Stare into my eyes and see the hell i hide behind
Some people say i changed and its harder to relate to me
Good our relationship was make believe
I want life to change but i dont know if it can for a machine ,man whatever the **** i am

Now im thinking who i want to be ?
The lonely loner or the one on the street
We got decisions to make places to be
Forget being fake easy it may be
Look me in my eyes better not be saying lies
My hands are up to the skies and my eyes are shut close
I suppose youll never know the decisions I've chose

Alone alone alone
In my own ******* head
I swear im dying i swear im almost ******* dead
What i say or what i said
I want to play i want to live everyday
But we all have seperate paths
I just need somebody someone
To let me know that when i write im winning the fight .. i can see the light

Sorry to interrupt
Let me'be the first to say life is corrupt
I fall back into bad habits i tried to be happy
But everyone was mad 'killed my mood
Dude i wake up in the night not wanting to live !
I've said before i got so much to give
Noone listens noone cares
I just stare into the black abyss where my heart was

Its 12:05 and I'm not really feeling alive
I dive into situations understanding possible outcomes
But how come i can't have the things i want the way i want
Or maybe i can't have the things that downgrade me
I cant forget ive been saved
Lately you all have been forgetting about me

You're the only person i talk to
Youre funny , that smile is wild
I like your style
I just can't Stop talking to you
It's true I got a thing for you
Whatever you do I hope it's. For the best
I mean I really hope it's for the best
Be about your word girl be kind
You're already fine but there's a line between good and bad
I'll be sad someday because. I have doubts
But I'll shout I need you
Till you see
You
And I
Can be free

Hey can i talk to you ?
My imaginary love
Let me tell you how i feel , wich you care nothing of
I saw 2 or 3 doves fly out of a tree
I said wow that was beautifully free
You were standing next to me being pretty as always
Not paying attention so i didnt bother asking
Im always writing about you and on my phone
Forever multi tasking
So much faces saying hi and passing me by
I cant even lie i like eye to eye conversation
But you're not there you're not here
You're nowhere near my imaginary love

Ive been depressed in a miserable state
Im trying to choose my own fate with weight on my back
Stack stack stack till i crack break my back
Get plenty of looks an  yes im shook
Lifes getting hard im to real not a big deal
Im expressing how i feel hoping that my cuts heal
Living life long filled with love ive been insanely obsessed with my dreams
What is god trying to tell me time temperature ties
Where does my Destiny lye
Im praying facing my head to the sky when i die
Where will i go

Im not trying to be the same as him or her
Im just a tiny raimdrop in a million others
Oh brother the earth is alot
So why is it i cannot become something bigger
Maybe its not what i want
Sure i want happiness and luaghter
But i wouldn't want that all to my self
I want good health and wealth
But not all to myself i want you and you and you
To be happy with me , a big family
With our ups and downs keep everything is cool
And like a school we'll learn we can let thaat fire burn
Take turns to teach love and peace
Keep the light shining in the dark
Take part in something big just make a step
And love everybody

I get so mad i start bleeding out my nose
This is the life that i chose
I oppose a threat to these demons
The past is the past
Let me be the last to say i should have changed
They say im deranged and strange
Living life with these thoughts am i alone ?
I want to go home but i don't have one

I had a dream they were going to steal from me
The people i talk to listen to hear
I had fear i was hiding out
Had a bunch of people shouting out telling me to leave
I didnt have sleeves i was in my work clothes that i chose
I felt i wanted to quit becuase i opose a threat
Three stories tall i was in the second floor they kept asking more from me
Walked up sat on the stairs without a care
Someone called my name but it was the same as another kids

It happens all the time i cant be mad or sad
Im looking for something as bright as your smile girl !
The way you light up rooms , you left me right in a tomb
It happens all the time i cant be sad or mad
My interest doesn't die i never ever lie
I look up in the sky and realize you're too good for me
To good for an "us" another one bites the dust