2013 · 336
A Good Book
Bella Feb 2013
I'm not me anymore
The author's pen writes my destiny
My hair is different, face is different
My whole world has changed in an instant
There is no time here
As the pen dictates my actions follow
I'm in a new place and even though I've never been here before everything is so familiar
My true self lays at home in bed but the images of this new place is so vivid, the bed fades away each time I turn the page
My heart crashes into my stomach
I turn that last page and its over
A hard bed and harsh sheets greet me as I come back to reality
Feb 2013 · 407
A stream of blood
Bella Feb 2013
There is alot of pain in my heart
as I sit just sit here in the dark
I try to pour my heart out
but all I can think of is the need to cut,
because if I cut I will bleed
and the pain will be free
It will flow out of me like a steady stream
Even though self harm is frowned upon it helps
more than any pill or bottle it's the ultimate cure
but I'll sit here in this room, I won't move an inch
Until the urge passes me
I'll wait here, I won't even blink
I'll close my eyes and slip into the shadows
Listening to the time softly tic
Feb 2013 · 307
Thoughts of You
Bella Feb 2013
You follow me around as the sun seems to follow you here on earth
You extend to me your warmth and light
Casting shadows out of my life
Even when things cloud you from me you lay in wait, for the chance to be free
Everywhere I go your warm rays dance on me
Eventually you'll disappear but I know in my heart
You're still here
Feb 2013 · 343
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Bella Feb 2013
It's been  a while since the sun has come out
Surprised by how much it's helped
No longer caged like a bird, I'm free
but still something is nagging at me
The thin string tying me to fear
Won't break no matter how far out I veer
but I don't doubt my remedy one day,
I'll live freely for eternity.

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