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**** this poem
I wish it was more interesting....

"Days like these r the days I love. High and with people I love no worries in the world. "

Florida in 2 weeks 
Scared feelings of forgetfulness 
Life is great 
Will there be better
Will they stay
In the touch of a cloud like today
Tommorow is new
Yesterday is far away
Days in todays always stay
Forever is a never 
A excuse to pervers men
Yet tomorrow is new
Don't stop 
Chug chug like a train

I'm only one
I'm not a million
Why treat me like I am?

I hate that I cry every time I think of you.
Maybe not in tears
But my soul feels it.
My body feels it.
Because a pain will never go away
All because you decided to
One day father. I hope you feel the pain too.

I still can't get over the fact that you said goodbye.
All those tears I cried.
All those wounds I have cut.
I never felt enough.

Yea i get it, your new family is better.
But i am your blood,
your youngest daughter.

I was daddy's little girl.
You were my hero.
I remeber when we saw Rob Zombie
That's one of my favorite memories.
I'll never forget...

I'm sorry I said those words.
Got ****** and shouted back.
But your new wife daddy,
she's got some loose nuts.

5 years later daddy,
you have missed so much.
The first boy i kissed,
The first time i cried,
over some stupid guy...
You missed so much, you missed
my life..

I get a call from my grandma,
She says your dying.
I can't believe this,
I'm the only one you want to see.
I always knew you still loved me.

I get there and I ****** up,
i disobeyed her rule,
DON'T BRING YOUR, GRANDMA, YOUR MOM. ONLY BRING YOU!
Now there dragging me down the hall.
I'm screaming no daddy no!
Please let me explain,
Please don't make me go...

You tell me i can't see you again,
that was the last time.
and no I'm dying..atleast not for a while.

I drown my sorrows in drinks and fun.
I try my damdest to forget about what you've done.
Then one day while i was at work.
You walk thru the door, i thought i was berserk.
I start to cry, no this isn't true.
My daddy has come back.
I run to you.

You tell me you found God and
you left your wife.
You tell me the docs say
you've got 4 years left of life.

Things are  really good now,
you moved back to town.
you come to my work
Just to clown around.

Then one day...
The visit start to fade.
You have been so busy.
I feel like i am in your way.
Then the next thing i know,
you're back with your wife.

I support you in hopes you
won't leaveme again
I should have learned the first time,
but i never will

I named my son after you,
and now your gone again.
you're going to miss his first words
his steps,
his laugh.
You're going to miss his life.


Do you even care that i miss you dad?
I really hope she is better then that.....

I am a single mom
even though his father lives with me
we love each other
we sleep in the same bed
but i am alone
always gone
either business
or pleasure
always here
i never leave...
alone
alone
      *Alone

You're beauty
I'm the beast
I wish you would come save me...

The darkness surrounds me
Swallows me whole
I sit and watch as the lights go by shimmering hopes and dreams going by one by one
They never knew I was here
Neither did i
As I'm lost in this place of the unknown
By body and soul have froze
Turning days into weeks
Forgetting what the outside world looks like
Wondering if the smell of the trees are the same
Or the color of the dandelions
My head is a comfortable place
But i wish i could escape.

I miss the days
When I didnt have to fake a smile

I just can't take it anymore
this feeling
its driving me
your driving me
i hate you
all you do is leave
"be home later"
i'm left  here
with OUR son
it pains me
i hate this
i'm so lonley
you have fun
I'm not involved
do you even
love me
it's hard
not to cry
i really wanna
die...
i wish you
would just stay
stop leaveing me
or i'm gone....

Oh Sunshine,
They all told me not to be with you.
They told me you were a gateway to bad things.
I found out one day in my car...
They lied to me!
You're amazing.
You take me to new places.
I've seen so many things.
You even saved my life once when I was 19...
I love you so much.
Thank you for showing me the truth.
Oh ****, dear ****.
xoxo
-Becca D.

Dying....all alone
My hearts been dying
For far to long

Fighting for a reason to get out of bed
To get out of my head
And to touch the ground
I'm swallowing myself whole
If i dont get up now
There is no turning back
The world has giving me lots of reasons to smile and be seen
But none of thoes reasons are the ones that I need

She stood there for over a hour
people walking by
all she wanted was for someone to say hello
that little word..
it could mean so much
exspecially to someone so small
her tears started running
its like a marathon on her face
still everyone walks by
not a speck of worry
not even a trace
she takes one more step
she's close to the edge
there is no turnning back
she can never go back
she freezes just standing there
so close
so close....
is it possible that the world has stopped?
her heartbeat is all she hears
She forgots about her worries
she have no pain
no fears
for a moment she is happy
and then she forgot to breath
that jump wasnt so bad
could this be a dream
she sinks to the bottom
her body hasnt moved
but then the next thing she knows
you're takeing her from the blue
you scream her name
whisper your love
her heart belong to you once
you told her she wasn't enough....

around the corner.
underneath  the table
it lays it waits
it speeks to me
when you see it dont run
stay and play
keep it warm
feel its power
understand it's love
don't be afraid
take it in
i want you to stay

There sitting in the tiny chest
is MY secret to happiness.
When i open it up...
I can smell it.
When i feel it...
My worries go away.
Let's go turn that green to gray

To be happy is a distant thought
A washed up memory that never really exsisted
Lost in my soul from a place far far away
Dark and cold it lays
Never to return or see the light of day
My whole life I wanted to be happy
But now I'm just content.

Content knowing my destiny is to be a slave to life
Never live. Never have meaning. Never be happy.

It's easy to be yourself
It's hard work to be beautiful,
Desired or even ****
I just, one day, want to be
All of those things
It breaks my heart that I can't be that for you

So i asked her, Is it all real? Heaven and Hell?
she replied, I don't want to talk about it.
And then I woke up.

It hurts so bad,
I know I ****** up.
I'm sorry Justin....

My heart feels empty.
You left me
You're gone.
I'm sorry Justin...

I didn't mean to break your heart.
Please take me back.
Please forgive me
I'm sorry Justin...

My heart has blown up.
I'm screaming your name
I'm beggin god PLEASE help me..
I'm sorry justin...

The love i have for you,
it's so ******* strong.
The thought of life with out you.
Every ******* thing is going wrong!
I'm sorry Justin...

I hope you can forgive me.
I hope you can turn the other cheek.
I'm sorry justin, please come back to me.

The answer to life is death

Invisible like a shadow
There but no one cares
Like Peter Pan
Terrified of who I
Or maybe I don't understand

I can feel my heart breaking.
It happens all the time.
Your words stab right through me.
You won't ever understand why.
I wish you would just let me be
Because when my heart starts breaking
I cant seam to get ahold me
I can feel it breaking
Shattering like glass
What am i to do when you
....
When i cant fix it anymore
When all of our problems spill out on the floor
Will you feel regret on the day that I left
Or will you say goodbye like we never even met

I will never forget,
the first time we met.
Your eyes were blood shot red.
Your best friend was my pet.

You were so cute, and funny.
I secretly wanted you to be my honey.

Now we are so much more.
You drive me crazy,
but you will always be my baby.
My heart belongs to you.

I am so happy that when you walked through that door.
Your best friend introduced you as

JOHN HOLMES JUNIOR :)

You remind me of so much.
So many times,
memories.
They will never fade.
My heart has a spot.
That spot belongs to you.

I sit and i watch you
That look in your eyes
It was just a joke but the fire from your mouth breeds a different story
There's pain where you lay
I wish i could get down there with you too
But you won't allow me
You push me away with your screams and your hate
When you see the redness in my eyes
From a night of lonesome crying
I can almost see you
I wish i could see you
But you push me away with your screams and your hate
And the day that I'm gone
Maybe i will see you
Maybe you will let me see you
      I just want to see you

WARNING:
A very very ***** parody of the song "Lips of a angel" by Hinder
(listen to song while reading, it will make more since)
(See notes for more details)


Honey why you queefing tonight.
It's kinda hard to **** right now.
And honey why you queefing,
is everything okay?
I like the way your whispering eye sounds.

Well, my ***** in your *******.
Sometimes I wish it wasn't.
I guess we never really lubed enough.

I heard you like to play with toys.
You're screaming my name,
was that a *****?
Coming from the lips of and angel,
the way you ***** it makes me seep.

And i, never want to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful.
With the "lips" of an angel.

It's funny that you're queefing, right now.
And yes, i've dreamt of this too.
Dose he know you're ******* with me,
can we please just try.
Baby please don't say you have to poo.

Well my ***** in your *******.
Sometimes i wish it wasn't.
i guess we never really lubed enough.

I heard you like to play with toys.
You're screaming my name,
was that a *****?
Coming from the "lips" of a angel,
the way you ***** it makes me seep.
And i, never wanted to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful.
With the "lips" of a angel.

I heard you liek to play with toys.
you're screaming my name.
was that a *****?
Coming from the lips of a angel
the way you ***** it makes me seep

And I never wanted to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful,
with the "lips" of and angel.

I never wanted to see you're brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful,
with the lips of a angel.

Honey why you qeefing tonight.

I'm a devil I'm here to take your soul
I'm immortal, I can't fall in love
Ten moons from now I will take you with me
I never thought you'd be my everything
I've fallen in love
But I'm out of time
Goodbye my love
Here take my soul
When you wake up ...
I will be gone

I've died inside at least a million times.
I didn't know i could live this long.
I've cheated death one to many times,
and now i'm about to die.
The world looks so pretty,
so wonderful,
so true...
But wait until she shows you what she's got in store for you...

I see you!
You're right there!
....hello there
Why are you swinging?
Can I join you?
Hello
Answer me....
Please.
I came here to see you.
Why won't you answer me?
What's that smell?
Can u hear me?
Will u please answer?
I'm coming closer...
I want to play with you.
.....
........
............
What happened?!
Are you okay?!
Wait I know who are!!


To be continued

I wish, I wish, upon a star
that cinderella, snow white
and magic was real.

I wish, I wish upon a star
that prince charming
would sweep me off my feet.

I wish I wish upon a star
that i would have a happy ending.

I wish I wish upon a star
that I could really wish upon a star
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My fear inside...
Rips through my flesh.
It's brings my deamons right out of my chest.
I can hardly breath.
My hands start to shake.
I wish I could get out of theses chains.
My hearts beating fast.
I have no escape.
Please God ,someone help me.
I can feel it, this dismay.
I'm up on stage.
Everyone can see me.
I can hear them,
they are all talking trash.
Makeing me feel like a discarded ash.

Oh bently
little bently
you are my pride and joy
oh bently
little bently
you're amazing
oh bently
dear bently
PLEASE STOP GROWING!

Yellow is your color
To bad your not mine
You're dancing around in my head
I wish u would just go home
Nothing makes since
The pain hurts to much
Red is my color
To bad I'm not yours

What is peace but a fight that is won
what is peace but two wrongs that was made "right"
what is peace, it's not what we think
peace is a state of mind
not many can get there
peace is every where.
we just choose to take the hard way.

We all start the same,
a ***** and a egg.
Then we are born.
Some are shaped and molded
made to perfection
never to be folded.
But some are like me,
we shape ourselves.
We hate those people,
who get put on shelves.
But deep down inside,
I wish I was molded.
Not folded and turned
I wish I was a trophy
to show on the shelves.

I just wanna give up.
Say **** this love and shake it off.
You never give me your all.
and all I ever want to do is fall,
in love again.
I've lost my heart...
You stole it.
Well i gave it.
Now i regret it.
I hate what you have made me.
Do you even care?
Do you even know,
Know I am who I am
because of you...
Some times i wish i never met you.
I hate you
You disgust me.
My rage inside makes me cry.
And you only care about your self.

Why can't you hear me?
Pain hurts most when it's deep down.
The cigarette smoke that fills my lungs
Makes me happy because it kills me.
It ***** to get pretty and not leave the couch.
It ***** to be unhappy,
And you're not allowed to explain why..

A summers day will never compare to the feeling of when you touch me
The warmth of our souls when we connect
The feeling I get when you hold me
Kiss me
Love me
No words can describe how my heart beats for you
If you listen closely it will speak to you
But only if you listen with yours

She wakes up.
It's early in the morning.
The baby is crying,
yet he lays there asleep.
This happens all the time.
Her son is a sweet baby,
but she dosen't understand why he never helps.
She wants to sleep in.
She wants to rest.
It's out of the question.
They say home is where the heart is.
She says her heart is inside those hazel eyes.
almost everyday she questions,
would she even be here if those words
"i'm pregnant"
ever came out of her mouth.