I want a romance so beautiful that it makes me feel alive
more alive than I've felt in the longest time
I want to feel my entire being throbbing with how much love I have inside of me
To feel a light so deep within my chest that sometimes my breath catches and I have to stop and just slow down and think
Think of how wonderful it actually all is
How I can so easily start over because I deserve to
I want something so **** amazing that it can never be forgotten

today you told me you were thankful for my friendship
boy did that hurt
to know that all of my attempts and sacrifices were pointless
I guess I cant really complain though
we were never destined for more
and part of me always knew that
oh well

the ocean and your eyes might as well be composed of the same things
both are
deep
dark
and have the ability to **** you in and leave you gasping for air

I'm ashamed of who I've become
I always swore that I would fight for what I want
Yet here I am and there you go

Impressions of my fingertips aimlessly scatter across your body like wild flowers growing without a care.
Rising above making themselves known to show there is new life here. The indentation of my bite leaves a trail of indescribable color that I've faced many times.
A trail so familiar its second nature for my lips to make their way there.
As much as I've encountered your body it will never cease to excite the explorer within me.

when I was with you, words couldn't explain what I felt  
I could hardly form sentences
your small smiles and knowing glances made my heart beat so fast and hard that I could feel it all throughout my body
your indescribable scent would invades my senses and I couldn't breath
I used to think it was love
that this was my body's was of telling me, what I felt for you was something deeper
something I craved and needed so badly that I would change who I was and what I believed in just to be with you
but I shouldn't feel speechless with you
I shouldn't be afraid when you're not near
I shouldn't loose focus of who I am to appeal to you
so no matter how much it hurts I have to let you go
just like you let go of me

you've made me feel more than anyone else ever has
love, desire, affection, warmth
all of those feelings are gone now
i'm not fully sure how to function without the emotions you've engraved so deeply within me
the passion for life you gave me is gone
everything you ever gave me is gone
just like you