Mussed-up butterscotch kisses
To the left-wards, right, then catercorner.
Page after chronicle after sometimes elsewhere,
Given the proper motivation, of course.

You make as much sense to me as a twelve-year-old in a stroller.

You're an animal, a ***** ******* animal,
And I will hunt you like the beast you are.
Maybe I'll slay you with a rifle; firepower suits you well,
Or maybe I'll end you with an arrow, swift and silent.
More than not it'll be a knife; personal and wicked.

Then I will hang you above my mantle piece,
So you can watch me sip my tea.

Stranded and standing stark naked
Looking longingly for lost love;
Pulling pounds of putrefied protoplasm
From your feeble foundation;
You exist in an enigmatic environment of errors.

Your words ache and your blood seethes and your mind tremors
At the offenses of time since passed.

Give up the fight; you're careening towards a cataclysmic crash of capacious proportions.

Dependable and safe with the right words for the moment. Steadfast and true.
Chaos of the best kind. Killing me even still. Close my eyes to savor the old pain.
Arid as summer in an hourglass.
Wishful thinking in its most realistic state. Unattainable even in tangible forms.
Walls upon walls of relentless doubt ever grating against my brain.

All alone at night, I sit, plotting my plans for you.
You made me promises you could not keep, but, then again, how could you?

You put your hands around my brain, squeezing every inch of it.
But my stony, cold, forbidden walls thwarted your best efforts.

I will not bend, nor break, nor surrender to you
No matter how desperately I wish to.

"Try one more time."
"No. I'm just too tired. I'm through."

Eager innocence of youth is frost on glass,
So easily wiped away by a careless hand
Exposing the bitter cold world outside.

A frozen heart will drag you down
To a place you ought not visit all alone.

I will hold your hand
You will not drown.

I cried when I thought about you today.
My chest tightened and my heart swelled.
You are so distant, now.
Is it because I limited you when you kissed me?
Kept your hands from exploiting my body?

A long-standing friendship, nearly gone
After awakening a dormant beast.
The words that flowed freely as if chains had burst
hold such little meaning.

You are so distant, now
After tender arms tangled together late at night.
I could have swore there was love in your eyes.
Has it been shadowed by fear?

But don't worry,
I'm a suffer-in-silence type.
You'll never have to hear such things,
Let's just be old friends again.

We'll just be the same as we were.
Old friends.

Cold-hearted, eating others with gnashing, gnawing, tearing teeth
Sacrificing upon a blood-soaked alter without the slightest ray of remorse
Mile long legs with shining green eyes set beneath blonde hair to lure in prey
Shredding them apart with words and movements.
So easy, when made of stone and ice.

Wasting, staring at the ceiling
Ever staring; never truly seeing.
Time, ever sliding, escaping.
Brain decaying, forever melting,
Onto the pillow top draining,
In hours spent unwaking.

In a computer-world, living
Never thriving, only existing.

You have a beard, and I like that  a lot.
It is my favorite thing about you....
Save for the downy hair atop your head, I like that, too.
And your copper eyes; those are nice...
Your big, strong arms and hands are certainly worth noting.
Chest hair, because you're a man... It's pretty cool.

The freckles across the bridge of your nose,
The calluses on your fingertips,
The crinkles in the corners of your eyes,
I guess I'm pretty fond of those, too.

But your smile, I love.
You laugh and I laugh along and life is easy and effortless and kind.
And I want to keep you, and your beard, and your arms, and your eyes, and your smile forever.
But mostly your smile.
I love that.

Here I am before you, now
A broken, hollow cast of what I once was.
I lay my life upon your alter,
Spare me.

I am entirely at your mercy, here in your arms
I give you all I am.
Please shelter what is left of me.
Love me.

Your hands are soft upon my thigh,
And lips are gentle on my neck.
I long for you to understand my fears.
Protect me.

Be my savior in this instance,
Give me a purpose to cling to in your absence.
Hold me to your body.
Save me.

This place I have reached
(I know not how)
Excites me,
Elates me,
Empowers me.

It is not a lovely place
(I know with certainty)
A ***** place,
A wretched place,
A sinful place.

I have tasted fruits
(I ought not have)
Poisoned fruits,
Corrupted fruits,
Toxic fruits.

I have felt the caress of your lips upon my skin
No revenge tastes as sweet as the poison in my mouth.

I have seen you
And I have experienced your light.
I have loved you fondly
Beyond all that I know now or ever had before.

But you are dark.
You are destructive.
Like the plague you leave chaos in your wake.
You **** people.

You took me in your hand
And with your silver tongue, destroyed me.
I hate you.

But, I can't.
I loved you too fondly.
I know your light.